Sunday, January 18, 2009

SICK.

I don't know who I am anymore. Why am I doing this shit. When I should have left that fucked up lifestyle behind me years ago.

I club. I party like HELL. I drink like a fucking fish. But do I really like it? Is Clarke Quay seriously my 1st/2nd home you guys always thought it is to me? 

NO. 

I only go there because that's the only place I feel safe. Wanted. Known. Recognised. Not fucking lonely. Where I can lose myself to the thumpa thumpa music and alcohol. Forget the shit for a few hours.

I'm fucked up. Jenx is 1 fucked up piece of mental case. I need to drag myself out of this fucking shit.

I just hope I hadn't lost myself so much that I can't find me again.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

omg babe, u stil have us. we r always here no matter when n wat.

luv
Jessicaxes