Yup, job officially sucks, but I guess I've talked about that in my previous entry, so I guess I don't have to talk about the retired grandpa who works as a temp. worker just like me, but does nothing but check documents, doesn't print, fax, fetch, but just sit his butt out and stay until 5.30pm even tho there's nothing for him to do.
So anyway, I'm so pissed right now! All my 500+ songs that I'd painstakingly downloaded from MIRC are gone! Not to mention my IMesh with its BTVS related downloads!
I bet its that fugging Microsoft Antispyware program he just got; went too high on the setting that deleted my MIRC sounds folder and IMesh program. Or maybe he just went bonkers and deleted my sounds folder, allowed the program to delete my IMesh and decided to clear it from his head. The point was, he INSISTED that he didn't do it! So who did? A poltergist? Riiggghtt. Grr!
All my songs! I'd found some really awesome ones recently, and I barely listened to them since I've been working. Who's gonna re-download the 500+ songs that I had? I'm sure he's not going to do it, nor will some of the songs still be there.
Sigh. Work sucks. Now life have to sucks too. I sorta cut work today and wanted to go to the polyclinic to get a MC, but the freakin' indian lady did not want to give me one. Pardon me, but I KNEW I won't get one from her when I took a peek, because Indians and Malays are SO racist towards people who aren't their race.
I mean, yea, maybe some of them had been treated that way by Chinese, but hello? No more now! It's really more racially equal now and they have to face up. She was just so cold-hearted when I felt terrible. I bet she'll give Indians any MC they need, man!
With that stupid clause in my contract that says I have to forfeit 1 month's pay(even tho I'm kind enough to do stuff that AREN'T stated in the contract, they aren't so kind) if I can't provide a MC for cutting work, I'm pretty much edgy and grouchy now. Not the best idea of a nice weekend.
Life really sucks. Last month, Mum went to a temple and er, you know, talked to those "Ji Tong", I don't know what they are called in English, but they say I'm in bad luck recently. I drank 5 burnt talisman in water and had diarrhoea everyday, and went to a temple to pray, so that my mum can have an ease of mind.
Then hey, things REALLY did seem to get better, but it's a sham. Or at least it was temporary. Life's back to the sucky factor for me now. Sigh. I just hope to get by 3months soon and quit the stupid job. I don't care what others say about me being a quitter or whatever, because hey, try working 9hours a day, 5 1/2days a week, be at 10people's beck and call, no leaves, no slack, no benefits, and get less than $650 a month. Try dealing with THAT!
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Sweet Sunday
*Stretches* Ah~ It's the weekend. Finally a day that allows me to sleep late and wake up in the afternoon. It's beautiful lol.
I'd wanted to update on Friday night, or rather, Saturday morning, but I was soo tired after going out with them, I fell asleep immediately once I was on the bed.
'Cos you know why? We went to Sparks LOL! As usual, they heard that alot of 'cais' go there now since so many pubs in MS have closed down. Indeed, there were much more people in Sparks now then it used to be, and the girls there now are so HIONG! Seriously, it weren't what it used to be lol. Sparks used to be my 2nd home (No, I didn't regard Poly as my 2nd home =P) ever since I was 16. Now I'm just out of place there. Glad we moved on to ChinaBlack and Zouk =P
Anyway, I wrote this down on yellow sticky pad in office on Friday, so I guess I should type it in:-
"Something's wrong with me today... It is 10.10am, and I'm working as per norm, checking the application documents when James Marsters came into my mind, again. Those who followed my blog might have noticed my infactuation with him since a while ago, and I can't seem to curb it.
I thought I could satisfy this.. Hunger, by reading books that he has a part in, watching the TV shows & movies that he acted in, and listening to his music.
But no, this feeling, almost like nostalgia, hit me pretty hard today. I could barely concentrate on work, and my mind is like intoxicated and practically spinning off purely his images.
In fact, this train of thoughts are being written by me now, on yellow stick pads on my workdesk.
I'm having a little problem maintaining a normal breathing pace. Let's hope I'm just unwell.
Even tho my hands and eyes are checking and marking the documents (But relatively slower), I have this overwhelming feeling that my mind, conscious and sub-conscious alike, are ONLY swimming with thoughts and images of J.M.
I smile his distinctive smile when I see something funny, tilt my head often,unconsciously, just like the way he did in BTVS.
I'm having it BAD. VERY VERY BAD. I've never had... This longing so bad before. It's both sensual and scary.
Does anyone has this experience before? Share with me, but don't mock me and call me mad. Don't judge me if you don't know me. You will know how real it feels, how real it IS, if you were in my shoes.
I wish I can make enough money soon enough to fly over to America to see him in a performance or anything, to satisfy this hunger.
It's killing me slowly... "
Yea that was all *blush* It's kinda embarassing to share on the Net, but I won't deny I felt that way. I'm sure I'm not the only one. *Sigh*
I'd wanted to update on Friday night, or rather, Saturday morning, but I was soo tired after going out with them, I fell asleep immediately once I was on the bed.
'Cos you know why? We went to Sparks LOL! As usual, they heard that alot of 'cais' go there now since so many pubs in MS have closed down. Indeed, there were much more people in Sparks now then it used to be, and the girls there now are so HIONG! Seriously, it weren't what it used to be lol. Sparks used to be my 2nd home (No, I didn't regard Poly as my 2nd home =P) ever since I was 16. Now I'm just out of place there. Glad we moved on to ChinaBlack and Zouk =P
Anyway, I wrote this down on yellow sticky pad in office on Friday, so I guess I should type it in:-
"Something's wrong with me today... It is 10.10am, and I'm working as per norm, checking the application documents when James Marsters came into my mind, again. Those who followed my blog might have noticed my infactuation with him since a while ago, and I can't seem to curb it.
I thought I could satisfy this.. Hunger, by reading books that he has a part in, watching the TV shows & movies that he acted in, and listening to his music.
But no, this feeling, almost like nostalgia, hit me pretty hard today. I could barely concentrate on work, and my mind is like intoxicated and practically spinning off purely his images.
In fact, this train of thoughts are being written by me now, on yellow stick pads on my workdesk.
I'm having a little problem maintaining a normal breathing pace. Let's hope I'm just unwell.
Even tho my hands and eyes are checking and marking the documents (But relatively slower), I have this overwhelming feeling that my mind, conscious and sub-conscious alike, are ONLY swimming with thoughts and images of J.M.
I smile his distinctive smile when I see something funny, tilt my head often,unconsciously, just like the way he did in BTVS.
I'm having it BAD. VERY VERY BAD. I've never had... This longing so bad before. It's both sensual and scary.
Does anyone has this experience before? Share with me, but don't mock me and call me mad. Don't judge me if you don't know me. You will know how real it feels, how real it IS, if you were in my shoes.
I wish I can make enough money soon enough to fly over to America to see him in a performance or anything, to satisfy this hunger.
It's killing me slowly... "
Yea that was all *blush* It's kinda embarassing to share on the Net, but I won't deny I felt that way. I'm sure I'm not the only one. *Sigh*
Saturday, April 02, 2005
SLEEPY!
Man... It's only 11.40pm now. I got tired since 10pm+! -_-"
Anyway, as you can see from my previous entry, I've finally gotten a job! Not the best kind there is, if I wanna name out the bad points of it, I'll prolly go into a temper, but I guess it'll do, lol.
I'm working at LTA (that's your gov. sector Land Transports Authority for you) but it isn't a biggie position. Fancy designation, Service Support Officer, but my job scope is more like OA, office assistant or an Admin Assist.
Sure, I handle green forms, car insurance and some COE calculation etc, but I also need to do Ad Hoc stuff, things the "colleagues" who work there ask me to do. The reason why I put " " is because I'm purely referred to as a temp. staff. Even when I'm on a 1 year contract.
Pretty basic job scope tho. Pick up faxes, print stuff, check documents etc. It's more boring than tiring. What's tiring is waking up 7am in the morning. *Yawns~*
Other than that, the job basically sucks. The pay, ugh, $5/hr, not a monthly basis one, so go figure. I get SOO little per month, I'd rather go back to MacDonald's. A full time 6days week sales job without CPF might get me about TWICE the pay I'll be getting for this job. Moreover, I am entitled to, well, NO benefits what so ever, meaning no 7-14 days of leave in a year, not alternate Saturdays work week aka FULL 5.5days week.
It's all because of my agent. She seems so nice and bubbly, I let her mislead me. She missed out all the bad things that I should know and keep answering my doubts quickly (but unclearly) so I give up asking after asking repeatedly for the 2nd - 3rd time. The contract she made me sign said that I only have to work alt Saturdays, and start at 8.30am on Saturdays instead of 8, etc etc.
I guess I'll have to make do with it for awhile. I'll at least have that 1 year experience I need for other Admin Assist. etc's jobs for the future. Government jobs = low pay, stable career.
Life... *Sigh*
Anyway, as you can see from my previous entry, I've finally gotten a job! Not the best kind there is, if I wanna name out the bad points of it, I'll prolly go into a temper, but I guess it'll do, lol.
I'm working at LTA (that's your gov. sector Land Transports Authority for you) but it isn't a biggie position. Fancy designation, Service Support Officer, but my job scope is more like OA, office assistant or an Admin Assist.
Sure, I handle green forms, car insurance and some COE calculation etc, but I also need to do Ad Hoc stuff, things the "colleagues" who work there ask me to do. The reason why I put " " is because I'm purely referred to as a temp. staff. Even when I'm on a 1 year contract.
Pretty basic job scope tho. Pick up faxes, print stuff, check documents etc. It's more boring than tiring. What's tiring is waking up 7am in the morning. *Yawns~*
Other than that, the job basically sucks. The pay, ugh, $5/hr, not a monthly basis one, so go figure. I get SOO little per month, I'd rather go back to MacDonald's. A full time 6days week sales job without CPF might get me about TWICE the pay I'll be getting for this job. Moreover, I am entitled to, well, NO benefits what so ever, meaning no 7-14 days of leave in a year, not alternate Saturdays work week aka FULL 5.5days week.
It's all because of my agent. She seems so nice and bubbly, I let her mislead me. She missed out all the bad things that I should know and keep answering my doubts quickly (but unclearly) so I give up asking after asking repeatedly for the 2nd - 3rd time. The contract she made me sign said that I only have to work alt Saturdays, and start at 8.30am on Saturdays instead of 8, etc etc.
I guess I'll have to make do with it for awhile. I'll at least have that 1 year experience I need for other Admin Assist. etc's jobs for the future. Government jobs = low pay, stable career.
Life... *Sigh*
Thursday, March 31, 2005
HAHAHA I GOT ACCEPTED HAHAHHAHA
Whoop de doo!!!! I got accepted for an admin assist. position at LTA! WHOOP DE DOO!
I'm still all jittery inside wondering if they'll "un-accept" me at the last minute and leave me all disappointed, but my friend told me it's nearly impossible. Let's hope so!
Did I mention WHOOP DE DOO?! Lol okay sorry for being so crazy, but this is such of a fresh start I can hardly breathe properly. I'm so nervous and excited all together!
Anyway, an hour after I sent in the complaint email (=p), Ronn called me (She's a very bubbly and pretty lady from Recruit Express) and sounded more excited then me lol. She kept congratulating me that I was accepted for the job, while I was there, dumbfound and laid back.
Now that my head is clearer, it's awesome! It's all perfect really, Sin Ming Drive, LTA, bus 130 right below my block and straight near the doors of the building, I'm grinning and chuckling so hard to myself, I can't believe its true! I just hope everything will go fine *cross fingers >_<*
Sorry for sounding all so Hip Hip Hurray mood, but it's really been awhile since I got a job. It has a 1 year contract tag, but I think I can cope. I will. xD
I'm still all jittery inside wondering if they'll "un-accept" me at the last minute and leave me all disappointed, but my friend told me it's nearly impossible. Let's hope so!
Did I mention WHOOP DE DOO?! Lol okay sorry for being so crazy, but this is such of a fresh start I can hardly breathe properly. I'm so nervous and excited all together!
Anyway, an hour after I sent in the complaint email (=p), Ronn called me (She's a very bubbly and pretty lady from Recruit Express) and sounded more excited then me lol. She kept congratulating me that I was accepted for the job, while I was there, dumbfound and laid back.
Now that my head is clearer, it's awesome! It's all perfect really, Sin Ming Drive, LTA, bus 130 right below my block and straight near the doors of the building, I'm grinning and chuckling so hard to myself, I can't believe its true! I just hope everything will go fine *cross fingers >_<*
Sorry for sounding all so Hip Hip Hurray mood, but it's really been awhile since I got a job. It has a 1 year contract tag, but I think I can cope. I will. xD
Bah... I'm so pissed!
BAHHHHH.... I'd just woken up to a totally irritating call just now. I should have sticked to my original decision to not answer it.
It was from Today's Career, and I know, okay, I didn't go for an interview they arranged for me, which is irresponsible, but hey, GIMME A BREAK! The Alice woman talked to me like she was my mum, and she talked like I NEEDED THAT JOB BADLY, and wouldn't survive without it. "As someone stepping into the working society and looking to survive, what you have done is very irresponsible. Do you know blah blah blah" or something like that.
And her tone of voice! Man, when she added a "Thank you very much" at the end of the scolding, I wished I was there in her face to splash my glass of water in her face (if there will be any). She'd only added that because she realise she was talking too harshly to a client. Even if not, I'm so NOT going to accept sarcasm from a stranger who reprimanded me. So instead, I hung up on her straight after she said thank you(which is the first time I've done to agencys) and I've blacklisted their company.
If their lousy website had a complaint section instead of just a Contact Us link which links directly to our email, I would have done something already. Bah. Started my day in a bad mood. Stupid woman! *Grr*
It was from Today's Career, and I know, okay, I didn't go for an interview they arranged for me, which is irresponsible, but hey, GIMME A BREAK! The Alice woman talked to me like she was my mum, and she talked like I NEEDED THAT JOB BADLY, and wouldn't survive without it. "As someone stepping into the working society and looking to survive, what you have done is very irresponsible. Do you know blah blah blah" or something like that.
And her tone of voice! Man, when she added a "Thank you very much" at the end of the scolding, I wished I was there in her face to splash my glass of water in her face (if there will be any). She'd only added that because she realise she was talking too harshly to a client. Even if not, I'm so NOT going to accept sarcasm from a stranger who reprimanded me. So instead, I hung up on her straight after she said thank you(which is the first time I've done to agencys) and I've blacklisted their company.
If their lousy website had a complaint section instead of just a Contact Us link which links directly to our email, I would have done something already. Bah. Started my day in a bad mood. Stupid woman! *Grr*
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Wow... I'm actually back. Anybody got job lobangs?
I don't think my friends look at my blog anymore lol... Most of them think I've abandoned it. Well yea... Kinda. I just guess I should come back. It's not nice to abandon something I've wrote in for a few months already, will it?
=P Anyway, I've been finding jobs recently. It'd proved to me that its TOUGH. I didn't think I would take this long, but I've went for a couple of interviews and agencys for the past 2 weeks, and none are successful.
I thought that it might be due to the fact that O's students are on break now, and have a couple more months before school starts. STILL, I have an O's cert myself *ahem* and I at least did 1 year in polytechnic. That shouldn't be the reason. Moreover, more people will start graduating in May-July... It might be even tougher then. Even if all I'm looking for is an admin assistant position.
At least I'm trying. But I'm starting to give up, after what had happened this 2 weeks. The agencys will call and give me hope over and over again, but I would get no further news from them. *Sigh*
Therefore, I'm appealing to all my friends out there who actually still peek at my blog once in a while. GET MEH SOME JOB LOBANGS! Lol... I DO have a friend, Gary, who had been very helpful and compiling lists after lists of jobs that I might want, but apparently none of them wants me.
Anybody have Cashier/Admin Assist. jobs? I would appreciate it very much :) Take care, friends~
=P Anyway, I've been finding jobs recently. It'd proved to me that its TOUGH. I didn't think I would take this long, but I've went for a couple of interviews and agencys for the past 2 weeks, and none are successful.
I thought that it might be due to the fact that O's students are on break now, and have a couple more months before school starts. STILL, I have an O's cert myself *ahem* and I at least did 1 year in polytechnic. That shouldn't be the reason. Moreover, more people will start graduating in May-July... It might be even tougher then. Even if all I'm looking for is an admin assistant position.
At least I'm trying. But I'm starting to give up, after what had happened this 2 weeks. The agencys will call and give me hope over and over again, but I would get no further news from them. *Sigh*
Therefore, I'm appealing to all my friends out there who actually still peek at my blog once in a while. GET MEH SOME JOB LOBANGS! Lol... I DO have a friend, Gary, who had been very helpful and compiling lists after lists of jobs that I might want, but apparently none of them wants me.
Anybody have Cashier/Admin Assist. jobs? I would appreciate it very much :) Take care, friends~
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Valentine's.
Seoul Raiders Movie. Lovely Turquoise Armani Exchange Bag. Sweet Pink Guess Wallet. Intoxicating Burbon Coke At Indo/PhoChine. A Great Day Out For Me To Enjoy Myself. Even The Present That I Yet To Receive From My Friend Because I Was Unable To Meet Up.
Thank You. Valentine's Day Was Wonderful. Happy Belated V'Day To All.
Thank You. Valentine's Day Was Wonderful. Happy Belated V'Day To All.
Sunday, January 30, 2005
A New Life.
Please dear Buddha... dear God. Will me to forget the existance of Melvin Lim Jie Ying. Will me to be strong enough to leave him and start my whole life afresh. Will that my friends still remember me and are still willing to give out a caring hand.
Pls pls pls make me feel strong... My hands are trembling as I type and I really don't know what life will be for me from now on. I never once dared to imagine life without him by my side; all the people around us have gradually accept that we're gonna stay together till we vow, till death do us part.
Nevertheless, it was obvious our relationship wasn't gonna end up anywhere good. I loved him so much, I still do, but it's getting meaningless. I really wish for someone to treat me right... To care for me and make me feel secured. He once did, but its gone now. I could never feel secured around him anymore, nor do I think he's sincere to marry me anymore. He just wants to get rid of me every single time I initiate breakup in the heat of the moment. I just wish I didn't fall so hard for men everytime, just like a fool.
Thinking about all my past relationships, I think I'm just a fool for love. My mum always remind me not to fall so deeply in love, but make the guy love you more than you love him. Yea in theory it works... But I never could. The guys always take a liking to me at first, and I end up falling head over heels in love with them in the end. I just wanted so much for someone to make me feel secured so that my heart won't be broken anymore... Guess I'd been asking too much...
I really don't know what to do... I know that I must leave him for good... He's already sick of all these break ups and never 'wan liu' me anymore... He always just give me best wishes. I should have seen it a long time ago. I'm so dumb... It's all over. Even if we get back together next time, we will have no future. I know he loves me deeply too but I don't want to waste his time anymore.
All I want now is to be able to get over him... I asked him to not answer my calls anymore, and I told him to ask his family to ask me to fark off if I end up calling his house. I'm going to tell my mum about the breakup instead of hiding it, so she would stop me from doing the foolish stuff I always do. I don't want his friends, or ultimately him, laughing at pitiful me, unable to get over a relationship I initiated breakup. He's gonna get over it sooner before I do... I don't want to always be the weaker one. I want to be stronger. I want to show him I mean breakup for good instead of running back to his side everytime. I feel like a pile of s*** everytime I do, but I never could help it.
I might not be online for the next few days or even perhaps weeks... Call my HP if u guys need me. I'm at his house packing all my stuff... He and his whole family are out shopping for CNY. My heart is aching like hell as I take out all the photos and stuff... I want him to forget his feelings towards me asap so he would be able to deal with me harshly if I ever try to return to him in the spur of the moment. Sigh... Someone save me from all these please... I'm dying inside.
Pls pls pls make me feel strong... My hands are trembling as I type and I really don't know what life will be for me from now on. I never once dared to imagine life without him by my side; all the people around us have gradually accept that we're gonna stay together till we vow, till death do us part.
Nevertheless, it was obvious our relationship wasn't gonna end up anywhere good. I loved him so much, I still do, but it's getting meaningless. I really wish for someone to treat me right... To care for me and make me feel secured. He once did, but its gone now. I could never feel secured around him anymore, nor do I think he's sincere to marry me anymore. He just wants to get rid of me every single time I initiate breakup in the heat of the moment. I just wish I didn't fall so hard for men everytime, just like a fool.
Thinking about all my past relationships, I think I'm just a fool for love. My mum always remind me not to fall so deeply in love, but make the guy love you more than you love him. Yea in theory it works... But I never could. The guys always take a liking to me at first, and I end up falling head over heels in love with them in the end. I just wanted so much for someone to make me feel secured so that my heart won't be broken anymore... Guess I'd been asking too much...
I really don't know what to do... I know that I must leave him for good... He's already sick of all these break ups and never 'wan liu' me anymore... He always just give me best wishes. I should have seen it a long time ago. I'm so dumb... It's all over. Even if we get back together next time, we will have no future. I know he loves me deeply too but I don't want to waste his time anymore.
All I want now is to be able to get over him... I asked him to not answer my calls anymore, and I told him to ask his family to ask me to fark off if I end up calling his house. I'm going to tell my mum about the breakup instead of hiding it, so she would stop me from doing the foolish stuff I always do. I don't want his friends, or ultimately him, laughing at pitiful me, unable to get over a relationship I initiated breakup. He's gonna get over it sooner before I do... I don't want to always be the weaker one. I want to be stronger. I want to show him I mean breakup for good instead of running back to his side everytime. I feel like a pile of s*** everytime I do, but I never could help it.
I might not be online for the next few days or even perhaps weeks... Call my HP if u guys need me. I'm at his house packing all my stuff... He and his whole family are out shopping for CNY. My heart is aching like hell as I take out all the photos and stuff... I want him to forget his feelings towards me asap so he would be able to deal with me harshly if I ever try to return to him in the spur of the moment. Sigh... Someone save me from all these please... I'm dying inside.
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Boring~ xD
Heh, today's one of the rare days I wake up @ 12 in the afternoon, so right now I'm feeling quite energized.
ROSE is down for maintainance , my BTVS d/l keeps failing, and I'm taking a break from the books, so right now I have utterly nothing to do other than blogging. Before moving on, can anyone help me with my tagboard? Apparently I can't see the words as I type into the box; I wanna change the word colour to white. Perhaps it'll be ok when I change my skin later.
Yea I'm changing my skin, prolly back to the previous one. It'll be up by the time anybody reads this.
Soo anyway, I decided to dye and rebond my hair. Which should I do first? I know we can't dye and rebond at the same time b/c it'll ruin the dye job or something, but can I dye my hair, like a week after rebonding? Or before? If anybody read this... Help! I'm in a dilemma >_<>ang bao red, but like um.. brighter than copper, with a hue like those red wines, ya know? The last time I had that colour, I was told I look like some 'Da jie da', gangsta girl, esp. if I don't smile. Lol! Still, the overall comment was good, and perhaps together with all da CNY thing going on... I'll have more luck!
Lol. I might dye that more-towards-blond's red those Wella guys dyed for me @ their Orchard office... If only I still have their number; I can dye for free! >_< decisions ="P">_>), new mascara, new lipstick (all I have is PINK PINK PINK), blah blah blah. Yes, I'm lazy to apply make up; my makeup is the same most of the time. Time to get some pretty eyeshadows and stuff! Heh heh~
Then again... I prolly need about $250 for all this (clothes taken care by my mum :P). I have it, but I still need to settle my hp bill... *Gulp* Lemme just dial 1633 and change my template now... I'll update soon. Take care people =)
ROSE is down for maintainance , my BTVS d/l keeps failing, and I'm taking a break from the books, so right now I have utterly nothing to do other than blogging. Before moving on, can anyone help me with my tagboard? Apparently I can't see the words as I type into the box; I wanna change the word colour to white. Perhaps it'll be ok when I change my skin later.
Yea I'm changing my skin, prolly back to the previous one. It'll be up by the time anybody reads this.
Soo anyway, I decided to dye and rebond my hair. Which should I do first? I know we can't dye and rebond at the same time b/c it'll ruin the dye job or something, but can I dye my hair, like a week after rebonding? Or before? If anybody read this... Help! I'm in a dilemma >_<>ang bao red, but like um.. brighter than copper, with a hue like those red wines, ya know? The last time I had that colour, I was told I look like some 'Da jie da', gangsta girl, esp. if I don't smile. Lol! Still, the overall comment was good, and perhaps together with all da CNY thing going on... I'll have more luck!
Lol. I might dye that more-towards-blond's red those Wella guys dyed for me @ their Orchard office... If only I still have their number; I can dye for free! >_< decisions ="P">_>), new mascara, new lipstick (all I have is PINK PINK PINK), blah blah blah. Yes, I'm lazy to apply make up; my makeup is the same most of the time. Time to get some pretty eyeshadows and stuff! Heh heh~
Then again... I prolly need about $250 for all this (clothes taken care by my mum :P). I have it, but I still need to settle my hp bill... *Gulp* Lemme just dial 1633 and change my template now... I'll update soon. Take care people =)
Saturday, January 15, 2005
Haha I finally update!
This blog might just turn out to become a weekly update =x Idk.
Anyway, hi xD The topic I want to talk about today is - Kelvin (omfg my bf is gonna be sooo jealous that I have a topic on another guy when I don't really do 1 on him.)
But really, it had bugged me since I was 15, which was 5 years ago, so I guess it should be ok (?) to talk a lil about it today.
I'd just received an sms from Kelvin (he sms me everyday or every 2 days actually), its those quiz thingy whereby the sender ask you what word is he in your heart blah blah blah... I like this kinda quizzes so I sent him a reply to get the answers... He sent me and told me if he chose the word for me, he would choose the love related ones.
As usual, I tried to ask him to give it up. Everytime I think about our ex-relationship, I think about the fateful day we broke up, and the day we patched up 1/2 a year later. We got back together for less than 1month or something before I realised my feelings for him were gone, and I met some friends out in a mini #darkages outing and eventually went happily into relationship with *cough* Leo aka Tailz, in which I got to know another Leo, and went with him 1 year later. Haha um anyywaay~
Yes that was in the past. None of them are 'bring-backable' and it's really just some old shit that prolly nobody but me remembers. Anyway, the last time I saw Kelvin was like, my 16th bday. He booked out (or was gonna book in) and he came by my house to pass me my bday present. After that till now... We haven't met. We barely spoke on the phone, and I seldom reply his smses.
He always tell me he's waiting for me to return to him, irregardless of anything, that he realised his mistake of leaving me in the 1st place, etc. One time my bf saw his sms, and was so pissed he used my hp to sms Kelvin to back off, lmao. Hehe, protective Mel =X or rather, possessive lol.
Maybe I'm just shallow, but how can ANYBODY still love someone after not seeing her for 3years, and breaking up for 5years?! To me its impossible; it will prolly just fade away before I know it. I may sound shallow, but you all know thats the truth for anyone. So that's why somehow that idea bugs me. Bah *shrugs*
Anyway, my bf's rushing me to go out for supper. I'll edit later if there's anything to add on. Ta-da! *Goes on her mission to gain more weight - rolls eyes - *
P.S: I've edited =P
Nitez~
Anyway, hi xD The topic I want to talk about today is - Kelvin (omfg my bf is gonna be sooo jealous that I have a topic on another guy when I don't really do 1 on him.)
But really, it had bugged me since I was 15, which was 5 years ago, so I guess it should be ok (?) to talk a lil about it today.
I'd just received an sms from Kelvin (he sms me everyday or every 2 days actually), its those quiz thingy whereby the sender ask you what word is he in your heart blah blah blah... I like this kinda quizzes so I sent him a reply to get the answers... He sent me and told me if he chose the word for me, he would choose the love related ones.
As usual, I tried to ask him to give it up. Everytime I think about our ex-relationship, I think about the fateful day we broke up, and the day we patched up 1/2 a year later. We got back together for less than 1month or something before I realised my feelings for him were gone, and I met some friends out in a mini #darkages outing and eventually went happily into relationship with *cough* Leo aka Tailz, in which I got to know another Leo, and went with him 1 year later. Haha um anyywaay~
Yes that was in the past. None of them are 'bring-backable' and it's really just some old shit that prolly nobody but me remembers. Anyway, the last time I saw Kelvin was like, my 16th bday. He booked out (or was gonna book in) and he came by my house to pass me my bday present. After that till now... We haven't met. We barely spoke on the phone, and I seldom reply his smses.
He always tell me he's waiting for me to return to him, irregardless of anything, that he realised his mistake of leaving me in the 1st place, etc. One time my bf saw his sms, and was so pissed he used my hp to sms Kelvin to back off, lmao. Hehe, protective Mel =X or rather, possessive lol.
Maybe I'm just shallow, but how can ANYBODY still love someone after not seeing her for 3years, and breaking up for 5years?! To me its impossible; it will prolly just fade away before I know it. I may sound shallow, but you all know thats the truth for anyone. So that's why somehow that idea bugs me. Bah *shrugs*
Anyway, my bf's rushing me to go out for supper. I'll edit later if there's anything to add on. Ta-da! *Goes on her mission to gain more weight - rolls eyes - *
P.S: I've edited =P
Nitez~
Friday, January 07, 2005
Friday, so soon
Hey, 'sup all =)
I've been trying to create a blogskin of my own, but right now I'm still testing out the script and codes so if you see unclickable links around, dont bother. I started yesterday night but I'm kinda lazy to do it now =P It's pretty easy actually. Just putting the whole thing together takes dozens of previewing etc. I still have to find a perfect bg picture (which is virtually impossible for fickle & indecisive me, but I'll try) and decide if Ima make navigation links or dropdown links. Hmm...
Anyway, moving on to another subject, I saw someone shoplift today and I can't believe I did nothing. Yes, the NPCC spirit seemingly faded away =( I was @ Clementi for the pasar malam with my bf and we went to 1 stall for him to look for school bags so I just stood around. I noticed that the only 1 guy who were there (even before we walked over) was spending too much time in front of some pouches.
Therefore, I took more glances at him and suddenly he was doing the shifty eyes thingy, a behaviour I know too well. He was gonna steal. Right on! He started putting some of the pouches into a plastic bag on his left hand when the aunties were busy finding a bag Mel picked out. I wanted to tell my bf straightaway about it but the looter looked um, loony? He had those 'I'm-mad-I-can-do-virtually-anything' look so I started typing into my hp for my bf to see instead of saying it out. And my bf chose then to show me a pokemon kid bag (duh) and went 'Look! Pokemon!' and it dropped on my head. When I recovered the shoplifter was already gone. Man!
I totally regretted not stopping the shoplifter on the spot, and it's been bugging me till now. I might as well be an accomplice and help in the looting since I didn't even step forward to stop the guy. The next time I see a shoplifter, he's gonna regret doing it while I'm in the shop!
Bah.. Maybe I'm whining a lil too much about the incident. Anyway, like I mentioned, pasar malam. People who know me well enough knows that its bad news when I hear about a pasar malam nearby. Ima bug my friends or bf to accompany me there while I buy and buy and buy. And all I buy usually, are food. *Burp* =X I looked at myself when I passed by a mirror today and I almost couldn't recognise myself anymore. Gone was the relatively sharp features and big bright eyes. All I have now is a face clot with fats and lumpy-looking eyelids. Sigh. I'm not exaggerating. My friend Aaron drove past me @ Downtown East on New Year's Eve while going to park somewhere, and I got the impression he's not as interested to keep in contact as he used to lol. (I was still way slimmer the last time he saw me.)
I know I know... I always whine about my weight and fats etc. "If you keep whining about all these, then do something about it! Lose weight! Exercise! If you don't wanna exercise, then stop whining!" or whatsoever. I'm kinda in the middle. I wanna whine, yet I know I shouldn't whine since I don't really feel like exercising, but I can't help doing so. Yes, it's confusing, so go figure.
I'm gonna go game now so I'll try to update again soon. I miss all my friends! >_< k thx bye~
I've been trying to create a blogskin of my own, but right now I'm still testing out the script and codes so if you see unclickable links around, dont bother. I started yesterday night but I'm kinda lazy to do it now =P It's pretty easy actually. Just putting the whole thing together takes dozens of previewing etc. I still have to find a perfect bg picture (which is virtually impossible for fickle & indecisive me, but I'll try) and decide if Ima make navigation links or dropdown links. Hmm...
Anyway, moving on to another subject, I saw someone shoplift today and I can't believe I did nothing. Yes, the NPCC spirit seemingly faded away =( I was @ Clementi for the pasar malam with my bf and we went to 1 stall for him to look for school bags so I just stood around. I noticed that the only 1 guy who were there (even before we walked over) was spending too much time in front of some pouches.
Therefore, I took more glances at him and suddenly he was doing the shifty eyes thingy, a behaviour I know too well. He was gonna steal. Right on! He started putting some of the pouches into a plastic bag on his left hand when the aunties were busy finding a bag Mel picked out. I wanted to tell my bf straightaway about it but the looter looked um, loony? He had those 'I'm-mad-I-can-do-virtually-anything' look so I started typing into my hp for my bf to see instead of saying it out. And my bf chose then to show me a pokemon kid bag (duh) and went 'Look! Pokemon!' and it dropped on my head. When I recovered the shoplifter was already gone. Man!
I totally regretted not stopping the shoplifter on the spot, and it's been bugging me till now. I might as well be an accomplice and help in the looting since I didn't even step forward to stop the guy. The next time I see a shoplifter, he's gonna regret doing it while I'm in the shop!
Bah.. Maybe I'm whining a lil too much about the incident. Anyway, like I mentioned, pasar malam. People who know me well enough knows that its bad news when I hear about a pasar malam nearby. Ima bug my friends or bf to accompany me there while I buy and buy and buy. And all I buy usually, are food. *Burp* =X I looked at myself when I passed by a mirror today and I almost couldn't recognise myself anymore. Gone was the relatively sharp features and big bright eyes. All I have now is a face clot with fats and lumpy-looking eyelids. Sigh. I'm not exaggerating. My friend Aaron drove past me @ Downtown East on New Year's Eve while going to park somewhere, and I got the impression he's not as interested to keep in contact as he used to lol. (I was still way slimmer the last time he saw me.)
I know I know... I always whine about my weight and fats etc. "If you keep whining about all these, then do something about it! Lose weight! Exercise! If you don't wanna exercise, then stop whining!" or whatsoever. I'm kinda in the middle. I wanna whine, yet I know I shouldn't whine since I don't really feel like exercising, but I can't help doing so. Yes, it's confusing, so go figure.
I'm gonna go game now so I'll try to update again soon. I miss all my friends! >_< k thx bye~
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Ta-da! I'm back!
Actually I got back from nothing in particular, but at least I'm back to updating. I'm kinda in a sobby mode b/c I've just watched Season3 episode 20 of BTVS and it was sooo touching and sad.
For that, I changed my blog song to the love theme of Buffy/Angel, before I eventually change it to 'Before I'm Dead' by Kidney Thieves, one of my favourite songs. Enjoy this 1 tho, it's soothing but a lil emotional. In fact, I even changed my blog's outlook to suit the song. Sweet isn't it?
Right, um so, like how I do with my journal, I usually sum up what happened since my last entry, so here goes-
Well, at the day, or the day after my last entry, I had a huge quarrel with my bf and we broke up. Well er we almost split, since we got back together ultimately, but it was terrible.
I can't mention all that'd happened b/c it isn't really nice for all to know, but something happened while we quarrel and his mum witnessed it. Tho' I'd never mentioned this before, but I'm not on the best of terms with Mel's mum, nor do I like her enough to try. Yea you might say I don't have respect for the elders, but wait till u were in my shoes before. I like his grandma tho, btw.
Annywaayy, I felt insulted when his mum saw, stopped, walked off, and said 'shit' out loud. I mean, I have a baaaddd temper, and people who knows me well enough, well, know that. It really pissed me off even tho she had the right to do more then say shit, but I still didn't like it coming out of her mouth. That's when I split and broke up with my bf and insisted on leaving. (Well I was going to do it anyway, just that I became more insistant.)
So there went a couple of days of torture where we totally missed each other, and somehow, I have no idea why, my mum called him up. I mean, of all people! My mum always tell me to leave option for more suitors; she always tell me that if I try, I'll have loads of suitors out there (really?) but frankly I'm kinda lazy to. And during that period of time, I wasn't able to think about anything much yet. All I wanted was to forget him and move on.
In fact, (I hope he doesn't read this) I had kinda, um, looked forward to my new life. To meet new people, catch up with old friends and make new ones, etc etc. I figured the hurting will stop eventually. Mel felt the same way too... That it was time to move on. I guess hormones(no don't think dirty please, I mean more like the 'I want to be in love' thingy) and habits and my mum's interverance brought us back together again. Not that I don't like it; my bf has been so sweet these few days, I'm getting over sugar-rushed. He even talked about getting married now, so nobody like his parents etc will come between us. It used to be a joke thingy but he sounded so serious then. Wow, huh?
Oh, and there's new year. Nothing much to talk about tho, it was disappointing. I should never thought to ask Mel's friends out. How boring can they get? Mel suggested the party @ downtown east, and we went too late; countdown ended when we were walking inside the resort. It would be ok if we still get to have fun, but we spent about 30mins roaming around and queuing to get in, and then spent like, 5mins at the dance area and they went right off for supper. It was barely 1am+ when they left to play mahjong. So much so for a celebration. I even got all dressed up in my new clothes! Bah~~~
Mel knew it was awful, so he promised to make it up yesterday, which was one of our lil anniversaries we no longer celebrate, but we both forgot, so yea. Prolly this weekend.
Hmm, talking about celebrations, I just realised I forgot about the Xmas Eve I spent @ my sis'. Did I forgot to mention that? I should go check and update if I didn't. Back to my 'Quantum Leap' book, or perhaps more BTVS :). Good morning~(in the g'night sense)
For that, I changed my blog song to the love theme of Buffy/Angel, before I eventually change it to 'Before I'm Dead' by Kidney Thieves, one of my favourite songs. Enjoy this 1 tho, it's soothing but a lil emotional. In fact, I even changed my blog's outlook to suit the song. Sweet isn't it?
Right, um so, like how I do with my journal, I usually sum up what happened since my last entry, so here goes-
Well, at the day, or the day after my last entry, I had a huge quarrel with my bf and we broke up. Well er we almost split, since we got back together ultimately, but it was terrible.
I can't mention all that'd happened b/c it isn't really nice for all to know, but something happened while we quarrel and his mum witnessed it. Tho' I'd never mentioned this before, but I'm not on the best of terms with Mel's mum, nor do I like her enough to try. Yea you might say I don't have respect for the elders, but wait till u were in my shoes before. I like his grandma tho, btw.
Annywaayy, I felt insulted when his mum saw, stopped, walked off, and said 'shit' out loud. I mean, I have a baaaddd temper, and people who knows me well enough, well, know that. It really pissed me off even tho she had the right to do more then say shit, but I still didn't like it coming out of her mouth. That's when I split and broke up with my bf and insisted on leaving. (Well I was going to do it anyway, just that I became more insistant.)
So there went a couple of days of torture where we totally missed each other, and somehow, I have no idea why, my mum called him up. I mean, of all people! My mum always tell me to leave option for more suitors; she always tell me that if I try, I'll have loads of suitors out there (really?) but frankly I'm kinda lazy to. And during that period of time, I wasn't able to think about anything much yet. All I wanted was to forget him and move on.
In fact, (I hope he doesn't read this) I had kinda, um, looked forward to my new life. To meet new people, catch up with old friends and make new ones, etc etc. I figured the hurting will stop eventually. Mel felt the same way too... That it was time to move on. I guess hormones(no don't think dirty please, I mean more like the 'I want to be in love' thingy) and habits and my mum's interverance brought us back together again. Not that I don't like it; my bf has been so sweet these few days, I'm getting over sugar-rushed. He even talked about getting married now, so nobody like his parents etc will come between us. It used to be a joke thingy but he sounded so serious then. Wow, huh?
Oh, and there's new year. Nothing much to talk about tho, it was disappointing. I should never thought to ask Mel's friends out. How boring can they get? Mel suggested the party @ downtown east, and we went too late; countdown ended when we were walking inside the resort. It would be ok if we still get to have fun, but we spent about 30mins roaming around and queuing to get in, and then spent like, 5mins at the dance area and they went right off for supper. It was barely 1am+ when they left to play mahjong. So much so for a celebration. I even got all dressed up in my new clothes! Bah~~~
Mel knew it was awful, so he promised to make it up yesterday, which was one of our lil anniversaries we no longer celebrate, but we both forgot, so yea. Prolly this weekend.
Hmm, talking about celebrations, I just realised I forgot about the Xmas Eve I spent @ my sis'. Did I forgot to mention that? I should go check and update if I didn't. Back to my 'Quantum Leap' book, or perhaps more BTVS :). Good morning~(in the g'night sense)
Monday, December 27, 2004
The long waited-for entry~
Bah, I know it's prolly not waited for, but who cares xD
Had been too lazy to update =P, just managed to catch the well-wishes in my tagboard just now. Thank you guys xD it's sweet *muah*
Spent Xmas Eve at my sis', and she ordered pizzas, KFC, chilli crabs etc. Yum! We watched 'White Chicks' and it was really funny and nice even tho I thought it would be lame, but Mel had to like, be a total jerk and asked to go home at 1am+. I mean, we went there empty-handed and my sis was so nice to grab some pressies for us, and we leave after eating and a DVD? Mean right? Sigh but there wasn't anything I could do but surrender to his need on dosage of DarkEden.
Xmas was rather fun I guess, tho I didn't manage to get a Santa Claus hat :( (seriously... I walked for like, 5-10mins, and I couldn't find any stalls selling the hats. Unbelievable!) but at least I went to Orchard to shop a lil and caught 'Kung Fu Hustle' :P It was um... Kinda 'over lame' if you get what I mean, but funny nonetheless. Went to Mel's ah ma's house for a Christmas party/gathering before that, and its was YUMMYLICIOUS~! Hehe his aunts are Christians so they invited us over for a Christmas meal sorta thingy, I had yummy turkey with cranberry sauce, honey baked ham with cheese, bbq ribs, logcake and all the eating with your fingers thingy, like ang mos do. I never knew turkey taste that good =d.
His 2nd aunt say that it's perfect that I was there b/c I know how to appreciate Westernized meals, but I think it's rather the fact that I'm plain gluttonous.
Not to mention the presence of chocolates and cookies... xD *slurp*
Idk why but I feel so filled with love now. Filled with love given by friends and loved ones, and filled with love I want to share with all xD Hehe I guess thats b/c its my favourite time of the year. I love December~! But I love January & February more, of course. They have the best festival of them all - Chinese New Year!!! I can't wait for CNY to come; once I get my hands on those ang baos... Muahaha! xD
That prolly makes Valentine's the grandest celebration for most couples =) I'll prolly get about 400-500, Mel about 800-1000, so it's all good. Ima get my hair rebonded! Muahahaha! *drifts off to her lil dream about spending all the money she doesn't yet have*
I wonder what I'll do on 31st Dec... I wanna go somewhere to countdown, but frankly, I don't have much friends anymore. (When I used to be a 'friends' person) I only mix with Mel's buddies now b/c I'm TOTALLY lazy to go out my bf driving me around, and apparently Vincent and co. are the only people he is willing to go out with.Thing is, I don't like going out with them only when they feel like asking us along; I rather go out with Mel alone. Last year, I went to Fisherman's V with my friends for the countdown... Got drunk but definitely very happy :( I wonder if I can join them this year again. I heard most of them drifted apart too, only leaving the usual ones like Ang, Jacob, Deron etc... Oh well x( Who wanna bring me out then? Gimme a call!
Just went to read my friend's blog for a while, saw that she mentioned her ex, who's my friend too... Wan ling, I know you're strong but if u feel sad or hurt, I'll be there k? I know the feeling of have someone who's been with you for sooo long, gone from your life... Nobody likes to re-adjust their livestyle suddenly. It sucks :( (For me at least) But I've always admired you for being so matured (while I act a lil kiddish sometimes >_>) so be strong k! Love u! *muacks*
On that note, guess its time for me to get to bed. BAH! Another of the stupid situation. Breakfast or sleep? *Ponders* I think I rather read my book on the bed till I fall asleep. Who cares about breakfast anyway? It's prolly fried bee hoon or fried prawn mee again... Hah. Anyway guys, remember, jio me out for countdown ok? ;) Gnight~
Love,
Jen
Had been too lazy to update =P, just managed to catch the well-wishes in my tagboard just now. Thank you guys xD it's sweet *muah*
Spent Xmas Eve at my sis', and she ordered pizzas, KFC, chilli crabs etc. Yum! We watched 'White Chicks' and it was really funny and nice even tho I thought it would be lame, but Mel had to like, be a total jerk and asked to go home at 1am+. I mean, we went there empty-handed and my sis was so nice to grab some pressies for us, and we leave after eating and a DVD? Mean right? Sigh but there wasn't anything I could do but surrender to his need on dosage of DarkEden.
Xmas was rather fun I guess, tho I didn't manage to get a Santa Claus hat :( (seriously... I walked for like, 5-10mins, and I couldn't find any stalls selling the hats. Unbelievable!) but at least I went to Orchard to shop a lil and caught 'Kung Fu Hustle' :P It was um... Kinda 'over lame' if you get what I mean, but funny nonetheless. Went to Mel's ah ma's house for a Christmas party/gathering before that, and its was YUMMYLICIOUS~! Hehe his aunts are Christians so they invited us over for a Christmas meal sorta thingy, I had yummy turkey with cranberry sauce, honey baked ham with cheese, bbq ribs, logcake and all the eating with your fingers thingy, like ang mos do. I never knew turkey taste that good =d.
His 2nd aunt say that it's perfect that I was there b/c I know how to appreciate Westernized meals, but I think it's rather the fact that I'm plain gluttonous.
Not to mention the presence of chocolates and cookies... xD *slurp*
Idk why but I feel so filled with love now. Filled with love given by friends and loved ones, and filled with love I want to share with all xD Hehe I guess thats b/c its my favourite time of the year. I love December~! But I love January & February more, of course. They have the best festival of them all - Chinese New Year!!! I can't wait for CNY to come; once I get my hands on those ang baos... Muahaha! xD
That prolly makes Valentine's the grandest celebration for most couples =) I'll prolly get about 400-500, Mel about 800-1000, so it's all good. Ima get my hair rebonded! Muahahaha! *drifts off to her lil dream about spending all the money she doesn't yet have*
I wonder what I'll do on 31st Dec... I wanna go somewhere to countdown, but frankly, I don't have much friends anymore. (When I used to be a 'friends' person) I only mix with Mel's buddies now b/c I'm TOTALLY lazy to go out my bf driving me around, and apparently Vincent and co. are the only people he is willing to go out with.Thing is, I don't like going out with them only when they feel like asking us along; I rather go out with Mel alone. Last year, I went to Fisherman's V with my friends for the countdown... Got drunk but definitely very happy :( I wonder if I can join them this year again. I heard most of them drifted apart too, only leaving the usual ones like Ang, Jacob, Deron etc... Oh well x( Who wanna bring me out then? Gimme a call!
Just went to read my friend's blog for a while, saw that she mentioned her ex, who's my friend too... Wan ling, I know you're strong but if u feel sad or hurt, I'll be there k? I know the feeling of have someone who's been with you for sooo long, gone from your life... Nobody likes to re-adjust their livestyle suddenly. It sucks :( (For me at least) But I've always admired you for being so matured (while I act a lil kiddish sometimes >_>) so be strong k! Love u! *muacks*
On that note, guess its time for me to get to bed. BAH! Another of the stupid situation. Breakfast or sleep? *Ponders* I think I rather read my book on the bed till I fall asleep. Who cares about breakfast anyway? It's prolly fried bee hoon or fried prawn mee again... Hah. Anyway guys, remember, jio me out for countdown ok? ;) Gnight~
Love,
Jen
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
*Yawns*~~~
Whoa it's almost 7am... Stupid Mel pulled me along to train in DE when I was feeling sickish today... He needed an Enchantress in the party *rolls eyes* He went to bed while I tolled b/c he could go afk and I can't :(
I'm about to sleep... And seriously there's nothing much to fill in for today except for 1 thing : I GOT FUCKING HIT IN THE FACE BY A HIGH HEEL! GRR!
It didn't exactly hit my face; it hit more like my left cheek. Like I said, I was feeling sickish so I slept most of the time. I woke up at 8pm and decided I MUST eat or the acids will corrode off all my stomach wall. We went to eat @ Five Star again =d and as I was eating happily, when some woman in her late 20s was leaving the place and I saw her went 'flop' and fell face down beside Mel.
All came too fast; I was just beginning to try laughing discretly when her right shoe flew up and bounced off the table to my face. OWW! It hurt like hell! My primary reaction was to hit it away with my left hand and it hurt my wrist too. Her friend picked up her shoe on the floor and THEY WENT RIGHT OFF!
FUCKING BITCHES! I was there cursing and rubbing my cheek and they just WALKED RIGHT OFF! The woman's friend obviously saw it hit me, or else she would have wondered why the shoe landed behind her, yet did not hit her. Fucking bitches. I know the embarassment of falling down in public, but hey, where's the politeness? You fucking hit someone in the face with your dirty shoe! I was tired and that blow 'woke' me up, but it ruined my appetite nonetheless. I should have asked her to compensate grr.
Mel laughed at me (zzz) and said that I should buy 4d tomorrow. Too lucky already. YA RIGHT. If I ever see that bitch and shall she fall again, I'm going to laugh out loud right in her face! Grr~
Bah I should get to bed. Thinking about that incident just pisses me off =( Sun's coming up too. Mel's room have no curtains so the glare always hurt my eyes >< k thx bye
I'm about to sleep... And seriously there's nothing much to fill in for today except for 1 thing : I GOT FUCKING HIT IN THE FACE BY A HIGH HEEL! GRR!
It didn't exactly hit my face; it hit more like my left cheek. Like I said, I was feeling sickish so I slept most of the time. I woke up at 8pm and decided I MUST eat or the acids will corrode off all my stomach wall. We went to eat @ Five Star again =d and as I was eating happily, when some woman in her late 20s was leaving the place and I saw her went 'flop' and fell face down beside Mel.
All came too fast; I was just beginning to try laughing discretly when her right shoe flew up and bounced off the table to my face. OWW! It hurt like hell! My primary reaction was to hit it away with my left hand and it hurt my wrist too. Her friend picked up her shoe on the floor and THEY WENT RIGHT OFF!
FUCKING BITCHES! I was there cursing and rubbing my cheek and they just WALKED RIGHT OFF! The woman's friend obviously saw it hit me, or else she would have wondered why the shoe landed behind her, yet did not hit her. Fucking bitches. I know the embarassment of falling down in public, but hey, where's the politeness? You fucking hit someone in the face with your dirty shoe! I was tired and that blow 'woke' me up, but it ruined my appetite nonetheless. I should have asked her to compensate grr.
Mel laughed at me (zzz) and said that I should buy 4d tomorrow. Too lucky already. YA RIGHT. If I ever see that bitch and shall she fall again, I'm going to laugh out loud right in her face! Grr~
Bah I should get to bed. Thinking about that incident just pisses me off =( Sun's coming up too. Mel's room have no curtains so the glare always hurt my eyes >< k thx bye
Monday, December 20, 2004
Pretty woman~ walking down the street~
Lmao~ =P wee! I was back from Orchard since 10.30pm, but I was too lazy to update =p
Today was rather great! I did woke up late at about 2+, and we left for my home @ 3+, 4. Mum got me a pair of really HIGH, really nice heels. I tried it on and I KNEW I had to get three-quarter jeans for the heels xD The only good thing about growing fatter is that my bony feet got a slightly meatier, making em look nicer.
I didn't do all that I'd planned, but it was alright. At least Mel promised to bring me shopping again 'some time soon'. Hollywood's Secrets were closed when I reached Paragon :( I didn't know they close early on weekends. Other than that, I had my haircut, or rather hairwash + trim =P so it was smooth and silky today yea! Heh. The ending effect? Good hair, together with my fav black top and tube, not to mention my fav jeans and heels =P Turned some guys' heads yea, but sadly, their attention was more on my boobs then my face *rolls eyes*.
Part of Orchard Road was sealed off from 6-11pm so we parked at Orchard Point. Uff after walking for about 1hour, my feet hurt SOO bad ><. I persued on for the sake of my warerobe but sadly, I saw tons of cute clothes that I knew I won't fit in, so I did not bother to try them. As we were walking in Far East Square, I was so delighted at all the clothes I saw, but I realised I won't look good in them =( We were about to leave, and I was sulking real bad. All I could do was look at those pretty clothes and wish I was small enough for them, but nah. I almost cried b/c it was a blow to my self-esteem =(.
I decided to try 1 last boutique before we go for dinner, and I saw 1 that didn't have clothes that were too kawaii for me to wear. I went in and asked the auntie inside what would look nice on me, and fwala, she began to stuff clothes into my arms lol.
I tried like 10+ clothes! Well, they weren't exactly like, cute (I just wanna look younger... I realised I'm looking older and older, like an auntie!), but they were okay. I bought 2 three-quarter jeans, 1 pink top xD, 1 brownish-green cardigan-like top that Mel really liked, and a dirty green skirt ^^". All from the same shop, for $150 =O I don't really look younger in them.. But they add a feminine touch so I liked that.
I didn't have the sense of satisfaction since I bought from only 1 boutique, but its okay. At least the amount I spend was quite alot. And that I would be able to shop again soon =)
We took a few photos around Orchard with my bro's digicam, but we didn't manage to get nice couple photos b/c I didn't trust enough to ask a stranger to do it for us. As usual, I looked awful on film. I'd only managed a few nicer 'head-shots', and once I get the cable and cords from my bro I'll upload it to photobucket and here.
*Looks at her 3quarter jeans* Oooh I can't wait for a day to wear them out soon :) They're so comfy~ They'll be a killer with my new heels!
Anyway, think Ima go rest and read my book. Mel's already sleeping. A whole day of shopping apparently took alot out from us xP He'd been a total sweetie like I mentioned, and I love the fact that even when he's asleep, he will hug me or hold my hand when I call out his name beside him. It's all like, automatic. So sweet! Hehe mind u, he sleeps like a LOG! He can wake up to talk to me for a few mins before going back to sleep and wakes up the other day not remembering a thing. Not to mention the fact that he could prolly sleep ANYWHERE! Hee~ Ima go cuddle next to this sweet thing now for what he'd done for me :) Gnight..
Today was rather great! I did woke up late at about 2+, and we left for my home @ 3+, 4. Mum got me a pair of really HIGH, really nice heels. I tried it on and I KNEW I had to get three-quarter jeans for the heels xD The only good thing about growing fatter is that my bony feet got a slightly meatier, making em look nicer.
I didn't do all that I'd planned, but it was alright. At least Mel promised to bring me shopping again 'some time soon'. Hollywood's Secrets were closed when I reached Paragon :( I didn't know they close early on weekends. Other than that, I had my haircut, or rather hairwash + trim =P so it was smooth and silky today yea! Heh. The ending effect? Good hair, together with my fav black top and tube, not to mention my fav jeans and heels =P Turned some guys' heads yea, but sadly, their attention was more on my boobs then my face *rolls eyes*.
Part of Orchard Road was sealed off from 6-11pm so we parked at Orchard Point. Uff after walking for about 1hour, my feet hurt SOO bad ><. I persued on for the sake of my warerobe but sadly, I saw tons of cute clothes that I knew I won't fit in, so I did not bother to try them. As we were walking in Far East Square, I was so delighted at all the clothes I saw, but I realised I won't look good in them =( We were about to leave, and I was sulking real bad. All I could do was look at those pretty clothes and wish I was small enough for them, but nah. I almost cried b/c it was a blow to my self-esteem =(.
I decided to try 1 last boutique before we go for dinner, and I saw 1 that didn't have clothes that were too kawaii for me to wear. I went in and asked the auntie inside what would look nice on me, and fwala, she began to stuff clothes into my arms lol.
I tried like 10+ clothes! Well, they weren't exactly like, cute (I just wanna look younger... I realised I'm looking older and older, like an auntie!), but they were okay. I bought 2 three-quarter jeans, 1 pink top xD, 1 brownish-green cardigan-like top that Mel really liked, and a dirty green skirt ^^". All from the same shop, for $150 =O I don't really look younger in them.. But they add a feminine touch so I liked that.
I didn't have the sense of satisfaction since I bought from only 1 boutique, but its okay. At least the amount I spend was quite alot. And that I would be able to shop again soon =)
We took a few photos around Orchard with my bro's digicam, but we didn't manage to get nice couple photos b/c I didn't trust enough to ask a stranger to do it for us. As usual, I looked awful on film. I'd only managed a few nicer 'head-shots', and once I get the cable and cords from my bro I'll upload it to photobucket and here.
*Looks at her 3quarter jeans* Oooh I can't wait for a day to wear them out soon :) They're so comfy~ They'll be a killer with my new heels!
Anyway, think Ima go rest and read my book. Mel's already sleeping. A whole day of shopping apparently took alot out from us xP He'd been a total sweetie like I mentioned, and I love the fact that even when he's asleep, he will hug me or hold my hand when I call out his name beside him. It's all like, automatic. So sweet! Hehe mind u, he sleeps like a LOG! He can wake up to talk to me for a few mins before going back to sleep and wakes up the other day not remembering a thing. Not to mention the fact that he could prolly sleep ANYWHERE! Hee~ Ima go cuddle next to this sweet thing now for what he'd done for me :) Gnight..
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Weeee!
Heyo~ =)
Decided to update my blog again before I go to bed. I'm all psyched up for my shopping trip tomorrow xD (which girl wouldn't?!) Mel promised (again) to accompany me to Orchard tomorrow to shop shop shop since he broke that promise 2night ago :D
We went to Suki Sushi @ Cenileisure this evening tho. He woke me up and asked me, 'Dear want to eat sushi?' Apparently he worked up an appetite watching Jacky Wu eating sushi on' Shi Zi Lu Kou' haha so I suggested Suki Sushi~ Cheaper and yummy ^^
We spent about $45 for what would cost us about $70 if we ate at Sakae... Muahaha *pats her satisfied tummy* So my bf isn't that bad after all =P He knows how to make me happy. In fact I'm rather delighted at what he'd done for me these few days while I'd been totally bitchy, so yea... Hope it'll continue =P but well, we were late for shopping and the trip to Hollywood's Secrets as I wanted, as usual. We always idled around at home and leave only when we almost can't make it. Guess it's okay as long as I can do it tomorrow.
We went to Kinokuniya for awhile and my mum called when we were walking in Ceni, and she asked me to go home so I can get some new clothes, for New Year perhaps. Wee! Just the perfect timing! I'm going home tomorrow to get some money from mum and shop around in AMK for abit to see if I can get some cheaper clothes before I go to Orchard in the evening. I don't like the idea of taking money from my mum but I DO need some new clothes, since my 'newest' one was bought like 5-6months ago. Not to mention I did not shop for almost a year before that. Creepy for a girl, I know.
So hopefully the shopping trip tomorrow will be a successful one~ A haircut, eyebrow-trimming session, new clothes, more new clothes, and some other accessories etc xD in which means, I have to sleep NOW or else I won't be able to wake up early tomorrow.
Before I do, I would like to thank my friends who have read my blog and expressed their concern :) it's sweet. Thx *huggles* It's nice to have some C's thrown my way - Care, concern, cash, w/e =p
Oh oh wait, I have another thing to talk about. WHO'S BEEN GIVING OUT MY NUMBER??!! Damn f*cked sia, I had THREE guys sms-ing me within FOUR days. And u know what? They all said 'hi how r u?' or something like that. The problem is, I didn't have their number on my sim card, and neither did the names 'Jason, Terrance, and David' registered.
I mean, David. I don't recall any friend named David who has my number, esp. from Zouk. He said, "know u from Zouk lor, I kok u on ur head, don't remember ar haha". I mean, hello, I hadn't give my number to any guy since 2yrs+ ago (I am attached since then, thank you), and 2yrs+ ago I wasn't exactly old enough to go Zouk. I don't even recall that incident @ Zouk at ALL.
Then Jason. Okay, I do have a couple of friends named Jason, but wth, he told me his email is yotaosky @ blah blah .com, really, WTF?! Anyway, he said he lives in Hougang, and even when he called me, I couldn't recognise the voice or any connections to him whatsoever. I've stopped answering his calls.
Down to 'Terrance'. I mean, what is he? Terrance house?! It's Terrence for fucking sake, and once he told me that name I was sure I never gave him my number. I told him with all the summoned patience I'd got, that he obviously didn't get my hp number personally from myself, that it was a fake name, and that I wasn't interested to know him at all. He then pestered me with dozens of sms-es asking, 'so can we be frenz or not' and 'what r u doing'. BRRR! Same for that David guy too! It's SOOOO frustrating!
Bah. Right now I'm so tired, I can't function properly for anything other than going to bed. Grumbling about those idiots won't help anyway. G'night~
Decided to update my blog again before I go to bed. I'm all psyched up for my shopping trip tomorrow xD (which girl wouldn't?!) Mel promised (again) to accompany me to Orchard tomorrow to shop shop shop since he broke that promise 2night ago :D
We went to Suki Sushi @ Cenileisure this evening tho. He woke me up and asked me, 'Dear want to eat sushi?' Apparently he worked up an appetite watching Jacky Wu eating sushi on' Shi Zi Lu Kou' haha so I suggested Suki Sushi~ Cheaper and yummy ^^
We spent about $45 for what would cost us about $70 if we ate at Sakae... Muahaha *pats her satisfied tummy* So my bf isn't that bad after all =P He knows how to make me happy. In fact I'm rather delighted at what he'd done for me these few days while I'd been totally bitchy, so yea... Hope it'll continue =P but well, we were late for shopping and the trip to Hollywood's Secrets as I wanted, as usual. We always idled around at home and leave only when we almost can't make it. Guess it's okay as long as I can do it tomorrow.
We went to Kinokuniya for awhile and my mum called when we were walking in Ceni, and she asked me to go home so I can get some new clothes, for New Year perhaps. Wee! Just the perfect timing! I'm going home tomorrow to get some money from mum and shop around in AMK for abit to see if I can get some cheaper clothes before I go to Orchard in the evening. I don't like the idea of taking money from my mum but I DO need some new clothes, since my 'newest' one was bought like 5-6months ago. Not to mention I did not shop for almost a year before that. Creepy for a girl, I know.
So hopefully the shopping trip tomorrow will be a successful one~ A haircut, eyebrow-trimming session, new clothes, more new clothes, and some other accessories etc xD in which means, I have to sleep NOW or else I won't be able to wake up early tomorrow.
Before I do, I would like to thank my friends who have read my blog and expressed their concern :) it's sweet. Thx *huggles* It's nice to have some C's thrown my way - Care, concern, cash, w/e =p
Oh oh wait, I have another thing to talk about. WHO'S BEEN GIVING OUT MY NUMBER??!! Damn f*cked sia, I had THREE guys sms-ing me within FOUR days. And u know what? They all said 'hi how r u?' or something like that. The problem is, I didn't have their number on my sim card, and neither did the names 'Jason, Terrance, and David' registered.
I mean, David. I don't recall any friend named David who has my number, esp. from Zouk. He said, "know u from Zouk lor, I kok u on ur head, don't remember ar haha". I mean, hello, I hadn't give my number to any guy since 2yrs+ ago (I am attached since then, thank you), and 2yrs+ ago I wasn't exactly old enough to go Zouk. I don't even recall that incident @ Zouk at ALL.
Then Jason. Okay, I do have a couple of friends named Jason, but wth, he told me his email is yotaosky @ blah blah .com, really, WTF?! Anyway, he said he lives in Hougang, and even when he called me, I couldn't recognise the voice or any connections to him whatsoever. I've stopped answering his calls.
Down to 'Terrance'. I mean, what is he? Terrance house?! It's Terrence for fucking sake, and once he told me that name I was sure I never gave him my number. I told him with all the summoned patience I'd got, that he obviously didn't get my hp number personally from myself, that it was a fake name, and that I wasn't interested to know him at all. He then pestered me with dozens of sms-es asking, 'so can we be frenz or not' and 'what r u doing'. BRRR! Same for that David guy too! It's SOOOO frustrating!
Bah. Right now I'm so tired, I can't function properly for anything other than going to bed. Grumbling about those idiots won't help anyway. G'night~
Saturday, December 18, 2004
I wish I knew what came over me =(
Right now I'm crying. Hmm, or rather was crying. It was supposed to be a happy night actually, because I went to KTV with Kailing and Vincent they all and we had quite a fun time(even tho Mel promised to go shopping with me at Orchard today but didn't).
We just got back from eating @ Changi. We had initially planned to go a temple in Loyang to pray but we all got tired and setted off for home. On the car, Mel and I talked about Derek and Elaine who went missing for about a month (Derek drove without a license and he's sorta wanted by the law by not going to army yet and the license thingy, and Elaine is well, his girl.) Don't know what they are up to really. Wonder how they survived without money. I have quite a few possible ideas that Mel deemed unfit to publish on the net, so I can't type it out but, I wouldn't know anyway. All I care about is the money they still owe Mel, prolly about $1000+ in total unreturned. What they have done to us in the past were.. unforgivable too.
Anyway, thats not why I cried... We also talked about our sorta co-habition together, and I was telling him how wrong it was. We are still so young, and mouths have been spinning off about how I am like living with another guy now and not returning home much. I don't like the fact that my mum has to undergo such pressure. Hey, I DO go home, but that doesn't stop tongues from wagging.
He told me we're gonna get married ultimately so I shouldn't care about that too much. Even tho I don't mind that idea, we're still so young! We aren't out working yet and we don't know who we may meet or know in the near future. When I worked as a travel consultant a few months ago, I got to know SO many people, clients and colleagues alike. What if he meets a girl next time? What if I do?
Nobody can ever be so sure about the future.. I know I shouldn't sound so negative but its true. On the car, we were talking about, what if he has an affair blah blah blah, and I told him of how I would react. If he has an affair in the 30s, its harder for me to forgive him, esp. if we don't have kids. If it happens when we're in our 40s, 50s, 60s, I would give him a chance b/c of our long relationship. If he makes the girl pregnant, I would have to see if the woman's a bitch who wants to snatch away my husband, or another desperately in love woman who is torn between guilt and love. I would NEVER allow her to be accepted into the family (none of the other elders would anyway) but I won't make her abort. If she has problems I would take the child as my own.. but she will never be part of the family. Nor will her kids call me 'Da-Ma' or w/e. (Unless I'd taken her kid as my own. Then he/she will call me Da Ma -_-")
Haha I know I know... I sound so uh, naggy w/e, and that whole conversation sounded so DUH, but I'm quite strict with all this really... I just don't want my kids to grow up the way I did. As Mel and I chatted on, I got reminded of my past; the day my nanny, my closest kin for 11yrs, asked me to return home. I could still remember...
We were standing by the window pane in the living room.. She was looking outside aimlessly and her eyes were red from crying. I know what was going to happen but I tried to wish it away, but it did. When she told me to go back home to stay with my mother, she broke into tears. I stared at the fake firecracker ornament which hung down the ceiling, the shelves on my right, the curtains, outside etc; everything was like a daze... The memory from 8 years ago still lingers vividly in my mind.
The beginning days back home with my mum were harsh.. I slept with her every night crying myself to sleep, and my mum was angered and hurt by the fact I missed my nanny and my sister whom I slept with, and she would scold me, making me cry even more. Everyday I come back home from school to face the empty home, until a maid came 1 year later. Most of the time when my mum returned from work, I would be sleeping. My maids thru out the years were my closest friend.
I never had a father like my nanny's husband to reprimand me, to take me in hand when I do things wrong. Well... He's the father I always wanted. The only memory I had of my own father was him slapping my face when I was 2, just because I refused to share the bread I was eating. My nanny home was so different.. Father would sit me in my brother's room alone, closing the door and everything, and talks to me about what I'd done wrong, and how I should have done things the way they should be. He never once raised his hands on me.
Just as much as I understand why I had to leave that home, I couldn't help but feel hurt everytime I think about it. That's why i gradually grew apart from then when I was around Sec 2 - Sec 3.. But if any of them should see this... Christina Jie... I miss u all. So so so much...
Sigh. I know I shouldn't linger on sad memories, but I just can't forget it all. Who could? I wanna call my nanny and father to call them 'Mi, Pa' again.. But I don't dare to. We've lost contact for almost 2 years. When my sister got married about 3 years ago, they asked me to go and take family photos with them... I was so elated and touched... But now, sadly, it's a silent, mutual understanding that we aren't what we were anymore... And it saddens me even tho I know its inevitable.
Haiz... I think I go sleep le ba... Thinking about all these just makes me wanna cry more. I'm making my blog sound like a total sob, with all these emotional stuff I've been writing thru out the days. Since it's like published on the net for anyone to see, I guess I'll try to make it more entertaining or something... I don't know. Or like my bf just said, I should write more about us too =P Make him happy, make me happy. Hah. Oh well... G'night.
We just got back from eating @ Changi. We had initially planned to go a temple in Loyang to pray but we all got tired and setted off for home. On the car, Mel and I talked about Derek and Elaine who went missing for about a month (Derek drove without a license and he's sorta wanted by the law by not going to army yet and the license thingy, and Elaine is well, his girl.) Don't know what they are up to really. Wonder how they survived without money. I have quite a few possible ideas that Mel deemed unfit to publish on the net, so I can't type it out but, I wouldn't know anyway. All I care about is the money they still owe Mel, prolly about $1000+ in total unreturned. What they have done to us in the past were.. unforgivable too.
Anyway, thats not why I cried... We also talked about our sorta co-habition together, and I was telling him how wrong it was. We are still so young, and mouths have been spinning off about how I am like living with another guy now and not returning home much. I don't like the fact that my mum has to undergo such pressure. Hey, I DO go home, but that doesn't stop tongues from wagging.
He told me we're gonna get married ultimately so I shouldn't care about that too much. Even tho I don't mind that idea, we're still so young! We aren't out working yet and we don't know who we may meet or know in the near future. When I worked as a travel consultant a few months ago, I got to know SO many people, clients and colleagues alike. What if he meets a girl next time? What if I do?
Nobody can ever be so sure about the future.. I know I shouldn't sound so negative but its true. On the car, we were talking about, what if he has an affair blah blah blah, and I told him of how I would react. If he has an affair in the 30s, its harder for me to forgive him, esp. if we don't have kids. If it happens when we're in our 40s, 50s, 60s, I would give him a chance b/c of our long relationship. If he makes the girl pregnant, I would have to see if the woman's a bitch who wants to snatch away my husband, or another desperately in love woman who is torn between guilt and love. I would NEVER allow her to be accepted into the family (none of the other elders would anyway) but I won't make her abort. If she has problems I would take the child as my own.. but she will never be part of the family. Nor will her kids call me 'Da-Ma' or w/e. (Unless I'd taken her kid as my own. Then he/she will call me Da Ma -_-")
Haha I know I know... I sound so uh, naggy w/e, and that whole conversation sounded so DUH, but I'm quite strict with all this really... I just don't want my kids to grow up the way I did. As Mel and I chatted on, I got reminded of my past; the day my nanny, my closest kin for 11yrs, asked me to return home. I could still remember...
We were standing by the window pane in the living room.. She was looking outside aimlessly and her eyes were red from crying. I know what was going to happen but I tried to wish it away, but it did. When she told me to go back home to stay with my mother, she broke into tears. I stared at the fake firecracker ornament which hung down the ceiling, the shelves on my right, the curtains, outside etc; everything was like a daze... The memory from 8 years ago still lingers vividly in my mind.
The beginning days back home with my mum were harsh.. I slept with her every night crying myself to sleep, and my mum was angered and hurt by the fact I missed my nanny and my sister whom I slept with, and she would scold me, making me cry even more. Everyday I come back home from school to face the empty home, until a maid came 1 year later. Most of the time when my mum returned from work, I would be sleeping. My maids thru out the years were my closest friend.
I never had a father like my nanny's husband to reprimand me, to take me in hand when I do things wrong. Well... He's the father I always wanted. The only memory I had of my own father was him slapping my face when I was 2, just because I refused to share the bread I was eating. My nanny home was so different.. Father would sit me in my brother's room alone, closing the door and everything, and talks to me about what I'd done wrong, and how I should have done things the way they should be. He never once raised his hands on me.
Just as much as I understand why I had to leave that home, I couldn't help but feel hurt everytime I think about it. That's why i gradually grew apart from then when I was around Sec 2 - Sec 3.. But if any of them should see this... Christina Jie... I miss u all. So so so much...
Sigh. I know I shouldn't linger on sad memories, but I just can't forget it all. Who could? I wanna call my nanny and father to call them 'Mi, Pa' again.. But I don't dare to. We've lost contact for almost 2 years. When my sister got married about 3 years ago, they asked me to go and take family photos with them... I was so elated and touched... But now, sadly, it's a silent, mutual understanding that we aren't what we were anymore... And it saddens me even tho I know its inevitable.
Haiz... I think I go sleep le ba... Thinking about all these just makes me wanna cry more. I'm making my blog sound like a total sob, with all these emotional stuff I've been writing thru out the days. Since it's like published on the net for anyone to see, I guess I'll try to make it more entertaining or something... I don't know. Or like my bf just said, I should write more about us too =P Make him happy, make me happy. Hah. Oh well... G'night.
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
*Beams*
'Sup all =)
I feel so proud of myself. I killed a cockroach just now!
Idk why, but amidst the noise of my hamsters running their wheels and ruffling thru wood shavings, I heard a weird sound and I turned back to see one of the sons of the cockroach colony! (Note: If you have no idea what I mean, read my 1st entry from yesterday)
This one must have been one of the 'middle-ranking' sons; it was a grown up male but it was um, kinda skinny. Thats why I dared to pick up the Shieldtox (which I placed as prized property next to me at the desk) and sprayed at it. No way am I gonna let it go near my hamsters!
xD *beams again* I killed a cockroach~! Muahaha~ Even tho' I was too disgusted to pick up the corpse (I woke Mel up to do the dirty work), I'm one step closer to conquering my cockroach fear (I hope).
You know, I was surfing thru the links from my friend's blog just now, and I realised that the slut *cough* Haze *cough* I hated since way back, had the same song by Arvil that I used to have for my old blog's template. Eew~ Thank God I changed the song. (Yes I'm bitchy, muahaha. She should be glad I didn't post her blog's url here and talk about her ugly history. I should do that, since she offended me before, but I'm magnanimous okay! ;] )
Anyway, I needed to upload the pics for this new template somewhere, so ta-da, http://photobucket.com/albums/v629/JenxGeR/. Hopefully thats the correct link to mah PhotoBucket account. I dont really know how to use it yet.
Also, I went to visit my mum 2 nights ago, she's quite fine now xD Hurray! And do you know how sweet she is? I was home the other night before I went to Chinablack, (for my pink princessy-like bag) and I noticed she replaced my broken Chanel foundation with a new one, and got me a blue hairbrush too! My fav colour! She knows I tend to break expensive compact powder/foundation (that was my 3rd Chanel foundation) so she must have checked my bag for me. It had been in my bag ages ago but she didn't tell me. Aww... x)
I just hope I don't break this 1 anytime soon. Yea.. It's expensive too. In fact all my make-up stuff are; my mum insists on good quality, and to her, high price and brand = good quality lol. Lucky me =P
Oh shit wait... I think I hear something... God damned problem was that I had both my bathroom and room's doors open when the cockroach was spotted... Idk where it came from, and now I hear that distinctive cockroach's-feet-dashing-across-the-floor sound. I can't explain how it sounds like, but I just know. Like I mentioned before, I have enough knowledge and encounters with em.
Okkaay... I should get to bed now... Since its late.. and the ruffling sound is like.. around my chair... hookkayyy.... I'll update again after I clean up the room tomorrow... G'night!!!
I feel so proud of myself. I killed a cockroach just now!
Idk why, but amidst the noise of my hamsters running their wheels and ruffling thru wood shavings, I heard a weird sound and I turned back to see one of the sons of the cockroach colony! (Note: If you have no idea what I mean, read my 1st entry from yesterday)
This one must have been one of the 'middle-ranking' sons; it was a grown up male but it was um, kinda skinny. Thats why I dared to pick up the Shieldtox (which I placed as prized property next to me at the desk) and sprayed at it. No way am I gonna let it go near my hamsters!
xD *beams again* I killed a cockroach~! Muahaha~ Even tho' I was too disgusted to pick up the corpse (I woke Mel up to do the dirty work), I'm one step closer to conquering my cockroach fear (I hope).
You know, I was surfing thru the links from my friend's blog just now, and I realised that the slut *cough* Haze *cough* I hated since way back, had the same song by Arvil that I used to have for my old blog's template. Eew~ Thank God I changed the song. (Yes I'm bitchy, muahaha. She should be glad I didn't post her blog's url here and talk about her ugly history. I should do that, since she offended me before, but I'm magnanimous okay! ;] )
Anyway, I needed to upload the pics for this new template somewhere, so ta-da, http://photobucket.com/albums/v629/JenxGeR/. Hopefully thats the correct link to mah PhotoBucket account. I dont really know how to use it yet.
Also, I went to visit my mum 2 nights ago, she's quite fine now xD Hurray! And do you know how sweet she is? I was home the other night before I went to Chinablack, (for my pink princessy-like bag) and I noticed she replaced my broken Chanel foundation with a new one, and got me a blue hairbrush too! My fav colour! She knows I tend to break expensive compact powder/foundation (that was my 3rd Chanel foundation) so she must have checked my bag for me. It had been in my bag ages ago but she didn't tell me. Aww... x)
I just hope I don't break this 1 anytime soon. Yea.. It's expensive too. In fact all my make-up stuff are; my mum insists on good quality, and to her, high price and brand = good quality lol. Lucky me =P
Oh shit wait... I think I hear something... God damned problem was that I had both my bathroom and room's doors open when the cockroach was spotted... Idk where it came from, and now I hear that distinctive cockroach's-feet-dashing-across-the-floor sound. I can't explain how it sounds like, but I just know. Like I mentioned before, I have enough knowledge and encounters with em.
Okkaay... I should get to bed now... Since its late.. and the ruffling sound is like.. around my chair... hookkayyy.... I'll update again after I clean up the room tomorrow... G'night!!!
Ugh~
Ok the only reason why I'm typing this entry is a reminder for me to not eat any more Ba Guas, ESP. Gourmet Ba Gua, or bacon, for the next few months until perhaps Chinese New Year.
I just finished about 150g of gourmet ba gua, summing up to about 300-400g of it within these 2 days, and I feel as if I might melt onto the floor into a puddle of oil. I mean it. Its not the guilty sense of feeling that I'd prolly eaten up enough oil to supply for a week of standard family's cooking, but I literally feel sick with all that oil in me. It feels like I can pinch my tummy and oil will ooze out, or if I make small gagging motions with my mouth, oil will leak out.
Really! And they were pretty expensive, $5 per 100g. It's really time to spend that money on something else. Now's the only time I wish my hp bill will come sooner.
Anyway, I found this pic from Mel's hp that was taken maybe 4-5months ago. I really like it b/c it prolly made me look better than I look in real life. Rofl~ Maybe its because 4-5months ago, my appetite was still under control =X Nice ma? ^^" If u still feel that its ugly, theres nothing I can do lol. Like I said, it looks better than me in real life so there's that xD
Bleah... I need make up. I need... Better skin. I need... to slim down! >_<
P.S: I Luurrvveee my new blog skin! Isn't it sweet? I had a hard time choosing. Check out my credits and link section on the left!
I just finished about 150g of gourmet ba gua, summing up to about 300-400g of it within these 2 days, and I feel as if I might melt onto the floor into a puddle of oil. I mean it. Its not the guilty sense of feeling that I'd prolly eaten up enough oil to supply for a week of standard family's cooking, but I literally feel sick with all that oil in me. It feels like I can pinch my tummy and oil will ooze out, or if I make small gagging motions with my mouth, oil will leak out.
Really! And they were pretty expensive, $5 per 100g. It's really time to spend that money on something else. Now's the only time I wish my hp bill will come sooner.
Anyway, I found this pic from Mel's hp that was taken maybe 4-5months ago. I really like it b/c it prolly made me look better than I look in real life. Rofl~ Maybe its because 4-5months ago, my appetite was still under control =X Nice ma? ^^" If u still feel that its ugly, theres nothing I can do lol. Like I said, it looks better than me in real life so there's that xD
Bleah... I need make up. I need... Better skin. I need... to slim down! >_<
P.S: I Luurrvveee my new blog skin! Isn't it sweet? I had a hard time choosing. Check out my credits and link section on the left!
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