Bugger this. It sucks to be me.
Other than the vomiting incident, at least the day so far has been simple, and nice. My mum coddled me like I was still a small child; Tucking me into bed last night, presenting me with a hot drink and a sandwich to pack off for work this morning.
It didn't feel any different from normal days though, just that I no longer have anyone to manja to, and someone that I can call immediately when I feel like sharing something. Someone to love and dote on.
But I've finally realised that I don't deserve this anymore...
No matter if sometime down the road we might get back together, or I get into a new relationship, I'm not going to be treated with disrespect anymore.
Yes, now I do understand that I deserve better, but only time will assist in making me believe so.
I understand you now. The love's all gone. Not when my presence made you uncomfortable. Not when you're so thoroughly enjoying your life now. Not when the presence of me in the past 5 years has been wiped clean. Not when your mum looked at me like I'm a squished bug that wasn't welcome.
Everything is too late. My love was brutally pulverised and dead now; And any semblance of our relationship is dilapidated.
For awhile, to love was all we could do
We were young and we knew
In our eyes were alive
Deep inside we knew our love was true
For awhile, we paid no mind to the past
We knew love would last
Every night, something right
Would invite us to begin the day
Something happened along the way
What used to be happy was sad
Something happened along the way
And yesterday was all we had
And, oh, after the love has gone
How could you lead me on
And not let me stay around ?
Oh, oh, oh, after the love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love that’s lost be found ?
For awhile, to love each other with all
We would ever need
Love was strong for so long
Never knew that what was
Wrong, oh, baby, wasn’t right
We tried to find what we had
Till sadness was all we shared
We were scared
This affair would lead our love into
Something happened along the way
Yesterday was all we had
Something happened along the way
What used to be happy is sad
Something happened along the way
Yesterday was all we had
And, oh, after the love has gone
How could you lead me on
And not let me stay around ?
Oh, oh, oh, after the love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love that’s lost be found ?
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, after the love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love that’s lost be found ?
No more "Bei bei!", no more "Baobei I lub u", no more "Ba~by!", no more "kish kish?", no more tickle wrestlings on the bed before we sleep, no more "抱抱!" requests.
If I had known the way that this would end,
If I had read the last page first,
If I had had the strength to walk away,
If I had known how this would hurt,
I would've loved you anyway.
I'd do it all the same,
Not a second I would change,
Not a touch that I would trade.
Had I known my heart would break,
I would've loved you anyway.
It's bittersweet to look back now
At memories withered on the vine.
And just to hold you close to me
For a moment in time.
I would've loved you anyway.
I'd do it all the same,
Not a second I would change,
Not a touch that I would trade.
Had I known my heart would break,
I would've loved you anyway.
And even if I'd seen it coming,
You'd still have seen me running
Straight into your arms.
I would've loved you anyway.
I'd do it all the same,
Not a second I would change,
Not a touch that I would trade.
Had I known my heart would break,
I would've loved you anyway.
I would've loved you anyway.
It's only the next day, and I miss you terribly. However, now that I think of it, I'm honestly glad you're happy.
In a way, I'm relieved too. Our pain has finally come to an end...
Our memories are bittersweet, and I have yet to get over the shock of us being over, I still burst into tears uncontrollably, but I will move on without you.
You don't have to feel responsible for me anymore...
Thanks.
"The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive and do not forget." - Thomas Stephen Szasz
I forgive you. Do you forgive me too?
人在成长的过程中，难免遇到挫折。
懂得保护自己，也要懂得爱自己。
生命的乐章，看你自己如何去谱写。
躲避不一定躲得过
面对不一定最难受
得到不一定能长久
失去不一定不再有
转身不一定最软弱
别急着说别无选择
别以为世上只有对与错，
许多事情的答案都不止一个，
所以我们永远有路可以走。
你能找到理由难过，
也一定能找到快乐。
懂得放心的人找到轻松
懂得遗忘的人找到自由
懂得关怀的人找到朋友。
Forgetting is something that time takes care of, but forgiveness is an act of volition, and only the sufferer is qualified to make the decision.
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