Bah, I know it's prolly not waited for, but who cares xD
Had been too lazy to update =P, just managed to catch the well-wishes in my tagboard just now. Thank you guys xD it's sweet *muah*
Spent Xmas Eve at my sis', and she ordered pizzas, KFC, chilli crabs etc. Yum! We watched 'White Chicks' and it was really funny and nice even tho I thought it would be lame, but Mel had to like, be a total jerk and asked to go home at 1am+. I mean, we went there empty-handed and my sis was so nice to grab some pressies for us, and we leave after eating and a DVD? Mean right? Sigh but there wasn't anything I could do but surrender to his need on dosage of DarkEden.
Xmas was rather fun I guess, tho I didn't manage to get a Santa Claus hat :( (seriously... I walked for like, 5-10mins, and I couldn't find any stalls selling the hats. Unbelievable!) but at least I went to Orchard to shop a lil and caught 'Kung Fu Hustle' :P It was um... Kinda 'over lame' if you get what I mean, but funny nonetheless. Went to Mel's ah ma's house for a Christmas party/gathering before that, and its was YUMMYLICIOUS~! Hehe his aunts are Christians so they invited us over for a Christmas meal sorta thingy, I had yummy turkey with cranberry sauce, honey baked ham with cheese, bbq ribs, logcake and all the eating with your fingers thingy, like ang mos do. I never knew turkey taste that good =d.
His 2nd aunt say that it's perfect that I was there b/c I know how to appreciate Westernized meals, but I think it's rather the fact that I'm plain gluttonous.
Not to mention the presence of chocolates and cookies... xD *slurp*
Idk why but I feel so filled with love now. Filled with love given by friends and loved ones, and filled with love I want to share with all xD Hehe I guess thats b/c its my favourite time of the year. I love December~! But I love January & February more, of course. They have the best festival of them all - Chinese New Year!!! I can't wait for CNY to come; once I get my hands on those ang baos... Muahaha! xD
That prolly makes Valentine's the grandest celebration for most couples =) I'll prolly get about 400-500, Mel about 800-1000, so it's all good. Ima get my hair rebonded! Muahahaha! *drifts off to her lil dream about spending all the money she doesn't yet have*
I wonder what I'll do on 31st Dec... I wanna go somewhere to countdown, but frankly, I don't have much friends anymore. (When I used to be a 'friends' person) I only mix with Mel's buddies now b/c I'm TOTALLY lazy to go out my bf driving me around, and apparently Vincent and co. are the only people he is willing to go out with.Thing is, I don't like going out with them only when they feel like asking us along; I rather go out with Mel alone. Last year, I went to Fisherman's V with my friends for the countdown... Got drunk but definitely very happy :( I wonder if I can join them this year again. I heard most of them drifted apart too, only leaving the usual ones like Ang, Jacob, Deron etc... Oh well x( Who wanna bring me out then? Gimme a call!
Just went to read my friend's blog for a while, saw that she mentioned her ex, who's my friend too... Wan ling, I know you're strong but if u feel sad or hurt, I'll be there k? I know the feeling of have someone who's been with you for sooo long, gone from your life... Nobody likes to re-adjust their livestyle suddenly. It sucks :( (For me at least) But I've always admired you for being so matured (while I act a lil kiddish sometimes >_>) so be strong k! Love u! *muacks*
On that note, guess its time for me to get to bed. BAH! Another of the stupid situation. Breakfast or sleep? *Ponders* I think I rather read my book on the bed till I fall asleep. Who cares about breakfast anyway? It's prolly fried bee hoon or fried prawn mee again... Hah. Anyway guys, remember, jio me out for countdown ok? ;) Gnight~
Love,
Jen
Monday, December 27, 2004
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
*Yawns*~~~
Whoa it's almost 7am... Stupid Mel pulled me along to train in DE when I was feeling sickish today... He needed an Enchantress in the party *rolls eyes* He went to bed while I tolled b/c he could go afk and I can't :(
I'm about to sleep... And seriously there's nothing much to fill in for today except for 1 thing : I GOT FUCKING HIT IN THE FACE BY A HIGH HEEL! GRR!
It didn't exactly hit my face; it hit more like my left cheek. Like I said, I was feeling sickish so I slept most of the time. I woke up at 8pm and decided I MUST eat or the acids will corrode off all my stomach wall. We went to eat @ Five Star again =d and as I was eating happily, when some woman in her late 20s was leaving the place and I saw her went 'flop' and fell face down beside Mel.
All came too fast; I was just beginning to try laughing discretly when her right shoe flew up and bounced off the table to my face. OWW! It hurt like hell! My primary reaction was to hit it away with my left hand and it hurt my wrist too. Her friend picked up her shoe on the floor and THEY WENT RIGHT OFF!
FUCKING BITCHES! I was there cursing and rubbing my cheek and they just WALKED RIGHT OFF! The woman's friend obviously saw it hit me, or else she would have wondered why the shoe landed behind her, yet did not hit her. Fucking bitches. I know the embarassment of falling down in public, but hey, where's the politeness? You fucking hit someone in the face with your dirty shoe! I was tired and that blow 'woke' me up, but it ruined my appetite nonetheless. I should have asked her to compensate grr.
Mel laughed at me (zzz) and said that I should buy 4d tomorrow. Too lucky already. YA RIGHT. If I ever see that bitch and shall she fall again, I'm going to laugh out loud right in her face! Grr~
Bah I should get to bed. Thinking about that incident just pisses me off =( Sun's coming up too. Mel's room have no curtains so the glare always hurt my eyes >< k thx bye
I'm about to sleep... And seriously there's nothing much to fill in for today except for 1 thing : I GOT FUCKING HIT IN THE FACE BY A HIGH HEEL! GRR!
It didn't exactly hit my face; it hit more like my left cheek. Like I said, I was feeling sickish so I slept most of the time. I woke up at 8pm and decided I MUST eat or the acids will corrode off all my stomach wall. We went to eat @ Five Star again =d and as I was eating happily, when some woman in her late 20s was leaving the place and I saw her went 'flop' and fell face down beside Mel.
All came too fast; I was just beginning to try laughing discretly when her right shoe flew up and bounced off the table to my face. OWW! It hurt like hell! My primary reaction was to hit it away with my left hand and it hurt my wrist too. Her friend picked up her shoe on the floor and THEY WENT RIGHT OFF!
FUCKING BITCHES! I was there cursing and rubbing my cheek and they just WALKED RIGHT OFF! The woman's friend obviously saw it hit me, or else she would have wondered why the shoe landed behind her, yet did not hit her. Fucking bitches. I know the embarassment of falling down in public, but hey, where's the politeness? You fucking hit someone in the face with your dirty shoe! I was tired and that blow 'woke' me up, but it ruined my appetite nonetheless. I should have asked her to compensate grr.
Mel laughed at me (zzz) and said that I should buy 4d tomorrow. Too lucky already. YA RIGHT. If I ever see that bitch and shall she fall again, I'm going to laugh out loud right in her face! Grr~
Bah I should get to bed. Thinking about that incident just pisses me off =( Sun's coming up too. Mel's room have no curtains so the glare always hurt my eyes >< k thx bye
Monday, December 20, 2004
Pretty woman~ walking down the street~
Lmao~ =P wee! I was back from Orchard since 10.30pm, but I was too lazy to update =p
Today was rather great! I did woke up late at about 2+, and we left for my home @ 3+, 4. Mum got me a pair of really HIGH, really nice heels. I tried it on and I KNEW I had to get three-quarter jeans for the heels xD The only good thing about growing fatter is that my bony feet got a slightly meatier, making em look nicer.
I didn't do all that I'd planned, but it was alright. At least Mel promised to bring me shopping again 'some time soon'. Hollywood's Secrets were closed when I reached Paragon :( I didn't know they close early on weekends. Other than that, I had my haircut, or rather hairwash + trim =P so it was smooth and silky today yea! Heh. The ending effect? Good hair, together with my fav black top and tube, not to mention my fav jeans and heels =P Turned some guys' heads yea, but sadly, their attention was more on my boobs then my face *rolls eyes*.
Part of Orchard Road was sealed off from 6-11pm so we parked at Orchard Point. Uff after walking for about 1hour, my feet hurt SOO bad ><. I persued on for the sake of my warerobe but sadly, I saw tons of cute clothes that I knew I won't fit in, so I did not bother to try them. As we were walking in Far East Square, I was so delighted at all the clothes I saw, but I realised I won't look good in them =( We were about to leave, and I was sulking real bad. All I could do was look at those pretty clothes and wish I was small enough for them, but nah. I almost cried b/c it was a blow to my self-esteem =(.
I decided to try 1 last boutique before we go for dinner, and I saw 1 that didn't have clothes that were too kawaii for me to wear. I went in and asked the auntie inside what would look nice on me, and fwala, she began to stuff clothes into my arms lol.
I tried like 10+ clothes! Well, they weren't exactly like, cute (I just wanna look younger... I realised I'm looking older and older, like an auntie!), but they were okay. I bought 2 three-quarter jeans, 1 pink top xD, 1 brownish-green cardigan-like top that Mel really liked, and a dirty green skirt ^^". All from the same shop, for $150 =O I don't really look younger in them.. But they add a feminine touch so I liked that.
I didn't have the sense of satisfaction since I bought from only 1 boutique, but its okay. At least the amount I spend was quite alot. And that I would be able to shop again soon =)
We took a few photos around Orchard with my bro's digicam, but we didn't manage to get nice couple photos b/c I didn't trust enough to ask a stranger to do it for us. As usual, I looked awful on film. I'd only managed a few nicer 'head-shots', and once I get the cable and cords from my bro I'll upload it to photobucket and here.
*Looks at her 3quarter jeans* Oooh I can't wait for a day to wear them out soon :) They're so comfy~ They'll be a killer with my new heels!
Anyway, think Ima go rest and read my book. Mel's already sleeping. A whole day of shopping apparently took alot out from us xP He'd been a total sweetie like I mentioned, and I love the fact that even when he's asleep, he will hug me or hold my hand when I call out his name beside him. It's all like, automatic. So sweet! Hehe mind u, he sleeps like a LOG! He can wake up to talk to me for a few mins before going back to sleep and wakes up the other day not remembering a thing. Not to mention the fact that he could prolly sleep ANYWHERE! Hee~ Ima go cuddle next to this sweet thing now for what he'd done for me :) Gnight..
Today was rather great! I did woke up late at about 2+, and we left for my home @ 3+, 4. Mum got me a pair of really HIGH, really nice heels. I tried it on and I KNEW I had to get three-quarter jeans for the heels xD The only good thing about growing fatter is that my bony feet got a slightly meatier, making em look nicer.
I didn't do all that I'd planned, but it was alright. At least Mel promised to bring me shopping again 'some time soon'. Hollywood's Secrets were closed when I reached Paragon :( I didn't know they close early on weekends. Other than that, I had my haircut, or rather hairwash + trim =P so it was smooth and silky today yea! Heh. The ending effect? Good hair, together with my fav black top and tube, not to mention my fav jeans and heels =P Turned some guys' heads yea, but sadly, their attention was more on my boobs then my face *rolls eyes*.
Part of Orchard Road was sealed off from 6-11pm so we parked at Orchard Point. Uff after walking for about 1hour, my feet hurt SOO bad ><. I persued on for the sake of my warerobe but sadly, I saw tons of cute clothes that I knew I won't fit in, so I did not bother to try them. As we were walking in Far East Square, I was so delighted at all the clothes I saw, but I realised I won't look good in them =( We were about to leave, and I was sulking real bad. All I could do was look at those pretty clothes and wish I was small enough for them, but nah. I almost cried b/c it was a blow to my self-esteem =(.
I decided to try 1 last boutique before we go for dinner, and I saw 1 that didn't have clothes that were too kawaii for me to wear. I went in and asked the auntie inside what would look nice on me, and fwala, she began to stuff clothes into my arms lol.
I tried like 10+ clothes! Well, they weren't exactly like, cute (I just wanna look younger... I realised I'm looking older and older, like an auntie!), but they were okay. I bought 2 three-quarter jeans, 1 pink top xD, 1 brownish-green cardigan-like top that Mel really liked, and a dirty green skirt ^^". All from the same shop, for $150 =O I don't really look younger in them.. But they add a feminine touch so I liked that.
I didn't have the sense of satisfaction since I bought from only 1 boutique, but its okay. At least the amount I spend was quite alot. And that I would be able to shop again soon =)
We took a few photos around Orchard with my bro's digicam, but we didn't manage to get nice couple photos b/c I didn't trust enough to ask a stranger to do it for us. As usual, I looked awful on film. I'd only managed a few nicer 'head-shots', and once I get the cable and cords from my bro I'll upload it to photobucket and here.
*Looks at her 3quarter jeans* Oooh I can't wait for a day to wear them out soon :) They're so comfy~ They'll be a killer with my new heels!
Anyway, think Ima go rest and read my book. Mel's already sleeping. A whole day of shopping apparently took alot out from us xP He'd been a total sweetie like I mentioned, and I love the fact that even when he's asleep, he will hug me or hold my hand when I call out his name beside him. It's all like, automatic. So sweet! Hehe mind u, he sleeps like a LOG! He can wake up to talk to me for a few mins before going back to sleep and wakes up the other day not remembering a thing. Not to mention the fact that he could prolly sleep ANYWHERE! Hee~ Ima go cuddle next to this sweet thing now for what he'd done for me :) Gnight..
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Weeee!
Heyo~ =)
Decided to update my blog again before I go to bed. I'm all psyched up for my shopping trip tomorrow xD (which girl wouldn't?!) Mel promised (again) to accompany me to Orchard tomorrow to shop shop shop since he broke that promise 2night ago :D
We went to Suki Sushi @ Cenileisure this evening tho. He woke me up and asked me, 'Dear want to eat sushi?' Apparently he worked up an appetite watching Jacky Wu eating sushi on' Shi Zi Lu Kou' haha so I suggested Suki Sushi~ Cheaper and yummy ^^
We spent about $45 for what would cost us about $70 if we ate at Sakae... Muahaha *pats her satisfied tummy* So my bf isn't that bad after all =P He knows how to make me happy. In fact I'm rather delighted at what he'd done for me these few days while I'd been totally bitchy, so yea... Hope it'll continue =P but well, we were late for shopping and the trip to Hollywood's Secrets as I wanted, as usual. We always idled around at home and leave only when we almost can't make it. Guess it's okay as long as I can do it tomorrow.
We went to Kinokuniya for awhile and my mum called when we were walking in Ceni, and she asked me to go home so I can get some new clothes, for New Year perhaps. Wee! Just the perfect timing! I'm going home tomorrow to get some money from mum and shop around in AMK for abit to see if I can get some cheaper clothes before I go to Orchard in the evening. I don't like the idea of taking money from my mum but I DO need some new clothes, since my 'newest' one was bought like 5-6months ago. Not to mention I did not shop for almost a year before that. Creepy for a girl, I know.
So hopefully the shopping trip tomorrow will be a successful one~ A haircut, eyebrow-trimming session, new clothes, more new clothes, and some other accessories etc xD in which means, I have to sleep NOW or else I won't be able to wake up early tomorrow.
Before I do, I would like to thank my friends who have read my blog and expressed their concern :) it's sweet. Thx *huggles* It's nice to have some C's thrown my way - Care, concern, cash, w/e =p
Oh oh wait, I have another thing to talk about. WHO'S BEEN GIVING OUT MY NUMBER??!! Damn f*cked sia, I had THREE guys sms-ing me within FOUR days. And u know what? They all said 'hi how r u?' or something like that. The problem is, I didn't have their number on my sim card, and neither did the names 'Jason, Terrance, and David' registered.
I mean, David. I don't recall any friend named David who has my number, esp. from Zouk. He said, "know u from Zouk lor, I kok u on ur head, don't remember ar haha". I mean, hello, I hadn't give my number to any guy since 2yrs+ ago (I am attached since then, thank you), and 2yrs+ ago I wasn't exactly old enough to go Zouk. I don't even recall that incident @ Zouk at ALL.
Then Jason. Okay, I do have a couple of friends named Jason, but wth, he told me his email is yotaosky @ blah blah .com, really, WTF?! Anyway, he said he lives in Hougang, and even when he called me, I couldn't recognise the voice or any connections to him whatsoever. I've stopped answering his calls.
Down to 'Terrance'. I mean, what is he? Terrance house?! It's Terrence for fucking sake, and once he told me that name I was sure I never gave him my number. I told him with all the summoned patience I'd got, that he obviously didn't get my hp number personally from myself, that it was a fake name, and that I wasn't interested to know him at all. He then pestered me with dozens of sms-es asking, 'so can we be frenz or not' and 'what r u doing'. BRRR! Same for that David guy too! It's SOOOO frustrating!
Bah. Right now I'm so tired, I can't function properly for anything other than going to bed. Grumbling about those idiots won't help anyway. G'night~
Decided to update my blog again before I go to bed. I'm all psyched up for my shopping trip tomorrow xD (which girl wouldn't?!) Mel promised (again) to accompany me to Orchard tomorrow to shop shop shop since he broke that promise 2night ago :D
We went to Suki Sushi @ Cenileisure this evening tho. He woke me up and asked me, 'Dear want to eat sushi?' Apparently he worked up an appetite watching Jacky Wu eating sushi on' Shi Zi Lu Kou' haha so I suggested Suki Sushi~ Cheaper and yummy ^^
We spent about $45 for what would cost us about $70 if we ate at Sakae... Muahaha *pats her satisfied tummy* So my bf isn't that bad after all =P He knows how to make me happy. In fact I'm rather delighted at what he'd done for me these few days while I'd been totally bitchy, so yea... Hope it'll continue =P but well, we were late for shopping and the trip to Hollywood's Secrets as I wanted, as usual. We always idled around at home and leave only when we almost can't make it. Guess it's okay as long as I can do it tomorrow.
We went to Kinokuniya for awhile and my mum called when we were walking in Ceni, and she asked me to go home so I can get some new clothes, for New Year perhaps. Wee! Just the perfect timing! I'm going home tomorrow to get some money from mum and shop around in AMK for abit to see if I can get some cheaper clothes before I go to Orchard in the evening. I don't like the idea of taking money from my mum but I DO need some new clothes, since my 'newest' one was bought like 5-6months ago. Not to mention I did not shop for almost a year before that. Creepy for a girl, I know.
So hopefully the shopping trip tomorrow will be a successful one~ A haircut, eyebrow-trimming session, new clothes, more new clothes, and some other accessories etc xD in which means, I have to sleep NOW or else I won't be able to wake up early tomorrow.
Before I do, I would like to thank my friends who have read my blog and expressed their concern :) it's sweet. Thx *huggles* It's nice to have some C's thrown my way - Care, concern, cash, w/e =p
Oh oh wait, I have another thing to talk about. WHO'S BEEN GIVING OUT MY NUMBER??!! Damn f*cked sia, I had THREE guys sms-ing me within FOUR days. And u know what? They all said 'hi how r u?' or something like that. The problem is, I didn't have their number on my sim card, and neither did the names 'Jason, Terrance, and David' registered.
I mean, David. I don't recall any friend named David who has my number, esp. from Zouk. He said, "know u from Zouk lor, I kok u on ur head, don't remember ar haha". I mean, hello, I hadn't give my number to any guy since 2yrs+ ago (I am attached since then, thank you), and 2yrs+ ago I wasn't exactly old enough to go Zouk. I don't even recall that incident @ Zouk at ALL.
Then Jason. Okay, I do have a couple of friends named Jason, but wth, he told me his email is yotaosky @ blah blah .com, really, WTF?! Anyway, he said he lives in Hougang, and even when he called me, I couldn't recognise the voice or any connections to him whatsoever. I've stopped answering his calls.
Down to 'Terrance'. I mean, what is he? Terrance house?! It's Terrence for fucking sake, and once he told me that name I was sure I never gave him my number. I told him with all the summoned patience I'd got, that he obviously didn't get my hp number personally from myself, that it was a fake name, and that I wasn't interested to know him at all. He then pestered me with dozens of sms-es asking, 'so can we be frenz or not' and 'what r u doing'. BRRR! Same for that David guy too! It's SOOOO frustrating!
Bah. Right now I'm so tired, I can't function properly for anything other than going to bed. Grumbling about those idiots won't help anyway. G'night~
Saturday, December 18, 2004
I wish I knew what came over me =(
Right now I'm crying. Hmm, or rather was crying. It was supposed to be a happy night actually, because I went to KTV with Kailing and Vincent they all and we had quite a fun time(even tho Mel promised to go shopping with me at Orchard today but didn't).
We just got back from eating @ Changi. We had initially planned to go a temple in Loyang to pray but we all got tired and setted off for home. On the car, Mel and I talked about Derek and Elaine who went missing for about a month (Derek drove without a license and he's sorta wanted by the law by not going to army yet and the license thingy, and Elaine is well, his girl.) Don't know what they are up to really. Wonder how they survived without money. I have quite a few possible ideas that Mel deemed unfit to publish on the net, so I can't type it out but, I wouldn't know anyway. All I care about is the money they still owe Mel, prolly about $1000+ in total unreturned. What they have done to us in the past were.. unforgivable too.
Anyway, thats not why I cried... We also talked about our sorta co-habition together, and I was telling him how wrong it was. We are still so young, and mouths have been spinning off about how I am like living with another guy now and not returning home much. I don't like the fact that my mum has to undergo such pressure. Hey, I DO go home, but that doesn't stop tongues from wagging.
He told me we're gonna get married ultimately so I shouldn't care about that too much. Even tho I don't mind that idea, we're still so young! We aren't out working yet and we don't know who we may meet or know in the near future. When I worked as a travel consultant a few months ago, I got to know SO many people, clients and colleagues alike. What if he meets a girl next time? What if I do?
Nobody can ever be so sure about the future.. I know I shouldn't sound so negative but its true. On the car, we were talking about, what if he has an affair blah blah blah, and I told him of how I would react. If he has an affair in the 30s, its harder for me to forgive him, esp. if we don't have kids. If it happens when we're in our 40s, 50s, 60s, I would give him a chance b/c of our long relationship. If he makes the girl pregnant, I would have to see if the woman's a bitch who wants to snatch away my husband, or another desperately in love woman who is torn between guilt and love. I would NEVER allow her to be accepted into the family (none of the other elders would anyway) but I won't make her abort. If she has problems I would take the child as my own.. but she will never be part of the family. Nor will her kids call me 'Da-Ma' or w/e. (Unless I'd taken her kid as my own. Then he/she will call me Da Ma -_-")
Haha I know I know... I sound so uh, naggy w/e, and that whole conversation sounded so DUH, but I'm quite strict with all this really... I just don't want my kids to grow up the way I did. As Mel and I chatted on, I got reminded of my past; the day my nanny, my closest kin for 11yrs, asked me to return home. I could still remember...
We were standing by the window pane in the living room.. She was looking outside aimlessly and her eyes were red from crying. I know what was going to happen but I tried to wish it away, but it did. When she told me to go back home to stay with my mother, she broke into tears. I stared at the fake firecracker ornament which hung down the ceiling, the shelves on my right, the curtains, outside etc; everything was like a daze... The memory from 8 years ago still lingers vividly in my mind.
The beginning days back home with my mum were harsh.. I slept with her every night crying myself to sleep, and my mum was angered and hurt by the fact I missed my nanny and my sister whom I slept with, and she would scold me, making me cry even more. Everyday I come back home from school to face the empty home, until a maid came 1 year later. Most of the time when my mum returned from work, I would be sleeping. My maids thru out the years were my closest friend.
I never had a father like my nanny's husband to reprimand me, to take me in hand when I do things wrong. Well... He's the father I always wanted. The only memory I had of my own father was him slapping my face when I was 2, just because I refused to share the bread I was eating. My nanny home was so different.. Father would sit me in my brother's room alone, closing the door and everything, and talks to me about what I'd done wrong, and how I should have done things the way they should be. He never once raised his hands on me.
Just as much as I understand why I had to leave that home, I couldn't help but feel hurt everytime I think about it. That's why i gradually grew apart from then when I was around Sec 2 - Sec 3.. But if any of them should see this... Christina Jie... I miss u all. So so so much...
Sigh. I know I shouldn't linger on sad memories, but I just can't forget it all. Who could? I wanna call my nanny and father to call them 'Mi, Pa' again.. But I don't dare to. We've lost contact for almost 2 years. When my sister got married about 3 years ago, they asked me to go and take family photos with them... I was so elated and touched... But now, sadly, it's a silent, mutual understanding that we aren't what we were anymore... And it saddens me even tho I know its inevitable.
Haiz... I think I go sleep le ba... Thinking about all these just makes me wanna cry more. I'm making my blog sound like a total sob, with all these emotional stuff I've been writing thru out the days. Since it's like published on the net for anyone to see, I guess I'll try to make it more entertaining or something... I don't know. Or like my bf just said, I should write more about us too =P Make him happy, make me happy. Hah. Oh well... G'night.
We just got back from eating @ Changi. We had initially planned to go a temple in Loyang to pray but we all got tired and setted off for home. On the car, Mel and I talked about Derek and Elaine who went missing for about a month (Derek drove without a license and he's sorta wanted by the law by not going to army yet and the license thingy, and Elaine is well, his girl.) Don't know what they are up to really. Wonder how they survived without money. I have quite a few possible ideas that Mel deemed unfit to publish on the net, so I can't type it out but, I wouldn't know anyway. All I care about is the money they still owe Mel, prolly about $1000+ in total unreturned. What they have done to us in the past were.. unforgivable too.
Anyway, thats not why I cried... We also talked about our sorta co-habition together, and I was telling him how wrong it was. We are still so young, and mouths have been spinning off about how I am like living with another guy now and not returning home much. I don't like the fact that my mum has to undergo such pressure. Hey, I DO go home, but that doesn't stop tongues from wagging.
He told me we're gonna get married ultimately so I shouldn't care about that too much. Even tho I don't mind that idea, we're still so young! We aren't out working yet and we don't know who we may meet or know in the near future. When I worked as a travel consultant a few months ago, I got to know SO many people, clients and colleagues alike. What if he meets a girl next time? What if I do?
Nobody can ever be so sure about the future.. I know I shouldn't sound so negative but its true. On the car, we were talking about, what if he has an affair blah blah blah, and I told him of how I would react. If he has an affair in the 30s, its harder for me to forgive him, esp. if we don't have kids. If it happens when we're in our 40s, 50s, 60s, I would give him a chance b/c of our long relationship. If he makes the girl pregnant, I would have to see if the woman's a bitch who wants to snatch away my husband, or another desperately in love woman who is torn between guilt and love. I would NEVER allow her to be accepted into the family (none of the other elders would anyway) but I won't make her abort. If she has problems I would take the child as my own.. but she will never be part of the family. Nor will her kids call me 'Da-Ma' or w/e. (Unless I'd taken her kid as my own. Then he/she will call me Da Ma -_-")
Haha I know I know... I sound so uh, naggy w/e, and that whole conversation sounded so DUH, but I'm quite strict with all this really... I just don't want my kids to grow up the way I did. As Mel and I chatted on, I got reminded of my past; the day my nanny, my closest kin for 11yrs, asked me to return home. I could still remember...
We were standing by the window pane in the living room.. She was looking outside aimlessly and her eyes were red from crying. I know what was going to happen but I tried to wish it away, but it did. When she told me to go back home to stay with my mother, she broke into tears. I stared at the fake firecracker ornament which hung down the ceiling, the shelves on my right, the curtains, outside etc; everything was like a daze... The memory from 8 years ago still lingers vividly in my mind.
The beginning days back home with my mum were harsh.. I slept with her every night crying myself to sleep, and my mum was angered and hurt by the fact I missed my nanny and my sister whom I slept with, and she would scold me, making me cry even more. Everyday I come back home from school to face the empty home, until a maid came 1 year later. Most of the time when my mum returned from work, I would be sleeping. My maids thru out the years were my closest friend.
I never had a father like my nanny's husband to reprimand me, to take me in hand when I do things wrong. Well... He's the father I always wanted. The only memory I had of my own father was him slapping my face when I was 2, just because I refused to share the bread I was eating. My nanny home was so different.. Father would sit me in my brother's room alone, closing the door and everything, and talks to me about what I'd done wrong, and how I should have done things the way they should be. He never once raised his hands on me.
Just as much as I understand why I had to leave that home, I couldn't help but feel hurt everytime I think about it. That's why i gradually grew apart from then when I was around Sec 2 - Sec 3.. But if any of them should see this... Christina Jie... I miss u all. So so so much...
Sigh. I know I shouldn't linger on sad memories, but I just can't forget it all. Who could? I wanna call my nanny and father to call them 'Mi, Pa' again.. But I don't dare to. We've lost contact for almost 2 years. When my sister got married about 3 years ago, they asked me to go and take family photos with them... I was so elated and touched... But now, sadly, it's a silent, mutual understanding that we aren't what we were anymore... And it saddens me even tho I know its inevitable.
Haiz... I think I go sleep le ba... Thinking about all these just makes me wanna cry more. I'm making my blog sound like a total sob, with all these emotional stuff I've been writing thru out the days. Since it's like published on the net for anyone to see, I guess I'll try to make it more entertaining or something... I don't know. Or like my bf just said, I should write more about us too =P Make him happy, make me happy. Hah. Oh well... G'night.
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
*Beams*
'Sup all =)
I feel so proud of myself. I killed a cockroach just now!
Idk why, but amidst the noise of my hamsters running their wheels and ruffling thru wood shavings, I heard a weird sound and I turned back to see one of the sons of the cockroach colony! (Note: If you have no idea what I mean, read my 1st entry from yesterday)
This one must have been one of the 'middle-ranking' sons; it was a grown up male but it was um, kinda skinny. Thats why I dared to pick up the Shieldtox (which I placed as prized property next to me at the desk) and sprayed at it. No way am I gonna let it go near my hamsters!
xD *beams again* I killed a cockroach~! Muahaha~ Even tho' I was too disgusted to pick up the corpse (I woke Mel up to do the dirty work), I'm one step closer to conquering my cockroach fear (I hope).
You know, I was surfing thru the links from my friend's blog just now, and I realised that the slut *cough* Haze *cough* I hated since way back, had the same song by Arvil that I used to have for my old blog's template. Eew~ Thank God I changed the song. (Yes I'm bitchy, muahaha. She should be glad I didn't post her blog's url here and talk about her ugly history. I should do that, since she offended me before, but I'm magnanimous okay! ;] )
Anyway, I needed to upload the pics for this new template somewhere, so ta-da, http://photobucket.com/albums/v629/JenxGeR/. Hopefully thats the correct link to mah PhotoBucket account. I dont really know how to use it yet.
Also, I went to visit my mum 2 nights ago, she's quite fine now xD Hurray! And do you know how sweet she is? I was home the other night before I went to Chinablack, (for my pink princessy-like bag) and I noticed she replaced my broken Chanel foundation with a new one, and got me a blue hairbrush too! My fav colour! She knows I tend to break expensive compact powder/foundation (that was my 3rd Chanel foundation) so she must have checked my bag for me. It had been in my bag ages ago but she didn't tell me. Aww... x)
I just hope I don't break this 1 anytime soon. Yea.. It's expensive too. In fact all my make-up stuff are; my mum insists on good quality, and to her, high price and brand = good quality lol. Lucky me =P
Oh shit wait... I think I hear something... God damned problem was that I had both my bathroom and room's doors open when the cockroach was spotted... Idk where it came from, and now I hear that distinctive cockroach's-feet-dashing-across-the-floor sound. I can't explain how it sounds like, but I just know. Like I mentioned before, I have enough knowledge and encounters with em.
Okkaay... I should get to bed now... Since its late.. and the ruffling sound is like.. around my chair... hookkayyy.... I'll update again after I clean up the room tomorrow... G'night!!!
I feel so proud of myself. I killed a cockroach just now!
Idk why, but amidst the noise of my hamsters running their wheels and ruffling thru wood shavings, I heard a weird sound and I turned back to see one of the sons of the cockroach colony! (Note: If you have no idea what I mean, read my 1st entry from yesterday)
This one must have been one of the 'middle-ranking' sons; it was a grown up male but it was um, kinda skinny. Thats why I dared to pick up the Shieldtox (which I placed as prized property next to me at the desk) and sprayed at it. No way am I gonna let it go near my hamsters!
xD *beams again* I killed a cockroach~! Muahaha~ Even tho' I was too disgusted to pick up the corpse (I woke Mel up to do the dirty work), I'm one step closer to conquering my cockroach fear (I hope).
You know, I was surfing thru the links from my friend's blog just now, and I realised that the slut *cough* Haze *cough* I hated since way back, had the same song by Arvil that I used to have for my old blog's template. Eew~ Thank God I changed the song. (Yes I'm bitchy, muahaha. She should be glad I didn't post her blog's url here and talk about her ugly history. I should do that, since she offended me before, but I'm magnanimous okay! ;] )
Anyway, I needed to upload the pics for this new template somewhere, so ta-da, http://photobucket.com/albums/v629/JenxGeR/. Hopefully thats the correct link to mah PhotoBucket account. I dont really know how to use it yet.
Also, I went to visit my mum 2 nights ago, she's quite fine now xD Hurray! And do you know how sweet she is? I was home the other night before I went to Chinablack, (for my pink princessy-like bag) and I noticed she replaced my broken Chanel foundation with a new one, and got me a blue hairbrush too! My fav colour! She knows I tend to break expensive compact powder/foundation (that was my 3rd Chanel foundation) so she must have checked my bag for me. It had been in my bag ages ago but she didn't tell me. Aww... x)
I just hope I don't break this 1 anytime soon. Yea.. It's expensive too. In fact all my make-up stuff are; my mum insists on good quality, and to her, high price and brand = good quality lol. Lucky me =P
Oh shit wait... I think I hear something... God damned problem was that I had both my bathroom and room's doors open when the cockroach was spotted... Idk where it came from, and now I hear that distinctive cockroach's-feet-dashing-across-the-floor sound. I can't explain how it sounds like, but I just know. Like I mentioned before, I have enough knowledge and encounters with em.
Okkaay... I should get to bed now... Since its late.. and the ruffling sound is like.. around my chair... hookkayyy.... I'll update again after I clean up the room tomorrow... G'night!!!
Ugh~
Ok the only reason why I'm typing this entry is a reminder for me to not eat any more Ba Guas, ESP. Gourmet Ba Gua, or bacon, for the next few months until perhaps Chinese New Year.
I just finished about 150g of gourmet ba gua, summing up to about 300-400g of it within these 2 days, and I feel as if I might melt onto the floor into a puddle of oil. I mean it. Its not the guilty sense of feeling that I'd prolly eaten up enough oil to supply for a week of standard family's cooking, but I literally feel sick with all that oil in me. It feels like I can pinch my tummy and oil will ooze out, or if I make small gagging motions with my mouth, oil will leak out.
Really! And they were pretty expensive, $5 per 100g. It's really time to spend that money on something else. Now's the only time I wish my hp bill will come sooner.
Anyway, I found this pic from Mel's hp that was taken maybe 4-5months ago. I really like it b/c it prolly made me look better than I look in real life. Rofl~ Maybe its because 4-5months ago, my appetite was still under control =X Nice ma? ^^" If u still feel that its ugly, theres nothing I can do lol. Like I said, it looks better than me in real life so there's that xD
Bleah... I need make up. I need... Better skin. I need... to slim down! >_<
P.S: I Luurrvveee my new blog skin! Isn't it sweet? I had a hard time choosing. Check out my credits and link section on the left!
I just finished about 150g of gourmet ba gua, summing up to about 300-400g of it within these 2 days, and I feel as if I might melt onto the floor into a puddle of oil. I mean it. Its not the guilty sense of feeling that I'd prolly eaten up enough oil to supply for a week of standard family's cooking, but I literally feel sick with all that oil in me. It feels like I can pinch my tummy and oil will ooze out, or if I make small gagging motions with my mouth, oil will leak out.
Really! And they were pretty expensive, $5 per 100g. It's really time to spend that money on something else. Now's the only time I wish my hp bill will come sooner.
Anyway, I found this pic from Mel's hp that was taken maybe 4-5months ago. I really like it b/c it prolly made me look better than I look in real life. Rofl~ Maybe its because 4-5months ago, my appetite was still under control =X Nice ma? ^^" If u still feel that its ugly, theres nothing I can do lol. Like I said, it looks better than me in real life so there's that xD
Bleah... I need make up. I need... Better skin. I need... to slim down! >_<
P.S: I Luurrvveee my new blog skin! Isn't it sweet? I had a hard time choosing. Check out my credits and link section on the left!
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
OMFG~
Farktard. A colony of cockroaches have just officially shifted their home to my room!!! After being haunted by a flying baby cockroach 2 nights ago, the king , no hmm, I think the eldest son (since kings aren't supposed to come out unprotected. ANYWAYYY) popped over for a visit, or rather, to declare their taking over of my bf's room. WTFFFFFFFFFFFFF IT WAS HUGE!!! I'm ANTI bugs, I hate any bugs from big ants, butterflies, wormy like stuff, to cockroaches, grasshoppers WHATEVER. SIX LEGGED OR EIGHT LEGGED FREAKS PLS GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! They totally freak me out >_> I once touched a dead cockroach by mistake and I ran about 150m from the spot crying, leaving my sis looking at me with jaws dropped.
Anyway, the cockroach was like, JUMPING, Idk really, it was on the rim of the door, trying to get to the wall beside it. So it went, hop, crawl back, hop. During this 2 years, 3months and 11days of our relationship, we've never seen a cockroach appear in his room before(despite the fact that living on the 1st flr, 1 of his window is like, next to the rubbish chute door) so we both freaked out. Took abit of hussle to kill it. Odourless Shieldtox, MUAH!!! Love ya!!
Anybody knows what I should do? I think the cockroaches came from the um, the sewage hole thingy? The 1 that drains away the water in the bathroom? Its connected to the sewage and I've seen baby cockroaches crawling out of the bathroom, so yea. I tried spraying water and Shieldtox into the drainage just now, hope it'll help. Is there some sort of cockroach poison I can drop in it?
We might have got rid of one of their sons, but their baby princess is hiding somewhere. It was like a grasshopper, the way it hop and flew away from my bf when he tried to kill it. I've had enough experiences with cockroaches crawling over my blanket and ARM to suffer endless sleepless nights. *Sob* Now my bf's place is starting to look like my home! Noooooooo >_<
Anyway, after making $170 from selling DarkEden game money (^,^ muahaha) I decided to get myself a mic soon. No harm recording my singing/songs into the com right.. Its also no harm if I'll ever need to send it as a demo 1 day... *wink wink* lmao the unlimited power of daydreaming.. xD Anyway, it's REALLY late, Ima get to my book or something before I sleep. Cya soon ;)
P.S: Yes yes my mood HAVE been better these couple of days, in case you're wondering =P Wee woo wee~! No harm keeping it like this before I turn all moody when the time of the month comes. *rolls eyes*
Anyway, the cockroach was like, JUMPING, Idk really, it was on the rim of the door, trying to get to the wall beside it. So it went, hop, crawl back, hop. During this 2 years, 3months and 11days of our relationship, we've never seen a cockroach appear in his room before(despite the fact that living on the 1st flr, 1 of his window is like, next to the rubbish chute door) so we both freaked out. Took abit of hussle to kill it. Odourless Shieldtox, MUAH!!! Love ya!!
Anybody knows what I should do? I think the cockroaches came from the um, the sewage hole thingy? The 1 that drains away the water in the bathroom? Its connected to the sewage and I've seen baby cockroaches crawling out of the bathroom, so yea. I tried spraying water and Shieldtox into the drainage just now, hope it'll help. Is there some sort of cockroach poison I can drop in it?
We might have got rid of one of their sons, but their baby princess is hiding somewhere. It was like a grasshopper, the way it hop and flew away from my bf when he tried to kill it. I've had enough experiences with cockroaches crawling over my blanket and ARM to suffer endless sleepless nights. *Sob* Now my bf's place is starting to look like my home! Noooooooo >_<
Anyway, after making $170 from selling DarkEden game money (^,^ muahaha) I decided to get myself a mic soon. No harm recording my singing/songs into the com right.. Its also no harm if I'll ever need to send it as a demo 1 day... *wink wink* lmao the unlimited power of daydreaming.. xD Anyway, it's REALLY late, Ima get to my book or something before I sleep. Cya soon ;)
P.S: Yes yes my mood HAVE been better these couple of days, in case you're wondering =P Wee woo wee~! No harm keeping it like this before I turn all moody when the time of the month comes. *rolls eyes*
=]
As usual procedure of vain o' me, I went to check out (for the XXth time) the 2 pics I posted in the blog and regretted it =] I may be fat, but the pics made me looked UBER fat! Actually, its just my 'hamburger-a-gogo' cheeks. Hate em =
I woke up a couple of hours ago really bored, so I got down to doing everything I haven't been doing in a while. Checking my um.. online stuff? Friendster, neopets, email, fav. net bookmarks, etc etc. =] Sad life~ Lmao anyway, I couldn't figure why friendster wouldn't send me emails when people add me or send me msgs; I logged in and I had quite a bit of friend requests and msgs. Oh well..
I saw the RSS field option thingy for friendster, to like, show ur blog entries somehow? Idk how it works but I did it all the same. *shrugs* In my list of new friend requests, I saw my fren's, well, my ex's friendster, and aww, its nice to see him so settled down and seemed so in bliss. I envy them so much. And he's still so uber uber cute. Rofl. I admit I'm the flamboyant kind, b/c I still think about the past, and for what I know of him, I bet he thinks a lil too (maybe not of me, but at least his other ex's). -_-" Annyywwayy, not to get too off the point, I'm getting the 'I-feel-lonely-and-empty-all-inside-even-tho-i-have-a-boyfriend-of-almost-2-and-a-half-years' crap feeling again =] Shitty.
Am I asking for too much? Hope not. Its just, Idk, sometimes when I think about how stagnant and boring my life is, the more I wanna do something to change it. Not in the get a job and get busy sorta way... but.. you know. Uff Idk what spurred me to type all these; I hope my ex doesn't read my blog or else his gf would be cursing me behind the monitor, but yea thats how f*cked up my mentality is sometimes.
Anndd... The more I type, the more I wish to click the X on the top right hand corner without saving this shit. Lmao. Ahh... Girl of the 21st century.
Speaking of which, lemme unwind abit about a small incident I forgot to fill in yesterday. I was at Chinablack on Sat, right? When I stepped out of Mel's car (he went to park), my girl's instinct told me I had a few pair of eyes on me. I mean, at least 1/2 of those people were staring at my nunga-nungas (thats my british way of calling my boobs), and others were discussing whether I'm pretty or not. Seriously! My friend, Amy, was there too and she saw me, so she called me over and we talked for a bit. While I walked past a group of 4, they were like, checking me out. When I passed by them on the way back, I heard the 'golden' sentence that assured me that they were talking about me. 'But ta you yi dian fei leh' (But shes a lil fat leh) =]]] Who else but me? X_X I mean comon guys, you want big racks? Don't expect a skinny body to go along with it; unless its fake. I'm in the midst of dieting(again)~! When I DO slim down, I'ma kick all your gfs' arses LOL j/k -.-" Bah I'm Queen Boredyfer of Boredonia!
Seriously, does anyone have a quick method to dieting? Teach meh!!! =o~ *looks at her wallet* Maybe I should start going out to spend my money on pwettie pwettie clothes so I wouldn't have money for scrumptious food or late night 7-11 trips xD *stares at the snacks and tidbits she had placed strategically around the room* Ahh well...
I woke up a couple of hours ago really bored, so I got down to doing everything I haven't been doing in a while. Checking my um.. online stuff? Friendster, neopets, email, fav. net bookmarks, etc etc. =] Sad life~ Lmao anyway, I couldn't figure why friendster wouldn't send me emails when people add me or send me msgs; I logged in and I had quite a bit of friend requests and msgs. Oh well..
I saw the RSS field option thingy for friendster, to like, show ur blog entries somehow? Idk how it works but I did it all the same. *shrugs* In my list of new friend requests, I saw my fren's, well, my ex's friendster, and aww, its nice to see him so settled down and seemed so in bliss. I envy them so much. And he's still so uber uber cute. Rofl. I admit I'm the flamboyant kind, b/c I still think about the past, and for what I know of him, I bet he thinks a lil too (maybe not of me, but at least his other ex's). -_-" Annyywwayy, not to get too off the point, I'm getting the 'I-feel-lonely-and-empty-all-inside-even-tho-i-have-a-boyfriend-of-almost-2-and-a-half-years' crap feeling again =] Shitty.
Am I asking for too much? Hope not. Its just, Idk, sometimes when I think about how stagnant and boring my life is, the more I wanna do something to change it. Not in the get a job and get busy sorta way... but.. you know. Uff Idk what spurred me to type all these; I hope my ex doesn't read my blog or else his gf would be cursing me behind the monitor, but yea thats how f*cked up my mentality is sometimes.
Anndd... The more I type, the more I wish to click the X on the top right hand corner without saving this shit. Lmao. Ahh... Girl of the 21st century.
Speaking of which, lemme unwind abit about a small incident I forgot to fill in yesterday. I was at Chinablack on Sat, right? When I stepped out of Mel's car (he went to park), my girl's instinct told me I had a few pair of eyes on me. I mean, at least 1/2 of those people were staring at my nunga-nungas (thats my british way of calling my boobs), and others were discussing whether I'm pretty or not. Seriously! My friend, Amy, was there too and she saw me, so she called me over and we talked for a bit. While I walked past a group of 4, they were like, checking me out. When I passed by them on the way back, I heard the 'golden' sentence that assured me that they were talking about me. 'But ta you yi dian fei leh' (But shes a lil fat leh) =]]] Who else but me? X_X I mean comon guys, you want big racks? Don't expect a skinny body to go along with it; unless its fake. I'm in the midst of dieting(again)~! When I DO slim down, I'ma kick all your gfs' arses LOL j/k -.-" Bah I'm Queen Boredyfer of Boredonia!
Seriously, does anyone have a quick method to dieting? Teach meh!!! =o~ *looks at her wallet* Maybe I should start going out to spend my money on pwettie pwettie clothes so I wouldn't have money for scrumptious food or late night 7-11 trips xD *stares at the snacks and tidbits she had placed strategically around the room* Ahh well...
Monday, December 13, 2004
xD
*Stretches and rubs her tummy* xD went to 'Five Star' @ Bukit Timah for dinner just now, couldn't even get to the 'Mai Pian Xia' (Prawns with oatmeal =d) so I da bao it back.. yum yum!Went to ChinaBlack ytd with ZZ Vincent they all @ about 11+, 12mn with their friends, lucky dont need queue up la.. Louis bought a bottle of Martell (YUMMM) and their friend was celebrating his bday @ the VIP seats.After 2months of 'bi guan xiu lian' (meditation indoors lmao) I finally come out of my 'cave' for some fresh night air xD and I had fun yesterday. More or less its because I got to drink my fav Martell without any restrictions (Melvin owe me it b/c he'd been breaking promises all week =x) and the songs were great. Well, at least the songs from 2.30am onwards were great. Lotsa LP songs, muahaha xD! Anyway, does anyone know the song which goes um, 'Woo hoo~! Woo hoo~! Ba la bi la beh beh bong (rofl)' and the fast speed Jet's song with the starting music soundin like the song from 'Under 1 roof'? You know, the 'One' album with a burger as the CD cover? They had this Jet song in the advertisement.. I wanna know the titles!!! =O~
Anyway, below's the 2 pic I took with the bday girl, Wan Ling, whom I bumped into at the ladies xD As usual, I look awful in snapshots x(
Anyway, below's the 2 pic I took with the bday girl, Wan Ling, whom I bumped into at the ladies xD As usual, I look awful in snapshots x(
Friday, December 10, 2004
Silver lining Part 2
*Moans in pain* Damnit, I got sick again.. aching all over -0- 2nd time in this whole year tho; guess its not that bad. Just down with a lil flu/fever w/e. The perfect time to lose some weight due to the loss of appetite, lmao.
Anyway, I can't believe Toba Takashi replied! I thought that job application was a failure but he sent me an email on the 4th. Wee! Apparently he got busy @ work in London so he took about a month to reply -_- soo anyway, as told by my friend, I would be the manager of Dawn Yeoh (if its all successful that is). Don't know who she is? Google the name. Anyway, heres part of the email that excited me:
I'm planning Dawn's training tour plan. in the period, I need her manager definitely. Please let me know your schedule also. Project Title : Dawn Yeoh 2nd UK Training Tour Period : 17 April 2005 to 25 April 2005 Details : (1) Manager work for Dawn Yeoh during Tour Period. (2) Air Ticket fee is paid by Company (3) Hotel Fee is paid by Company (Same room as Dawn) (4) Food and Transpotation fee is paid by Company (5) No salary in this period. (6) Insurance is paid by Company I am arranging Dawn Yeoh Dance Training Session in London in April. Company will arrange payment for most of fee except your salary. pls let me know whether you can make it in this period. I will contact to you again. Thank you and Regards, Takashi Toba
Cool right?! I mean, yea it suck that theres no salary and such, but it'll be so cool to go to UK for free! There'll be a simple interview in January but I think if nothing goes wrong, I'll get the job. Meanwhile I can do some part-time and wait for the whole thing. *starts dreaming* No wait, I'll prolly suffer there lol. Waking up early in the morning, and taking care of every single thing like a slave, it doesn't seem that good. What if shes mean and bitchy? -0-" I hope not. Like I said, I'm not a girly girl type, so even tho we're about the same age, Idk if we'll get along that well. Ahh well~ Wait for my 'Silver Lining Part 3' k guys? lol~
Ima go work on my song now. (yes I've finally decided to complete and improvise on a song I wrote when I was Sec 2 :P) It's called 'Qiu Qian' (Swing) and maybe if I find a way to upload my song aka my singing on the Net for free, I'll put a link in here =X Anyyywaay, Ima go watch my BTVS episodes and then rest. Cya =)
P.S: Sly appeared in my dreams again.. =_="
Anyway, I can't believe Toba Takashi replied! I thought that job application was a failure but he sent me an email on the 4th. Wee! Apparently he got busy @ work in London so he took about a month to reply -_- soo anyway, as told by my friend, I would be the manager of Dawn Yeoh (if its all successful that is). Don't know who she is? Google the name. Anyway, heres part of the email that excited me:
I'm planning Dawn's training tour plan. in the period, I need her manager definitely. Please let me know your schedule also. Project Title : Dawn Yeoh 2nd UK Training Tour Period : 17 April 2005 to 25 April 2005 Details : (1) Manager work for Dawn Yeoh during Tour Period. (2) Air Ticket fee is paid by Company (3) Hotel Fee is paid by Company (Same room as Dawn) (4) Food and Transpotation fee is paid by Company (5) No salary in this period. (6) Insurance is paid by Company I am arranging Dawn Yeoh Dance Training Session in London in April. Company will arrange payment for most of fee except your salary. pls let me know whether you can make it in this period. I will contact to you again. Thank you and Regards, Takashi Toba
Cool right?! I mean, yea it suck that theres no salary and such, but it'll be so cool to go to UK for free! There'll be a simple interview in January but I think if nothing goes wrong, I'll get the job. Meanwhile I can do some part-time and wait for the whole thing. *starts dreaming* No wait, I'll prolly suffer there lol. Waking up early in the morning, and taking care of every single thing like a slave, it doesn't seem that good. What if shes mean and bitchy? -0-" I hope not. Like I said, I'm not a girly girl type, so even tho we're about the same age, Idk if we'll get along that well. Ahh well~ Wait for my 'Silver Lining Part 3' k guys? lol~
Ima go work on my song now. (yes I've finally decided to complete and improvise on a song I wrote when I was Sec 2 :P) It's called 'Qiu Qian' (Swing) and maybe if I find a way to upload my song aka my singing on the Net for free, I'll put a link in here =X Anyyywaay, Ima go watch my BTVS episodes and then rest. Cya =)
P.S: Sly appeared in my dreams again.. =_="
Sunday, December 05, 2004
Sigh
*looks at the half-eaten bar of chocolate* Sigh. 4 o'clock in the morning and I'm eating chocolate! Boo >_> guilty guilty guilty~
You know, the 'idolization' of Sylvester is getting out of hand. I dreamt of him last night! -.-" It was quite a detailed one, and I remembered most of it even when I woke up but I shan't type in details. We were studying in the same school, I had a torch for him since ages ago, I'm on good terms with his older sis and she knows of my crush, but Sly falls for girls quite easily even tho he's famous (yea lol) and I know I wouldn't have a chance, blah blah blah. We were starting to talk more and hang out more together, but I woke up before the dream got on to the part whereby we get together eventually. Lmao! Funneh dream >.>"
Anyway, don't call me mad, but I'm thinking of setting up/or joining a band. Yes. A band. A singing band, not a orchestra kind or w/e. I've always pondered over it but I'd brushed it aside for other stuff. But now... It'll take time.. I need to make more friends who dub in that area and well, get a job to pay for the equipments. Lol. As some may know, I love singing, as to how I love acting, (aka love to be a performer) tho I aspire to be a policewoman. Contradicting, I know, but to me, they mix strangely well. I don't even have much of a gut to sing my best in KTV with friends, but a band's all I need to build up my confidence. I feel strong in both languages so I hope my band will be 1 of mixed genre... R&B, Jazz, Pop, Chinese Pop etc... This is a hard dream to achieve, and I'm getting older (19 this year btw) and if I want to achieve this... I wanna do it within 3years. 'Sides, I don't even know if my voice is considered good enough. I usually do better in English songs b/c I feel more confident at it.. I've friends who sing wonderfully in chinese so I never tried to out-do them @ KTV sessions or whatsoever. I like my voice when I sing alone tho :p Sigh. I w0uld love to get together a Chinese rock/R&B band which'll do English songs sometimes. Will I be able to do it? Idk... Most prolly not. Sigh. I feel useless... I'm not much of an achiever I guess...
So, anyone able to hook me up to a band who doesn't mind auditioning a female vocalist? I can play the electric piano too! Just that I'll need some TOUGH practices again b/c I've dropped it for a couple of years. Lmao >_> I'll definitely appreciate your help tho! x_x
Re-reading what I just typed, I guess it'll remain a dream. Period. I don't even have friends who dub in bands and gigs so I'll never have a chance. Right now I'm thinking of sushi for tomorrow, or some nice meal when I go visit my mum @ home again. Bleah~ Ah well, BTVS 2nd season's dl is completing in about 2 hours, gonna let it run and grab a book or sleep. Haven't got much to talk about asides my dream and my dumb hope so... yeah. 'Nite..
You know, the 'idolization' of Sylvester is getting out of hand. I dreamt of him last night! -.-" It was quite a detailed one, and I remembered most of it even when I woke up but I shan't type in details. We were studying in the same school, I had a torch for him since ages ago, I'm on good terms with his older sis and she knows of my crush, but Sly falls for girls quite easily even tho he's famous (yea lol) and I know I wouldn't have a chance, blah blah blah. We were starting to talk more and hang out more together, but I woke up before the dream got on to the part whereby we get together eventually. Lmao! Funneh dream >.>"
Anyway, don't call me mad, but I'm thinking of setting up/or joining a band. Yes. A band. A singing band, not a orchestra kind or w/e. I've always pondered over it but I'd brushed it aside for other stuff. But now... It'll take time.. I need to make more friends who dub in that area and well, get a job to pay for the equipments. Lol. As some may know, I love singing, as to how I love acting, (aka love to be a performer) tho I aspire to be a policewoman. Contradicting, I know, but to me, they mix strangely well. I don't even have much of a gut to sing my best in KTV with friends, but a band's all I need to build up my confidence. I feel strong in both languages so I hope my band will be 1 of mixed genre... R&B, Jazz, Pop, Chinese Pop etc... This is a hard dream to achieve, and I'm getting older (19 this year btw) and if I want to achieve this... I wanna do it within 3years. 'Sides, I don't even know if my voice is considered good enough. I usually do better in English songs b/c I feel more confident at it.. I've friends who sing wonderfully in chinese so I never tried to out-do them @ KTV sessions or whatsoever. I like my voice when I sing alone tho :p Sigh. I w0uld love to get together a Chinese rock/R&B band which'll do English songs sometimes. Will I be able to do it? Idk... Most prolly not. Sigh. I feel useless... I'm not much of an achiever I guess...
So, anyone able to hook me up to a band who doesn't mind auditioning a female vocalist? I can play the electric piano too! Just that I'll need some TOUGH practices again b/c I've dropped it for a couple of years. Lmao >_> I'll definitely appreciate your help tho! x_x
Re-reading what I just typed, I guess it'll remain a dream. Period. I don't even have friends who dub in bands and gigs so I'll never have a chance. Right now I'm thinking of sushi for tomorrow, or some nice meal when I go visit my mum @ home again. Bleah~ Ah well, BTVS 2nd season's dl is completing in about 2 hours, gonna let it run and grab a book or sleep. Haven't got much to talk about asides my dream and my dumb hope so... yeah. 'Nite..
Thursday, December 02, 2004
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I can't believe it. I was so certain Sylvester will win Singapore Idol. I was by my com at 9.35pm just now, deciding between blogging to ask people to vote for Sly, or a trip to the MacDonald's drive-thru. I chose the latter b/c I was certain no 1 will see my entry in time, and that lots of people will vote for Sly anyway.
Even when I saw Olinda saying that she's voting for Taufik, I was still certain Sly will win b/c he did SO well tonight! (Olinda's filthy rich btw, now that shes out she coulda divert the votes to Taufik) I just wish I was able to vote for Sylvester. Melvin didn't allow. He was rooting for Taufik anyway = BOOOOOOOO
Sigh *chomps down a french fry noisily to vent her frustrations* This sux >.< See? I'm still girly after all =P Ima buy Sylvester's album when he releases it, and take a pic with the album and blog it MUAHAHA~
Sylvester Sim Xiang Long, I SWEAARR Ima make Melvin's friend intro u to me, MUAHAHA j/k actually, now that he's famous I don't think his sister will intro Sly to me neways lol (Since his sister is the medium of opportunity.)
Ok enough ranting. Ima get back to my MacDonald's and coax my bf since I sensed a tinge of jealousy =X k thx bye~
Even when I saw Olinda saying that she's voting for Taufik, I was still certain Sly will win b/c he did SO well tonight! (Olinda's filthy rich btw, now that shes out she coulda divert the votes to Taufik) I just wish I was able to vote for Sylvester. Melvin didn't allow. He was rooting for Taufik anyway = BOOOOOOOO
Sigh *chomps down a french fry noisily to vent her frustrations* This sux >.< See? I'm still girly after all =P Ima buy Sylvester's album when he releases it, and take a pic with the album and blog it MUAHAHA~
Sylvester Sim Xiang Long, I SWEAARR Ima make Melvin's friend intro u to me, MUAHAHA j/k actually, now that he's famous I don't think his sister will intro Sly to me neways lol (Since his sister is the medium of opportunity.)
Ok enough ranting. Ima get back to my MacDonald's and coax my bf since I sensed a tinge of jealousy =X k thx bye~
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