*GASP*

The D&D's tomorrow!

AHHHHHHH!!!

No, I'm not panicking because my gown hasn't arrived yet. In fact, it arrived on Monday and I even managed to bring it to my colleague's friend's mother's shop(lengthy, I know) to make it smaller and fitting, as it was HUGE.

I still remember when I took it out of the package... My brother walked passed and commented that it looked like it was meant for an elephant.

*Grumps*

Well, at least it fits better now. It's still a little loose around the bust area, but I think its nothing some Hollywood tape can't help with.

Annyywayy, I was panicking because I did not manage to get my gloves and a clutch... Black ones - Matte, shiny, plain, whatever. Just not PVC. Any suggestions where to get them?

I'll be staying over at the Meritus Mandarin Hotel after the Dinner n Dance, so if any of you's going to town and wanna meet up at around midnight, just gimme a holla.

Thursday...

The prelude to Friday madness:

*Does motor insurance renewal for D0ct0r XXXX Sen Ch0w*

O_o, cheque is less of $0.65... Insured rounded down premium, knowing that we absorb difference of less than $1.

"Wah... Really Sen(g) Chow sia!"

*Giggles insanely at her own joke*

Ahem. Sorry. I got caught up in the year end and month end madness. Anyway, wanna see what I'm wearing to my company's D&D on 8th December? *Big grin* =D

It's gonna be held at Mandarin Hotel(next to Cineleisure), and our theme this year is Hollywood Glamour.

*woooo....* *aHhhhhH...*

Ok, back to the subject, my gown:



Lovely, innit? Problem is, it's still on its way in the plane from USA. I'm keeping my fingers and toes crossed, hoping that it can reach before my D&D event.

If it doesn't, be prepared to see a UHO(unbelievably horrendous object) in pink appearing that night.

My latest addictions...

My initial baby... Alfa Romeo :)



Lotus Elise, Ah-Beng version!



Zhng my car~



My current baby... Ford GT, zhng-ing in progress =D


Need for Speed: Carbon. Zai!

Ramblings, and then some.

What's mine, will always be mine.
What's mine will never be yours.
There might be some things thats ours,
But yours will always be mine.

Okay, that didn't make sense, or maybe it's actually cliche, but I'm shagged out and somewhat fidgety and I can't bring myself to care.

Just spent an hour re-watching my brother's wedding VCD from 4 years back, and all I could do was whine about how skinny and gorgeous I used to be. I'll try to find the pictures to prove to ya next time.

Anywayyyyyy, I'm just gonna let the sleeping dog lie, and upload some pictures I've taken over the months.

Pictures taken in Momo:

Michelle and I quite sometime back.


Me and my ladies, Wen aka Ms Kiwi, and Ting aka Ms Cherry. I'm Ms Peach, btw. Lmao.


Between the 3 of us, we somehow couldn't manage to keep all of us in zoom lol.


Finally!



I love you, ladies. =)

And last but not least... (No snickering!)

Ruisheng(my friend since our NPCC days) and I:

LOL. Sorry. We couldn't resist a blast from the past. Kao, I can't even do a proper Chao Ah Lian face anymore! :(

Anyway, life's okay for me now. It still sucks, but I've grown to tolerate it. I'm going under a couple of months of 'supervision' before I most prolly get my permanent position in AIG.

But seriously, unless they adjust my pay increment by $200 or so, I won't be there long enough to enjoy most of the extra benefits. *Shrugs*

Now I can only hope none of my colleagues read my blog, lmao.

[Next to come: More ramblings and some pictures from Yan's birthday]

Why?

Why not?






Devil-may-care.

Wah lau.

Yeah, wah lau.

Firstly, yes, I've came back to the office to work a Saturday.

Secondly, it's a Public Holiday.

Thirdly, this is my 13th consecutive days of non-stop OT. Only the thought of my next month's pay stopped me from tearing my hair out.



And last but not least, we don't have a day off this coming Monday.

UFF.

Therfore, I'd decided to practise my Art of Eating Snake™ and blog my little blogger's heart away, but my digicam had been spoilt ever since Steve's birthday.

Maybe the only highlight for this week is the Lee Hom concert tonight that my colleague, Joyce, happened to have 4 free tickets for. My 1st concert in 10 years, and none of us have a digicam. YAY! >_>

So anyway, I know I have alot of pictures to post ever since my hiatus. Thankfully I had some pictures stored in office PC, so here's another photo-filled nonsensical entry. These were taken on late August actually. Enjoy!


*Kisses floor* Thank gawd I've finally bought my new pair of contact lenses. I'm getting realllly sick of the specs on my head. By the by, that's Liting and Cheng Mun with me.


And thats me together with Yan, Jinhui, and Liting later on at Momo. Bloody hell... I looked like a mama-san, didn't I?


Me and my girls. Sweetie Liting and Yan with her Darlie commercial winning smile. *grins*

Frankly, I'm not entirely sure if I should comment at this. *Shakes her head*

Coming up next should most probably be my account of Yiwen's 21st birthday, followed by mine and Yan's.

The best is yet to come :) Take care, my friends! *Kisses and hugs*



P.S: Oh yes, I'm in better spirits recently since Yan, who is in London currently, told me she's got my James Marsters DVD last night. MUAHAHA!

Happy Birthday, to ME!

I'M 21!!!!ONEONE11!!!!11!!!

HOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Amazing how I feel like both laughing and crying at the same time. Tears were brimming over my eyes while I smiled at some of my girlfriends' smses... Yep, we have came so far, Yan.

I can't believe I'm officially an adult now... All these years of feeling cynical and jaded, I've realised I haven't even begun.

Boy, that was gloomy.

So anyway, even though it was merely a start of another new day, it felt... different. Like I have a new set of goals to look forward to and to work towards.

Like... All the silly heartaches I'd went through seemed less significant, and that I'm beginning to believe that I can have the world in my palms if I wish to, and that it's finally time to work towards making my dream come true.

Don't get me wrong - I'm still the Jennifer Lim aka JenxGeR who secretly loves retro punk, rock & roll, and metal. The Jennifer who will remain goo-gaa and helplessly in love with James Marsters till kingdom comes.

The JenxGeR who would jump out of her seat and play air-guitars before settling back into her seat like nothing happened, the Jennifer Lim who could be a sophisticated snob at other times. The Jennifer who used to do what she wants, and who(*wink*) she wants.

And now, she will be become a woman you've never met before.

Just you wait :)

And a shout-out to Ting, Ni, Yan - you girls will always be my sisters. Love you.

Jenx.

I have to work at NATAS Fair @ Expo from 9am to 10pm tomorrow, and I'm still up. Bloody hell.

Anyway, I have this habit of googling my name, and my nickname of 7 years (since 1999) to see if it came up in funny places.

5 minutes ago, I tried to google my shorter nickname, which is "Jenx" of JenxGeR, and bloody, soddin' hell... I'm not as original as I thought.

There's one in the exact spelling of my namesake, http://www.jenx.com/ who are are manufacturers of therapeutic furniture for special needs children.

"I"'m also a blue guy on some online cartoon.

I can also be a Neverwinter Nights 2 Game 'hakpack', or a Canada chick who's surprisingly similar - a Libran OL named Jennifer, and chubby - Just like me. Beside the fact that I'm not Canadian.

Let's not forget the band and the old DJ chick or hey, the Emcee.

I bet there's more, but enough is enough. Even though I prefer being called Jenx ('ger' was added because I wanted to clarify my gender in online games), I'm sticking to JenxGeR from now on.

Because there can only be one JenxGeR. And that's me.

What I want for my 21st birthday...

Okay, lemme try to list down the things I would want for my up and coming 21st birthday:

1) MALE STRIPPERS. No lanky, pimply face, bah bah or overmuscled men. I can give up my celebration and all my money if you get me a guy resembling James Marsters or Shay Given. Hot female strippers can be considered too.

2) Alcohol.

3) Money. For more booze because my funds just ain't gonna be enough~

4) Presence of friends who truly care.

5) Maybeeee some presents. To let me know that you care enough to grab a present :P

So there, ladies and gentlemen, you heard me! So get going to get me what I want!

What I really want... is peace. Peace to sooth my shattered heart.

Because, when the numbness eventually recedes, heartwrenching pain settles in because I realised that I'm still the troublesome, irritating fat and unattractive woman who has never been a top piority in anyone's life before.

Give me numbness, or give me peace. Because if I can't have any of those, the only option left is the comfort in death.

But no, I'm not going to shrivel up in a corner and resign myself to that fate yet. I'm not that whiny.

I know I'm a coward in most people's eyes, but even though I leave the battlefield fatally wounded every single time, this time I want to try to do it with my chin lifted high.

I've been nothing but 100% honest to you in our 4 years relationship... For good or for worse. Now my honest words are twisted back onto me... and I shall shoulder them because, I know... I deserved them.

Melvin, my sweeting, just in case you ultimately decide singlehood works better for you, thanks for the 4 years and 13 days... It's been wonderful.

Now all I need is peace and quiet for me to gather my thoughts.

Argh.

I've saved a draft to be blogged, but I'm too lazy and life's too hectic for me to bother updating and completing that entry.

Right now, I just want to whine and rant.

4 years. It's been 4 years that I gave my all to one Melvin Lim.

Countless bittersweet memories existed between us, and while I laughed in fond memory of some instances, my heart clenched mostly.

I'm tired. I'm really tired of being the matured one in this relationship. Until the shift in our relationship, I was always the domineering Queen to all men in my life. I'd refused to give them total power over me, and let them crush my heart in the process.

Now, I've lowered myself to take what I can from you - Sitting beside you watching you play your game, waiting for hours to sleep at the same time as you, only to find you asleep after I come out from the washroom, and cleaning up your room as 'it's a girl's responsibility'.

I keep giving in, and in, and in, until this whole facade simply sapped me of all my strength.

What was supposed to be a cheery chit chat turned out to be another weary conversation about how I deal with my salary.

I take home little more than 1k a month. I have to give around $150 to my mum as allowance, pay my transport and handphone fees, pay for my daily 3 meals, and get clothes so I don't have to wear the same clothes repeatedly to work.

How the bloody fuck am I going to save money like that?! Until I get a pay adjustment, I'm not likely to save much, if any at all.

I've been so stressed out over the birthday celebration I'm going to have at the end of this month, and the other celebration that I'm going to have with my family alone.

The clubbing will cost me around $800 to $1000, and the family dinner at least $200-$300. How the fuck am I going to come up with that while trying to survive for the rest of next month?

I could probably scrimp, but not this month. Not this year. He refused to respect my resolution that I would do whatever to make myself happy this year, even if that means not saving a cent at all.

No, I have to start saving for our future, just because Mr-I-can't-give-up-my-freedom-to-be-engaged-to-you-just-yet said so. All I wanted was a namesake from him, a long-term engagement so I can lift my chin high against all those people who looked down on a girl practically cohabiting with her boyfriend. Especially to his parents.

But no. He said that he wants to study after NS, and he don't want to be engaged while he was still in Poly. Not going to give up his freedom so early.

WHAT ABOUT ME?! WHAT ABOUT SODDIN' ME? Am I supposed to quietly save money for us when you can't even promise me an 'us' in the near future? Just because I'm the one working first?!

Am I selfish, am I in actual fact the childish one in this relationship; are you actually right about all my faults and flaws?

Is it me, or is it you?

I don't even believe in THE one anymore.

I, Jennifer Lim, the helpless romantic who loves deeply, the woman who once dreamt of meeting a man who will love her, respect her, treasure her, the way she can, do not believe it any of this bullshit anymore.


Fuck, I'm sick of it all.

Mmm~ Sorry for the non-existent updates recently, my friends.

Have been busy with work, and outings with friends, and wasis sick right now.

Currently in the office, slogging away, high and lax on my muscle relaxant, cough mixture, and high dosage painkillers...

Mmm...

What for?

The most...

...Hilarious thing I've heard so far, working in AIG:

-----Original Message-----
From: Lim, Yit-Siong
Sent: Friday, August 04, 2006 3:01 PM
To: Lim, Jennifer-GS; Koh, Cerina-SC; Yap, Sok-Hwee; Tay, Lydia-HL; Toh, Michelle-BB; Lee, Danny-GK; Ong, Vincent-PC; Goh, Joann-HK
Subject: RE: Dinner
If there are no other guys going then Im afraid I also wont be joining… coz the yin is stronger than the yang & in the seven month… dats very dangerous…


... Devastating thing I've heard so far, working in AIG:

-----Original Message-----
From: Siew, Jane-NH
Sent: Friday, August 18, 2006 1:04 PM
To: Lim, Jennifer-GS; Koh, Cerina-SC; Goh, Joann-HK
Cc: Chiang, Sandra-SL
Subject: Smoking issue

Dear all,
Please take note that it is strictly no smoking during office hours.
The same applies for front counter staff.
Please adhere to it.

You make me feel alright, and let my body move you~

Here here, Mr Steve, my update -.-

Okay, I seriously have no idea what to talk about today, except that I'm having my migraine again and it's killing me *grunts*

I feel oddly peppy. I've always known that I have a slight ADHD/ADD, but today it seems to be worse. I didn't even take the muscle relaxant!

We went to Momo's 1st birthday last Friday, and frankly, it was simply like any other Fridays. Anyway.


Taken outside Taka with Amanda. Yep, the resolution of this picture is bigger than normal, because I actually look good in it, gawdammit!

Gabriel: "Shh, here, take this. *shifty eyes*" Mervyn: *Grimaces* "Mai lah cb..."

Wahaha~ *Stops her giggles* Ahem. So anyway, it was kinda crazy last Friday. I don't know who whipped out the camera phone first, but once the 1st photo was taken, we went snap-crazy. I did, anyway. Here's some choice pictures:


DON'T ask me what they were doing outside of the frame. Idk. Lol.




Besties forever!


Wah lau, don't ask me why, but Gabriel and I looked real funny in the few pictures we took together even though we were genuinely smiling. Bleah.


Gab: I totally agree. *Grunts*

The flash?! Haha... Mervyn and his funny acts.

That's Mervyn in a clearer pic :)

I seriously don't understand why I always get squeezed off frame. Steve damn act cute, lah. CANNOT TAHAN! Wahaha.

Mervyn, Dave and Steve in a blur of actions.

And now, last but not least, the picture I still have no idea why I suggested taking, but here it is:

Oh, innit such a coincidence that they 'miscue' and took the picture at a wrong angle?

Men.

That's me in black, and Yan on the right, btw. And FYI, we did not kiss. Lmao. There's actually quite alot more pictures, but I feel that these are enough.

I suggested a coffee date tomorrow, so perhaps I'll snap more pictures then.

Oh! By the by, friends, I've semi-decided to celebrate my 21st birthday at Devil's Bar on either the 29th or the 30th of September(Friday or Saturday). Yea, I'm celebrating in advance since the actual day is on a Tuesday. Bah...

So please, will appreciate if you could make your way there on that day.

Dear friends, I've not forgotten about you; I'm just too shy to ask you to attend my birthday celebration because it's been so long since we've last met and caught up.

I would really love to see my old friends on the day I firmly step into adulthood, and hey, I've already took leave on the following Monday and Tuesday to spend with friends who don't club. So no more bloody excuses!

Hence, if you're free, just tag me on my tagboard, or add me in MSN via jenxger@hotmail.com, and I'll get back to you asap.

Dear friends, all of you matter to me. :)

With love,

Jennifer.

Lunch-in Thursday

Oof! After a whole day of Dota and slacking yesterday, I'd decided to lunch-in today to get a lil rest.

And it's time to show off!


I know lah... Very chubby. But I wanted to take a pic with my sweetie when he got back from NDP!

Yep! My boy was part of the Air Force GOH for National Day Parade '06. *Proud* I was all ready to console him when I didn't manage to catch a peek of him on the live telecast, but he was in :)

Anyway, he suggested that I try out his Number 1, so its camwhore BAbie Jenx again!



Haha. Pathetic. My chubby face was so evident and I couldn't even button up the first 2 buttons! Like my Mum would say, "Gannah bao ba zhang ah neh kuan."

Nonetheless, I must have felt I looked cute in it that I can't help but take 2 more pictures of me in it, before I couldn't take the "act cute" spirit that possessed me.


*Giggles*

Here's the ultimate photo that lead to goosebumps rising on my arms and forced myself to stop taking.


Greetings, madam.

Wahaha, cannot make it. My high point for today is actually laughing at myself. Pathetic.

Anyways, let it be known that mules are a form of modern torture device invented solely for women.



I wanted to be one of those "attas" office ladies who wear mules, smart attires, and perfect makeups with gleaming hair to work.

But alas, every morning I looked like my dog chewed and spat me out, my hair's always in a messy bun, and 45 mins of travelling time to work had me surrendering to my slippers. My feet were practically numb to my ankles.

I don't think I'll be wearing those pair of shoes anytime soon, like, in the next 1-2 years, unless my feet miraculously shrink or the shoes miraculously expand.

*Sighs sagely* I still have years to train up on my OL skills... Nehmind, I'll start from Level 1!

Time for me to get back to work now, 'ta mates!

Majulah~ Singapura

Yay~ Happy 41st Birthday Singapore! *Shakes her kumbayahs*



Semua kita besatu, Majulah Singapura~ Majulah, Singapura~ yadda yadda.

Sorry, 'not feeling very patriotic, especially when its common knowledge that my ultimate dream is to study in California.

Bf's gone back to camp to perform for the National Day Parade tomorrow, so best of luck, sweetie! Hope to see you in your Tengah Air Base's GOH contigent!

While the cat is gone, the mouse comes out to play... Dota!!!

Haven't played the game in almost 2 years, but I'm glad I've yet to lose my touch. Anyways, here's some pictures by the camwhore; yours truly.

Dinner @ Yumeya last Friday!

My colleagues Lydia and Cerina :)


I know I'm giving away how fat I really am, so sHuT t3h F4rK uP!!1one1!! I don't care! >_<

Okay, enough of the pictures of my colleagues. I'm still half-mad at some of them for forgetting my existence for the 2nd time, when after lunch, they went back to office from UE Square on their own and left me waiting.

Onto a happier topic, remember I said I went to Devils' Bar last Saturday right? It was damn happening, lah~

My growing dislike towards Louis per se, I still had a great time.

Sitting amongst skinny ladies certainly does me NO good. Sigh.

Happy birthday Louis. Whatever.


Guess who we saw at the live band area?

Contestants from Singapore Idol 2! *Screams like a girly fan* AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sorry ah, I'm also not a fan of SG Idol. Jonathan did prove to be better-looking then I originally thought with his sausage-like lips, but this year's participants no longer rouse any interest in me.

I'd only took those photos because it amused me then that how they made a fool outta themselves by behaving like they are superstars, when seriously, only Paul and Jonathan are more recognisable.


These are only stimulated dialogue, don't go suing me! Lol.

Anyway, I really have to go to bed now. My eyes can't freaking stay open. Before I go, this is what you get when you leave a bored Jennifer in an empty, locked room on the 3rd floor.


My attempt at a sultry look. Cannot make it lah.

Yes, I do away with clothes sometimes when I have the privacy. 's more comfortable that way. Don't you dare judge me! *Points a severe finger at you*

Good night, people!

"Why then, the world's my oyster, which I with sword will open."

I was REALLY looking forward to curling up on my bed with the air-conditioner gently churning, with nothing but my favourite songs or the dim noise of the TV on in the background, while I read my latest Judith McNaught novel.

Now it's all shot to hell, blah. :(

You know, for an ex-MIA girl (yes, I'm proud to declare I'm no longer a hermit!) I'd pretty much filled my quota for the week (and probably the next) with a dinner yesterday with my colleagues, a movie (The Lake House) with Cerina, and clubbing session with her, Amanda and the guys.

Later have to go Devil's Bar celebrate Louis' birthday. Liew.

By the by, if you're not into sappy romance movies like I do, don't watch The Lake House. For a 1hr 40mins show, only the last 10mins is worth watching. It was the sight of Keanu Reeves that stopped me from falling asleep, as did Donnie Yen (salty hunk of manly goodness!) during Dragon Tiger Gate.

Thank goodness it's Devils' and not Zouk or worse, KTV pubs/lounges *shivers*.

Keeping my fingers crossed that I still have clean clubbing clothes left now. Gotta go start prepping on my war paint! I'll be back next week with the photos taken at dinner(cam cable's in the office).

'Ta mates!

Sigh... it's bad.

No, not black Thursday or even Friday the 13th. It's worse... Much much more worst...


It's bloody Monday.


Ahh~ The blues... And my monthly finally arrived, so I'm feeling like crap right now.

Not that there's something that shopping won't cure, but until then, it's all sucking to hell right now >_<



That's me, together with Mitchell, Jasmine, and Yan @ Momo. I look like a sore thumb sticking out :(

Sigh... I'm not sure if its because of the bloody monthlies(excuse the pun), but I've been feeling really down this week.

Between the most heavy workload I've ever done recently, and doing all the NAPL closings by myself, and the realisation that apparently, I'm not as well-liked as I thought, I was ready to hit the roof and tear my hair out.

That was why I went for a shopping binge yesterday. I knew I should do OT in order to clear some work, but I was so depressed, I left quietly, and immediately, once the clock struck 5.55pm.

Bought a top for him, a top for me, the membership for Mu, Estee Lauder's Pleasure, a watch, a Judith McNaught novel, and paid for the import of the new 21" Spike statue.

Ahh, the sins. Never really understood the power of shopping therapy until now. I mean, I 'swiped' so much, my fragile lil 6 years old POSB Nets card almost cracked from the friction.

Saying I've spent alot for the last couple of days is an understatement. I'd practically overspent my budget for my entire month. Not to mention my alarm clock of a Mum - Everytime it's the 28th, she goes RINGGGG (for allowance). More accurate than clockwork.

And oh yes, remember my resolution this year? To save little or no money at all and spend, spend, spend?

All I can say is this: I'm right on track. *Sayangs her pocket*

All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players: They have their exits and their entrances.

Wee! Family Day!

Whew! Just got back from my company's family day at Wild Wild Wet.

I didn't join the telematch events, nor did I get to swim or take the rides(will explain why later) but it was great. I got sunburnt just by standing there cheering for my team, but it was great.

I mean, Joyce picked me up at my place to longbang me there, then we were given free lunch and drinks at the games, and they even employed 2 people to give us free back and foot massages! And then I also got a free ride back home from my lovely manager. I didn't even spend a single cent today.

Heh.

Anyway, how can this be my blog if I didn't take any photos to show ya all?


Cerina, one of the colleagues I get along well with and we always go on smoke breaks together. ^_^

And here's me with my team leader, Jane:

A really nice woman once you get to know her better, and behaves like a youthful girl sometimes. I guess I'm lucky to be under her.


Obviously, I only took photos with/of people I like in the company. Here's Joyce, one of our team leaders, with Cerina, and Sandra, another team leader, and her kid. Her girl is soooo adorable!


Stack, stack, stack! GO KALEIDOSCOPERS! Haha.

Didn't get to take alot of photos, since I was still pretty hungover when we reached Pasir Ris, and the fact that my SD card TOTALLY sucks also attributed to the limited photos.

Anyone kind enough to buy me a nice 256mb or 512mb SD? See, I'm not even asking for 1GB or more! *Flutters eyelashes* :P

Anyway, went to Club Momo with Yan and friends again. All I can do is summarise the night up with, "BLOODY HELL~"

Don't get me wrong, it was a wonderful night. I mean, Graveyard, waterfall, lamborghini.... Bloody hell.

I pretty much danced and my inner thighs still hurt from bending too low. I'm getting too old for this :O Nonetheless, it was the most fun I've had in ages.


Coffee date with Ting and Yan and friends on Thursday. I have to say this: We're 3 gorgeous birds, innit? LMAO.


Michelle and I. Got to know her through Yan and I have to say, I like this girl.

Anyway, I kinda have this thingy where an international salon branch from UK is coming to Singapore to open a branch, blah blah, and they asked if I'm interested to be one of their hair models for their show at Hyatts Hotel soon.

I'm quite content with my hairstyle atm, so is anyone interested? I'm not sure if they're still recruiting, since the hairshow is starting pretty soon, but I can give you the email address if you want.

They'll require a few photos of you and if they accept you after the interview, they'll pay you around $600-$1000 as a one-time model's package, and there'll be a 1 year free hair services at their saloon.

Sweet deal, I know. But I was too indecisive at the point of receiving the email, so I gave it up ultimately.

*Whines* Why couldn't they have emailed me earlier before I re-permed my hair 2weeks+ ago?