Have you ever felt so lonely?

Ever e-ever ever ee-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely (x6)
Lonely (x6)
Ee-ever felt so lonely
Lonely (x4)
Have you ever felt so lonely?
Lonely (x6)
Ever felt so (x4)
Remember the time
When you were here inside my dream
I wish you'll be mine
You're understanding what I mean
Discover and see
That you're the only one for me
Together we'll be free
That's how it's meant to be
[Chorus x4]
Have you ever felt so lonely
You're the one and only
Did you ever cry
Why did you say goodbye
Have you ever felt so lonely?
Lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely...
Ee-execute
Have you ever felt so lonely?
Lonely lonely lonely
Ever e-ever ever ee-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely (x4)
Lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely...
Ever felt so lonely
Lonely lonely lonely
Remember the time
When you were here inside my dream
I wish you'll be mine
You're understanding what I mean
Discover and see
That you're the only one for me
Together we'll be free
Thats how it's meant to be
[Chorus x4]
Have you ever felt so lonely
You're the one and only
Did you ever cry
Why did you say goodbye
Have you ever felt so lonely?
Lonely lonely lonely
Ever e-ever ever ee-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely (x4)
Lonely lonely ...

Woot... ._.

Wah lao, I went to Penisular Plaza for an interview earlier today, and I stopped by MPH to see if they have Sept's Buffy mag, and I saw this covergirl on SNAG:



My old schoolmate, we haven't seen each other since graduating, but we do have each other on our Friendster list.

Sweet voice, friendly, loves baking, petite and gorgeous, demure, wah lao, back in secondary school, she used to bake cookies for her ex before school starts!

Anyway, I'm not les. It's just, she's so... WAH LAO.

I had a hard time believing someone's so perfect. But I guess she is.

Vote for her, Rykiel Toh, S8?


Sooo, anyway, back to me. Went to Service Communications, an agency(again), but this time they're asking me to be a consultant. As in those consultants you talk to when you go to a job agency.

Lol.

I'm willing to look at things with a pinch of salt, but I'm not sure if I can do it. I mean, even if I reject the consultant position, I can still acquire their service as a normal applicant.

Competitive, stressful sales oriented but fulfilling job, or an Admin/Sales job that I'm more confident in handling?

Haveta reply in a couple of days... Damn stress. Not sure what I should do.


AND HOW SHOULD I CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY!!! :(

Wow.

DON'T ask me why I'm up so early when I slept so late last night.

Anyway, I posted my resume on Friendsters' Classified a couple of days ago, and lo and behold! It's better than the Straits Time or other online jobs directories!

I have at least 7 emails so far, but of course, with Friendster, you have to expect some of the emails to look like this:

hi,

my name is frankie.
i saw your advertisement on friendster.
i run several business so you are keen on the freelance sales job.

ok. i have a printing company. at current we are outsourcing the sales job
to others.
the job scope is to do sales for our printing company.

if you are interested, email me.

ur pic on friendster is nice n sexy. are u attached? :)


And there I was, happily reading another potential job, until I reached the last sentence.

Crap.

It's either that kind, or this:


Date:
Tuesday, September 27, 2005 4:48:00 PM
Subject:
hi
Message:
can u just leave ur contact so i can arrange a interview session with u


No job details, no nothing. Replied and asked for his company info and I got nada reply.

It's either those who's sincerely offering you a job but wants to know you at the same time, or those who just want your number under the pretext of offering you a job. Pah.

Anyhoo, I got a call, from probably some woman from an agency who's recruiting for town area's customer service officer!

Well you know, those who sit there at the information counter like a doll most of the time? Heh. It's a 6 days work week, but a shift work of either 9am-3pm, or 3pm-9pm.

Seems pretty cool. The lady is sending out my resume, and I might have to go down to, bleah, Jurong for an interview later. So far... But I'm pretty psyched!

Shit... I didn't even notice.

My 20th birthday is coming in 1 week's time... And here I thought there's still 2 weeks to go. Lol.

When did my birthdays get so forgettable as years passed? I used to plan them in advance at least 1 month before. Now I don't even know what I intend to do next week.

Help me with the decisions, please?

1) BBQ on the 1st of Oct at Mel's place. That'll be my nieces if they can make it, Mel's friends and my own friends. But abit squeezy, leh... There'll be at least 6 of Mel's friends, at least 5 of my own friends, my 2 nieces, Mel's cousin whom I'll have to ask along, plus Mel and I = 16 minimum.

They do have a function room for me to book tho... Hmm.

2) Don't celebrate with Mel's friends. Go out on Sat/Sun with Mel to celebrate, and I celebrate on the day itself, which is Monday, with my own friends, prolly just a dinner, or whatever my god-bro can come up with.

3) BBQ at Mel's house on Sat but without my friends and nieces. Just the usual "hiadi" bunch; Zhi Zhong, Vincent, Bong, Louis etc... And KTV on Monday with my own friends.

4) KTV instead of BBQ on Sat(just like how I celebrated last year), dinner with friends on Monday.

5) Chinablack / Liquid Room / Music Underground on Sat with the usual bunch, but not gonna buy liquor, lah. No money! KTV/dinner on Monday.

Toughie :( It's not like I'll get any presents or ang baos from Mel's side, and even tho I'll get quite a bit of money from my own side, I doubt I want to spend them all. F.i.g.u.r.i.n.e.s.!

Moreover, I paid $200+ for the KTV celebration last year. Not something I would like to relive this year, paying for a whole group of friends when I planned KTV for low spending. At least I won't have to pay for Elaine and the others we've lost contact with this year.

Decisions, decisions... Since when did my birthday celebrations become so le chey instead of happy?

Sigh.

Look at this:

¤ Gawd... I didn't even notice that my Bday's coming in 1 week... How should I celebrate? =\ [www.jenxger.blogspot.com] ¤ says:
=.=

'Clarence; god bless those involved in Ms Hurricane Rita. says:
How you celebrating? Making babies with melvin ahs? Hahas

That made me realise I'd lost my identity, ever since getting into a relationship with Melvin.

I'm always Melvin's gf, or *****'s friend, blah blah. When was the last time people said "Wah, JenxGeR leh!" "Hey, Jennifer's here!" "Yo, Jen!", like I'm a integer part of the gang? "Gang" as in not being the only girl or whatever, but being accepted like a brother.

I used to be in the limelight with my friends. Now I don't know what I am anymore. My reliance on him for support and solace made me lost my independence and self-confidence... My god-bro thought so too.

He advised me to take some time to go travelling, or take a step and go overseas to study using the savings account I had since young. Just take a chance, and know my direction.

I agree that I need to know my direction... Where and what I should move towards, and get to know myself again. Get to be the Jennifer that her friends loved.

But what if I fail? All those who had been laughing at me... Even tho they want me to buck up, they've been looking down on me all the way... My family... Friends... Melvin... His family.

For 20 years, I lived my life the way my mother wanted me to. Good scores, top class, etc etc. She always penalised me for whatever small mistakes I made along the way, and when I fell 3 years ago; when I fell for the first time in 20 years, I was given a death penalty.

Aye, what the hell.

Read on the newspaper like, yesterday or a couple of days ago, that the government is considering to ban smoking throughout the island in 10 years' time.

Said that with smokers as a minority, the government should not be facing much opposition regarding that idea.

PAH!

Load of bull. Their tabulations are just the "official smokers". I don't see how they will be able to get an accurate calculation of smokers in Singapore anyway.

I guess when I'm 30 and invite my friends and business associates from overseas, this sign will be imprinted in their minds:


No profitable cigarette taxes which they already are having fun imposing, lesser tourists willing to visit because they smoke like chimneys.

I guess Malaysia will be laughing in one corner and profiting on the mistake that the Singapore government was dumb enough to make.



We'll be visiting Malaysia on weekends to puff up on their cheap cigarettes, and have our meals and shopping expeditions in the mean time.

First they banned chewing gums, now they're thinking of banning cigarettes. What's next, banning tissues because people always throw them on the floor after use?

If our government really ban it in 10 years' time, then...

Singapore,


Oops, will I get fined? In this case, "Singapore" is actually the name of my friend, Ah Kou's dog. =)

It feels like a bloody revelation...

I'd heard about what Mel's mum said to my mum last week, over the phone.

None pleasant, no respect for my mother when she spoke like that. Made me disrespect her all the bit more, but I guess I have her to thank for letting me have a bloody revelation.

No, wait, why the hell should I thank her? Ha. I rather thank my god-bro who rushed over right after hearing me cry over the phone, and the talk between my mum, him and I.

I'm gonna go for a morning run later or tomorrow morning, go scanning for a job in areas nearby, dye my hair with that dark copper red blond hairdye I bought a while back, and perm my hair somewhere next month.

A fresh start.

I know it's a ungodly hour to have such thoughts hit me, but damn, it feels good.

I've finally felt good about myself in what seems like years. A sodding light in my tunnel of darkness.

I'm no bloody saint; ain't gonna quit my smoking or drinking anytime soon, but DAMN,



I feel good!

Damn all those who discriminates me. Even if I deserve every criticism from your god-damned mouths, for being a fat, useless wastrel or whatsoever,



you can stick it back up yours.



I'm gonna do things how I like it, slow and easy. It is our choices, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.



I do what I want when I want.



To borrow and edit a quote from William Ernest Henley,


"I am the bloody master of my fate: I am the freaking captain of my soul."





Sod off.

Ooh...

I had a really disturbing dream last night. It was actually a nightmare of sorts, but I slept through it soundly till I woke up naturally.

Um, it was sorta like scenes from a ghost movie - strange people, eerie surroundings and spine-tingling feelings.

I only remember bits and pieces of the dream, but I remembered that I dropped some of my stuff, one of them being my zippo, and I was about to enter a place that the someone who was after me, might be at.

When I entered and grabbed my stuff quickly, the items in my bag spilled because I was rushing off and did not zip up properly. As I bent down to pick up my bangles and keys, etc, I felt him behind me.

I took off and ran, shrugging out of my bag when he made a grab for me. I ran and ran, and when he finally caught up with me, we fought, and somehow a chopping knife(those you use to chop up vegetables, but slightly bigger) appeared in my hand and I pinned him to the ground soonafter.

Instinct told me that the only way to stop him is to go for the kill. His right hand caught mine and we struggled for the knife. My position on top gave me the advantage... And I slowly drew the knife through his heart, and carved it across a couple of times to make sure.

Eeriely like a scene from Saving Private Ryan, between the German and US soldiers. They ran out of bullets and struggled with a jungle knife... Did I mention how much that movie grossed me out? I watched that months ago though.

The knife went thru him like butter... But it still did not kill him.

I then brought the knife up towards his throat, and sliced him slowly through the right to the left. After decapitating him, I simply ran, and did not bother to check if he was truely dead.

Nope, I don't remember the face of the man. I wasn't really afraid of him; Like I said, the dream would have woken me up if I was terrified.

The mysterious man in the dream was more like someone who wished to cause me harm, and I wanted to avoid and escape him... But he was too insistent. So I had to do the deed.

Worst thing tho? I had a happy while carving his heart and looking at his face.

Prophecy? Hope not. Woke up with a weird feeling in my guts and I don't really wish to relive it again.

Brrrr.

"Strange fits of passion have I known, and I will dare to tell, But in the lover's ear alone, what once to me befell."

Ahh, finally back home. Mel's 11days leave from NS ended.

Got a good news tho; He's posted out to become a RP (Resident Regiment Police? *Shrugs*) and he only has to work alternative days and maybe some weekends.

Not sure if it's an 8-5 job anot, but the alternate working days is way cool and I guess it won't be a problem if I find an employment that requires me to work on weekends.

Anyway, I welcomed this 5 new members into the cosy family of my room:




The old grandpa in the background is called the Master. Ignore him. He's just jealous I brought these widdle Spikes back home and of how much I wuv them. *Girlish giggles*

Now I've got 6 Spike figurines! 6!

Mel got these 5 lovely Spike(s) for me for $190. From the guy I was buying from. Ain't he sneaky? =)

I was so disappointed when the seller told me someone offered a higher price for his Spike merchandises that I was in quite a low mood. We'd then went out to buy a birthday present before we went down to Yishun for her birthday dinner.

Mel told me that he was going to pick something up from his campmate since the guy lives in Yishun too, so I grudgingly agreed despite running a little late.

We eventually got lost around the neighbourhood and after waiting in the car for 10mins for him to return, I blew my top at him until he passed me the huge paperbag and told me to see what's inside.

I'll tell you, I was so flustered and sheepish that I almost swallowed my own tongue. The intense guilt for yelling at him through-out the car trip is something I really don't wish to experience again, lol.

My boyfriend, Melvin Lim Jie Ying, the old-fashioned man who can't be romantic to save his life, spent all of his remaining pay on me?

Most importantly, he even planted a surprise? Oh my gawd! Lol =P

He even got me a new pair of sunglasses and some PEZ dispensers.


Did I mention how much I hate my nose?

Despite the fact that he spent half his time at the computer desk and a few "heated discussions" over the week, We had fun visiting toy/figurine shops for my BtVS figures and his Venom/Marvel/DC comic figures and spending so many days together.

It still bothers me whenever I think about how our future will pan out, but after our last argument(which was Saturday), I decided to take his shortcomings into stride. I'll only worry about it when I've reached my limits.

*Rubs her palms together*

Tho I can't say I like Man Utd or Liverpool that much, but I'm going to give Owen a chance to make the Magpies proud on his debut today.

*Jiggles bum infront of Liverpool fans* Aww, all your bids this season failed! Boo hoo hoo!

Can't say I like Souness either... I'm loyal to Sir Bobby :( I mean, Ronaldo wanted to join Newcastle back then because he respects him. Let's just hope Owen will have a successful debut, and with Solano back and addition of Luque will bring us out of our goal draught aye, NUFC fans?

I mean, with Babayaro, Emre, Luque, Shearer, Owen, Solano, Parker and cutie pie Given etc, it's only a matter of time before they get at least top 6 this season. I love you Freddy Sheperd! ^^"


Interject: EHHH, WTF! FULHAM 1-0! SCRAM BACK TO AMERICA MCBRIDE YOU FAG!

Anyway, moving on, can I say WHAT IN THE BLOODY HELL?!! Seriously, what's wrong with our society nowadays? There's more and more of this homicides that's too creepy.

I don't update myself with the news that often, but I know enough about the 2 maids killing their employer, the Huang Na gross murder, and now, decapitation and multilation?!

I swear, I'm DAMN glad my family prefers Indonesian maids. Not trying to make any racist remarks, but man, what those Phillipino maids did were cold-blooded. Maybe you'll say I'm being unfair to the multilated dead maids, but to deserve or provoke such heinous actions, one must have done something, right?

Betimes, such incidents might not have happened. But Singaporeans have came to feel superior over some other nations with our stability and development, that it's distressing that alot of people treat such horrid happenings with schadenfreude. Half of the people who attend the court trials in "concern for justice" are ostentatious.

Pah. Moving on to another subject, here's my movie review for:

The Longest Yard.

Watch it. Yet another film about convicts, but this show seriously kicks ass. If you appreciate Stone Cold, Goldberg, Kevin Nash and sweet Adam, you're gonna lament missing it on the big screen.

I mean, when Mel and I went to watch it at the cinema, we knew we would get to see Stone Cold, but we were happily surprised when we saw Kevin Nash and Goldberg. Stone Cold in fact got the least scenes. Kevin Nash was AWESOME! Lol. I never knew he would be this good in acting as a novice. He was one of the prison guards and was on the guards' American football team. After his Steroids replaced with oestrogen pills secretly, we had a laughing riot. He poked at his nipples and was all emotional constantly. Hilarious!

Goldberg was awesome too. One of the "good guys" prisoner, and he still has yummy muscles even after retiring from wrestling. He was depicted as having a monster in his pants. Rofl!

I can't even begin to describe how wonderfully they showed us life in prisons in America. Racial conflicts, gays, abusive guards, the way they eventually bond together and don't give a fuck what happens anymore since they don't exactly have a bright future ahead of them.

Bad ass. Yum. =d

4 1/2 stars out of 5. I don't believe in full marks since nothing is perfect. =P

'Kay, gonna go read some fanfics again. I swear, I've read at least a thousand fanfics, some of them novel length, ever since I started months ago. And I'm loving it. Heh xD K thx bye~


I shortcut home between Wade's tipsy shocks,
And lookout crows alert in the bare elm
Ask each other about this form that walks
Stubbled mud they consider their own farm.
They know there's death and loss where such shapes go.
I have no gun -- I even feel akin
To these rude, lively birds. But to a crow
Kinship means Crow, and I'm not of his clan.

Off they flap to the wood with a hoarse curse,
And though the landscape's greyer with them gone
I'm glad they're skeptics -- someday someone else
Trudging these ruts may raise a sudden gun.
Distrust me, crow! -- the not-as-crow, the other.
Croak, 'Damn your eyes!' and call no man your brother.

- Leah Bodine Drake

My 20th birthday is on 3rd October =)

If you want to make me the happiest girl on my birthday,

Click here.

and surprise me =)

The day of 03.09.2005

Our 3rd year anniversary sort of started on the day before, at 9.30pm.

My presents for him were newly wrapped when he rang the doorbell and I let him in. I looked at him, and then pouted, remembering what happened on the 31st where he upsetted me.

He then presented this shiny to me:


Truth to be told, he's so NOT the candles and romance type of guy; he just passed me the package without flair, but I guess he at least tries.

Note: This is NOT an engagement ring or promise ring, so your rusty wheels in the brains can stop spinning for a bit. (I, for one, would want bigger diamonds on my engagement ring)

He loved the shirt I got him, and he'd wanted to buy the Battlefield 2 game anyway, and to prove how much he wanted it, he actually played it till 8.30am, until I couldn't take it anymore and outburst at him.

I mean, hello, it's our 3rd year anni! Did he absolutely have to play the game today? He then went on to tell me how he won't be free from now on, but what the heowww, he'd never been free since he went for NS!

We therefore had a quarrel for about 1 hour, and I went on to cry my eyes uber puffy, trying to let him know of his problems.

Whenever we quarrel, he will always end up with a guai lan attitude, and he HATES it when I cry. Almost as if he hates me. To him, it doesn't matter that I cry because I'm upset and hurt; Crying is just plain irritating, period. Hence, he always refuses to look in my direction.

Probably the biggest problem with Mel is that he never listens. Oh, he listens, but he never heeds any of my words or cares enough to bother. He hears, registers, but ignores the meaning. All he cares about is that once I stop ranting, he can come over to kiss me and apologise and make the matter rest asap. He promptly ignores me when I ask for his reply to my thoughts and will fly into a temper if I get upset again after cooling down.

Till now, I don't know which hurts more - Him with his guai lan and ennui attitude, or him looking away from me trying to ignore the fact that I'm crying. Maybe both.

Anyway, moving on to happier subjects, here's the photos I took on that day. We didn't do much, sadly, due to the fact that he stayed up all night(despite claiming he'll be energetic the whole day) and I only napped for a couple of hours.

It was basically a a longer than usual shopping day, 's all. So anyway, I decided to go to Far East to shop, since we missed it the week before, and I struck gold.

He went into a shop to look at a belt, but he ended up buying this bag for me:

Quite lovely, innit? Kinda didn't look at the price before buying it and Mel's eyes bulged when he paid. Lol =X.

Went on to a couple of accessories shops and got myself these sweeties:


By then, my feet started to hurt in those wood base 3 1/2 inch heels I was wearing.(Check out the bluish-green heels in one of my recent posts) and we were ready to go back to the carpark.

Thank gawd I decided to wander in Level One again before we go, b/c I found a lovely, LOVELY shop...

It's called Simply Toys...

The array of figurines on display gave me hope that I might find some Buffy the Vampire Slayer related merchandises and I went in with trepidation. Stayed in for like, 10minutes in the small shop looking over everything, but oh well, like most typical shops, it's filled with Star Wars and Marvel comic merchandises.

Mel got excited over some AvP figurines he wanted to buy, and a 12 inch Venom figurine that cost $270. *Takes note to save for it*

Was about to leave the shop when I casually swept my eyes up on top the display racks and I gave a loud gasp.


My breath caught in my throat and I covered my gasp...

My eyes widened and pupils dilated...

My kneels weakened and threatened to buckle...






MAMA MIA!!!!! MAMA!!!!!!!!


So, the benefit of having a boyfriend who's not romantic enough is that he tries to make it up by buying stuff for you. Ohhhh yes, it's allll MINE now!!!

xD !

Even tho the Spike figure was bought as my advanced birthday present,(Oh yes yes, my BIRTHDAY IS ON 3RD OCT! =P) I felt uncomfortable at the amount of money he'd spent on me and we went for a cheaper dinner instead of the Thai Village at ECP we originally planned >_>.

That didn't stop us from attacking the food at Suki Sushi tho...


And aren't we proud!


We then went on to watch One More Chance, by Jack Neo and gang. It's really awesome. I mean, what else can beat local films? Tons of "Nabei"s, funny dialogues in Hokkien that only Singaporeans will understand, and the typical Singaporean reaction to ex-convicts.

"The judge sentenced me to 10 years jail, and you sentenced me death!"

Hui-ge's interaction with the mother touched me most. When he cried uncontrollably(his expression was hilarious at the same time) in the scene when his mother told him she never gave up on him, I sobbed along. It reminded me of my situation with my mother and it wrenched my heart to see it acted out...

If you haven't watch it, make sure you do. Aside for the unsatisfactory and weird ending(watch it for yourself), you gotta love Jack Neo's new style in the movie.

Anyway, I know I've been posting quite abit of pictures lately, but bear with me for a week or so, and things will return to normal.

It's Melvin's PoP tomorrow, and we're going to the zoo somewhere this week, so there will be bombardments of photos yet again :D.

Gotta go now, 'ta.


I ask not how thy suffering came,
If by sin, or if by shame,
Or if by Fate's capricious rulings:
To my large pity all's the same.

Whew...

I cried within 5 minutes of being back at home, when I had a reasonably great day today. My mum told me we're going to Msia on Tues night. Mel's POP is on Wednesday morning.

Thank goodness it turned out we would go off on Wednesday night and not Tues. But the earliest date I can return on is Saturday morning, shall I skip Genting after visiting my AhMa in Penang. Sigh.

The tickets and hotel accomodations have already been booked and paid for, and I'm frankly quite grateful that they paid it all for me. I know that if I reject their offer, it could somehow dampened our already weak relationship and I most prolly won't get an invitation to a family trip again.

Dilemna, dilemna...

Mel will be off from NS from Wednesday till Sunday, and the trip is from Wednesday till Saturday. Which should I choose? I'm relieved that I would be able to make it for his Pass-Out Parade, but should I go for the trip, or stay in SG?

I so do not want to go near my mum or my sis-in-law to ask for opinions right now. My mum apparently misplaced her 5-figure sum diamond jewellery box(Which I would like to mention- ARGH, would be MINE. Let's just hope she will recover them) and they are discussing whether my mum just misplaced it somewhere in the room or if my maid stole it(She's back in Indonesia for a month before she returns to renew the contract).

Shit really likes to happen around my household. *Deep sigh*

I'll update about the anniversary later when my mood recovers.

As promised, the pics galore.

First I'll start off with a pic of me trying to be funny in my hip-hop-shirt-turned-PJ, acccompanied by my secondary school tie. And apparently I didn't manage to shoot my eyebrows:


Then I move to Shawn and Alan, whom I asked to give me "Dua Pek Gong" or similar pose. Shawn borrowed my specs and they gave me this:


Anyway, turned out Shawn knows Xiao Hei, grew up with my first love Calvin Boey, and saw my current bf around before. What a coincidence!

Then they commented that Zhiwei can always audition for roles that depicts businessman who went out of work. Whatcha think?:


Then Shawn acted all kooky and wanted to take an "artistic" pic of Alan:


Then I took one for Shawn and his kawaii girlfriend, Vannessa, who lives near me, actually:


When I retired home for the night, the guys went to Shawn's house for a tattoo-ing session for RuiSheng. I asked my bro to bring my digicam with him to take some pics of his agony. Lol:


Here's RuiSheng trying to act brave after the outlining:


Heh. Wish I was there to hear his screams lol. So anyway, if you want to get tattoo-ed, feel free to contact me and help my friend's new business. I'm sure he'll give a discount or something =P



MINE!!!

Okay, so maybe not mine. It belongs to my god-bro, lol. Borrowed it with the amp from him to try learning it. It's a pretty sweet thing. :D

Alright, I have a big day tomorrow; Mel's booking out. Gotta sleep now since I have to wake up in the early noon. 'Ta!

All I can say is...

WOOOOOOHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!


Okay, enough of my P-U.SF =P No, I'm not going to explain what P-U.SF means. You may have your fun trying to scramble the acroynm, but it's mostly for myself to look and laugh at.

Anyhoo, my niece, SinYee, is bloody adorable. She's a 3 year old brat, yea, but the way she acted when my mum refused to let her play with the straw constantly? Priceless. She ran into the room, tried to close it and waved her arm trying to smack away my mum's hand, until my mum relented and she locked the door in her face.

Ahh, yes, a perfect spoilt princess in the making. Thanks to my mum and uncle. I wonder how she's going to take it when my incoming new niece is due on October. *Am listening to her cry right now*

Oh yes yes, I'm the "proud" Aunt of 3 lovely girls, Eileen (20), Jasmine (18), SinYee (3). 4 girls come October. I've been an Aunt all my life by the way; my sis conceived Eileen 6 months before my mum. I kinda resigned myself to the fate when I get to meet my nieces' boyfriends and exs.

"Oh ______, meet Jennifer, my Auntie." Accent on Auntie.

Yes Jasmine, I'd never fail to notice your sis and you always stressing on the fact that I'm your Auntie. Can't even make it sound nicer and a little more sophisticated with Aunt. =( Makes me feel all old and prudish.

So anyway, if I'm not wrong, I'm going to my di's place to play Monopoly with him, Zhiwei, Rui Sheng, Shawn and their girlfriends. Should be a bloody riot; haven't played that game since I was a sodding kid.

I had my bro take my digicam over yesterday night so he can take photos of Shawn tattoo-ing for my friends. Hopefully he captured their tortured expressions. I'll upload the pics tomorrow.

I just wish Mel wouldn't be that jealous; it would put me in a better state of mind. It's not that he's insecured and what all, he's just jealous of the fact that my friends get to spend time with me and he don't. Sigh.

I had an small episode with Melvin yesterday and it's upsetting me more than I'm willing to admit, what with the anniversary coming up in 2 days and all. In fact, I was so freakin' tired last night but after the quarrel, the frustration + insomnia kicked in and I haven't had a wink yet.

I just hope tonight will be a fun one and perhaps ask them for some ideas for a present. What can I say? The old Jennifer is no more.

Time to get off now. 'Ta.