Two words.

Maggi mee.

From a perfectly normal-looking girl with normal, if not, nice hair...





See? Don't I look just like one of the hundred thousands of young women in Singapore?

Nooo.... Jen Jen has to want to change her hairstyle. She wanted to upgrade.

"I want those wavy hair that most matured OLs have!"

I had my dubiety about going to the saloon my mum always patronise, because I think I had a bad dye job there once even tho the rebonding was cheap and lasting.

But emphasize on the cheap - Regular's discount led to only $90+ for the perming, trimming, highlighting, sculpting lotion and mosturizer. I can hardly argue with that.

This is the result of reading the magazine and not paying attention to the auntie who is cutting and perming your hair:

"Aiya, nice la. Mai hiao liao lar(don't be vain)". My ignorant mother chimed in.

Nice? NICE? NICE?!

I DID wanted a new look for CNY, but my hair ended up shorter by 4-5 inches(without asking!) and I look like a maggi mee head.



YOU TELL ME

NICE?!



"Gu gu(Aunt), you look like King Kong, I look like Chicken Little!"

ROAR!!!!!!!

My eyes are constantly watery; The dams are threatening to break through. I'm trying my best to not glance at the mirror and preoccupy myself as much as possible.

Sigh. It prolly wouldn't have been so bad if she had not cut off so much of my hair. The next time I want to do something to my hair, someone hit me with a mallet and stop me from the foolish act, okay? :(

*Grumbles* What you want?!

I'm pooped.

One thing I hate about office jobs is paper cuts. Oh, and don't forget being poked by staple bullets. Argh.

First day was fine; I'd got over my panic attack. I even got there at 8.15am! Lol... It takes only 15mins for me to reach Somerset, and the shuttle bus from ComCentre to AIG building only takes like what, 3 minutes?

Yup, I'm working at American Home Assurance, the insurance company. The people there aren't going all out to be friendly or whatever, but they aren't half bad.

But I swear, the paperworks is going to make me permanently cross-eyed one day. The only "bad" thing about the location is that I would have to take the shuttle bus to Somerset to get food, or walk about 10minutes to the kopitiam opposite Rush to get lunch.

It's either the 10 minutes walk or bistro, japanese restaurant, bistro, bistro, restaurant. Bleah.

Anybody wanna go Madam Wong this Friday? I'll walk over and meet you there :D lol.

The reason why I'm so pooped, is that Mel and I gave the word "clingy" a whole new level of meaning. We woke up at 5.20am today for him to send me home to prepare for work, so that we could spend the night together.

Anyhoo, here's the pictures of Kailing and me on NYE. I did not bring my digicam, so we basically only took pics of us with her HP. *shrugs*




Yes, I know, I'm so goddamned chubby, even I can't stand it.



Had one of my favourite drinks at Balcony - Seabreeze. In my perception, it's really light in alcohol content, and I'd almost prided myself in staying sober during NYE, until I almost drunk myself silly on Chivas at some KTV pub later >_>.

I should have stopped playing the dice games when the others drank coke and I was the only one drinking alcohol :P.

Alright, I guess I'm gonna go catch my 40 winks now. Take care all!

Love,
Jen

Oh gawddd...

Everytime an agency gets me a job where I wouldn't have to go for an interview, I panic.

I mean, I don't remember panicking when I worked as a travel consultant, as Steven put me on ease during the interview.

Sometimes I cry when I panic. Like now. I'm starting work at American Home Assurance this Monday >_>.

Thank goodness I did not agree to working on Friday when they called me up on Thursday.

Wish me luck!

*Sob sob, I won't be able to thoroughly enjoy myself on CNY... But at least those nosy relatives will get off my back.*

Damnit, I'm dying for Secret Recipe's lamb stew. All I have now are tidbits and alfredo fettuccine I'm too lazy to cook.

And I'm having the bloody flu. *Sniffles* *Coughs*

Gaahhh...

I don't care about losing weight; I'm going to have my lamb stew tonight! =d

Some ramblings.

Hey, no hangover!

I have not received the photos from my friend that we took on NYE(not that there was alot, since I did not bring my digicam along) yet, so I'll just talk about other stuff for now.

I'm not sure if it's because of the new year, but my inner muse is being all melancholy and contemplative right now.

Have you ever questioned why you exist? As in took a look at yourself and pondered how it is possible?

We all walk, talk, eat, breathe and sleep. But so do the billions of people all over the world. We all possess bodies that we didn't create ourselves, but are completely capable of controlling it and taking advantage of what our bodies are able to do.

Have you ever realised that we are the lucky ones? Knowing that you have this body and what you can do?

What bewilders me is, why do most people still decide to slack off and do nothing with it?

It's common knowledge that we all have a mind of our own, ability of motion, and to a certain extent, power. Yet most just push it back to nether regions and do nothing much with their lives.

Do you really want to lie on your deathbed decades later and think, "Fuck, if only I did this and that in the past."

I don't.

It's been approximately 8 years since I decided I am capable of making decisions of my own; That I should be the one to dictate my own life.

I wasted 6 of the years; It started its irrevocable path ever since I allowed my mother to reign over me completely.

I don't believe in the existance of God, but I believe that there's kismet that placed us on this earth, and gave us intelligence, the ability to move, communicate and make decisions, while other living things aren't that fortunate.

I am one of those people who wasted away their precious time; Spending 2 decades in this world, and I've accomplished nothing. To be specific, I've accomplished none of the things that I really want, or will be really proud of.

Today is one of those days I'm grateful for the capacity of my power - The power to change my life and influence those around me.

I will be happy. I will be. I will fulfill what brings joy to me or what I want in my life, and be unswayed by society or what people think.

This has nothing to do with religion or the God-shit people sprout. This is my will, my determination. I will look back at the end of 2006, and be satisfied.

That is my new year resolution.



"You don't write because you want to say something; you write because you've got something to say."
- F. Scott Fitzgerald

Alcohol... Bad... Me.. Head.. Hurts...

My New Year resolutions!

Ahh... Here comes the time where people settle down in their seats and think about their resolutions for the new year.

Well, I think mine seems like a good list of resolutions as any. *Gets comfy on the bed* Right, here goes:

Get a nice, stable job(s). As long as I can get a new job soonafter, it won't matter if its not a permanent position.

Not gain anymore weight. Or preferably,

Lose weight and shape up. (though it feels like a lost cause)

Pamper myself with all the things I never dared to splurge on.

Try to get along better with my mum.

Be less MIA with my old friends.

Try to overcome my inferiority complex.

Start actual plannings for my overseas dream.

Learn to control my temper better.

Clean my pig sty of a room.

Stop them from treating my room like a spare storeroom once I've cleared the space.

Um... Stop biting my fingernails?

Lol... One can only hope to accomplish their resolutions. May you guys have a wonderful New Year Countdown later! *Kisses and hugs for all*

What saves a man is to take a step. Then another step. It is always the same step, but you have to take it.

- Antoine de Saint-Exupery

A question!

Anybody knows about Trexi? To be specific, the Coca Cola Trexi figure?



I only have the Trexi figure; No box, no card. I redeemed it with the Venom figurine receipt at Cineshop. All I've been told by people, is that its rare, yadda yadda.

I need to know the price of it in Singapore because I wanna sell it. This is the only site I could find that has a price. I'm not sure if it would be accurate if I convert the amount into SGD.

Your help will be genuinely appreciated! ;)

=)

Sigh. In about 26 hours' time, Mel's official RP duties will commence.

I'll never be able to spend the nights at his place anymore, since his schedule is the likes of "work 2 days, off 1 day". When he books out, it would be in the afternoon, and he would have to book in at about 7-8am the next day.

There goes our time together. It sucks that we have to go through more stumbling blocks when we've already made it through for 3years plus now. I have a foreboding feeling about this.

Sigh.

Anyway, my VCD was found, but unfortunately, not my magnets :( Oh well. At least I'll get to watch it again sometime next year(heh).

Had dinner at Sakae Sushi at Lot 1 earlier in the evening. Seriously, I think Mel and I are getting too accustomed to eating out.

Within the short span of 2 weeks, we've already dined at Sakae's for 4 times, and we also ate at Billy Bombers, Fiesta, Bistro Delifrance, etc. We ate out almost every night, and we did not step into a hawker centre at all. We surfeited, and spent a rather staggering $400+ on food alone.

What with our pococurante demeanour towards buying stuff that we don't actually need, we now have a big, nice hole in our pockets. @_@"

Nonetheless, I'm eyeing a Samsung Mp4 player on Yahoo Auctions right now, but the price's ridiculously cheap($150 for a 20gb one!) and my bid had not met his reserve price, so I can only cross my fingers. 'Sides, I only intend to bid up to $200. *Scrunches up nose*

Afterall, the new year is coming. Buying DVDs for myself for Christmas, and a Mp3/Mp4 player for the new year, what's wrong with that?

Chinese New Year, please come soon!!!


I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.

- Martha Washington

Huh.

Fuck, I'm so pissed right now. Mel lent my Initial D VCD to Bong a couple of months ago, and he assured me that Bong won't lend it to someone else.

2 weeks ago, I asked Bong for my VCD, and he told me he lent it to Deron. Without asking me, treating the VCD was his.

And Deron lent it to his platoon mates and didn't know where it was. I purposely sms-ed him before his ORD date, but he did not reply. Now he'd ORD-ed. No chance of getting it back now.

ZZZ!

And it's not as if either one would claim responsibility for losing my stuff and buy 1 back for me. *Grumbles*

Fuck lor. I'd barely bought the VCD for a few days, and it had a pretty metal case with magnets inside. I've been dying to watch it :( It's not just about the money; it's about the credibility of borrowing and returning.

Just like the money Derek and Elaine owe Melvin till now. A hefty $1000+ by both of them. Elaine just keep saying she doesn't have money, and Derek had the guts to join us for Xmas countdown like he didn't still owe us $600.

I nagged Melvin to ask him for the money, but he said, "Aiya, nevermind la, I'll ask next time, let's not spoil the Christmas mood." AS IF! We barely talked to Derek and his friends anyway. They just kept standing behind us or walking around.

GAHHHH, MEN AND THEIR EGO! *Pulls out her hair*

Sigh. Anyway, back to the main subject for this post - I just woke up from a pretty weird dream.

I dreamt that Mel had already shifted into the new house, and we were retiring for the night. It was snowing, so I had to make sure the windows above our head were locked shut.

Somehow, I managed to dilly-dally till daybreak, and an unfamiliar face woke up beside us(No, it was not an orgy or threesome. The girl felt like a younger sibling.) and saw that everything outside was covered in snow, and when she opened 1 window to get a better view, a dragonfly flew in.

Naturally, my first reaction was to cry out as I landed on the floor in a ball, covering my face and waving my hand about, trying to make the dragonfly go away. Yes, that's how I am in real life. I'm terrified of bugs.

And then somehow, a cockroach came, and the strange notion of the cockroach eating/beating the dragonfly came into mind. I then saw the dragonfly beating the cockroach in a series of impressive air attacks, and I took off running.

Within steps, I found different bugs crawling across my trail towards the stairs. I tried to go down the stairs, but there were spiders, funny bugs, and cockroaches obstructing only my intended path.

I woke my boyfriend aka the brave bugkiller and he proceeded to beat a trail of dead bugs for me lol. I followed behind him, and we ended up in a shopping mall or something, and I saw all the fast food restaurants having new products on their menu.

KFC had a chicken burger with a huge patty while having a slit down the middle. MacDonald's had new rice products - A square of rice with curry filling inside, a chicken rice set with the skin wrapped around the rice and had chicken filling inside, and 1 with kaya filling too.

Right after I told Mel that we should go try them, I woke up from the dream despite having slept for only 1 hour, and started to munch on my tidbits.

*Crunches on her tapioca snacks wistfully* This is the first time my body actually reacted to my dreams - I was hungry, thus dreaming about food, and my body awoke me to make me eat.

Huh.

Testing.

Everyone seems to have an account with Technorati, and even tho I'm still not clear about what it does (heh), I'll just get it out of the way, aye?

Technorati Profile

*Yawns*

Finally, Christmas and Boxing Day are over, so it's time to change my blog song.

I really want to celebrate New Year's countdown at MOS or with my friends, but I kinda promised my niece I'll go over to their place =P. Besides, I don't want to think about the queue for entrance to MOS that day.

For the Xmas Eve party, I'd managed to cut into the middle of the queue due to John's friends, but I still waited for 35mins. I shudder to think about New Year's Eve.

With the horrendous amount of time to be spent on queueing in mind, junk food and fast food and DVD marathon with my close relatives is making me ebullient :D.

Anybody want to go, tho? =X Maybe not on the 31st, but do gimme or call or a message online whenever you feel like going to Ministry of Sound.


I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

- Sonnet XVII, Pablo Neruda

Merry Christmas!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Lol, the first song that came into mind when I wanted to change it for Christmas, was this one by Blink 182 ;D

I just got home from the Xmas Eve party at MOS and supper @ Hong Kong Cafe in Siglap. Yummy food, by the way.

And I think I'm in love with Ministry of Sound.

I mean, seriously, I've clubbed for almost 5 years, and while Sparks holds a special spot in my heart for being the 1st disco I went to, and 1 that I visited regularly for 2years+, MOS simply rocked.

The place's gorgeous. My words won't do justice to it unless you see it for yourself. I mean, seriously, I can spend hours in their washrooms and comfy chairs! I'm sure that if I go with my girlfriends, and we can't find seats, we'll be sitting on the red cushy stools painting our faces(=P) and chit-chatting.

Then again, maybe not. There's no way I would give up the chance to ogle the cute Ang Mohs there. Most of the angmohs I saw tonight were soooo cute!!! *Swoons like an airhead*


I LOVE the R&B room. Too bad it's a little small, but the Eurodance area is great. It looks like the cosier and more atmospheric upgrade version of the old Zouk(I haven't been to the renovated one yet).

I wasted my time videocam-ing a guy who thought he was John Travolta not, and my batt ran out before I could record down the countdown ;(

You should have seen the queue when we reached at 9.30pm. If I'm not wrong, the queue was about 1km+, but fortunately, we have friends who queued since 8pm and we cut into the middle xD

The Clarke Quay carpark right next to MOS was half-filled with Mercedes and BMWs as if they were the regular Nissan Sunny or Toyota Corolla. But you should have seen the yellow Lamborghini Murcielago, silver Maserati, silver Porsche family car and silver Benzley on the other side.

I mean, WAH LAO, it was my first time seeing a Maserati in real life! And the Lambor was so shiny, I could see the engine clearly and possibly my reflection.

Ahh, what I wouldn't give to live a wealthy life...

Mehh.... I've only had 3 hours of sleep because I was worried I'll oversleep today.

I've gotten the $100 postal order, ready to contact the seller and everything. Wee!

I feel so hyper right now, don't rightly know why. Not as if I took too much sugar; All I had was a cup of Bandung! I guess I'm just running on adrenaline that it's Xmas Eve, then.

I'm not big on celebrating the birth of someone I don't believe in, but the holidays spirit always gets to me. I'm going to West Mall later to get some last minute Christmas presents for Mel's family, since half of them are Christians, and I've already gotten a present from his 3rd Aunt.

It's the 3rd Christmas present I've received from her, and its bloody time I reciprocate before the guilt's too much.

I wonder if anybody will ask me out tomorrow... :D

Happy Christmas Eve sweetcheeks!

Just came back from watching The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe.

King Kong last Sunday was great. The 1v3 T-Rex scene... AWESOME. Especially when King Kong snapped the T-Rex's jaws and tauntingly flapped them.

Even tho I still have fuzzy memories about watching the old King Kong movie where the gorilla swung around on top of the Empire State building hitting airplanes, and then die, it didn't stop half the theatre's women and me leaving with wet eyes.

Narnia's bloody brilliant too. It struck me that 2 great fantasy movies - Harry Potter and Narnia's main characters are British. Seeing Lucy sitting with Thomson the faun, sipping her tea like a demure little lady, simply tickled me. The movie's like a fightier but not bloody(forgive my slaughter of the language) version of Harry Potter filled with mystical animals.

Decided to treat myself to getting the Season 1-5 DVDs of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, off a Malaysian seller on Ebay. Haveta be at a post office bright and early later, to purchase a postal order. Bleah. I really need to adjust my body clock.

In case I get too lazy to update on Christmas itself,

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, ducks! Enjoy the holidays! ;)



The soul takes flight to the world that is eternal... invisible. But there arriving she is sure of bliss, and forever dwells in paradise…
- Lady Jane

0_o

My newest "hobby" of late is burning all the movies I'd downloaded into DVDs and having fun personalizing them. Weird, I know.

Anyway, watched The Promise on Thursday, and I'm going out to watch King Kong later.

Narnia next week! Woohoo!

The Promise was... nice. I absolutely loved the colour visuals, and the time period of which man and gods co-existed together.

I guess it's another of those artistic films where the director tries to portray certain meanings to us, with each character assuming a specific role that depicts of current society. I'm not gonna act all smart-like and say I fully understood the show, but I shall think I understand enough.

Only thing is, I'm still not sure if the last few scenes of Nicholas Tse was overacting or not. He was clearly displaying some sort of phobia/psychological disorder that I'm too lazy to google for, but the entire theatre laughed when he started crying. Lmao.

It was entertaining to see Nicholas acting abit like a gay, but I found the scene where Cecilia was flown like a kite absolutely lame.

Totally loved Hinoyuki Sanada tho; He was my favourite guy in The Last Samurai. He's just so man, and possesses great acting skills. *Swoons*

But he's not as man or possess sex appeal like James Marsters, of course. Never!

Anyway, I've decided to share some of my favourite songs to be played on my blog. They're mostly kinda loud, so if you hate em, you can always click the Stop button.

However, if your taste is as good as mine *winks*, you'll prolly enjoy them. Lyrics and song titles will be in the "etc" section.

Oh, look at the time. Time to move off to Cineleisure. 'Ta, ducks.

:O!

Friday was fun! I got to catch up with my buds whom I haven't seem in eons, okay, maybe just 1-2years, but it'd been so long!

I'm gonna post some of the pictures I took since I was the designated photographer a.k.a the only one with a digicam, and let my fair warning be known that you're gonna see a very ugly sight in some of them.

So anyway, Thursday was Deron's 21st birthday, and he held his celebration at Music Underground on Friday.

Alright, here's some of the photos, they look real grainy because of the pic size.


The birthday boy! Happy 21st birthday again, Deron!


Here's 2 of my fav buds that I'd gotten to know through Deron 4 years ago:

Ang, me, and Bel(vis)!


Me and whom I consider the Energiser Monkey, Jacob. Lol


My favourite people from my old clique! Belvis, Deron, me and Ang hehe. It felt like we had met up just recently before, instead of years.


The bunch of mad dicks lol. Ang, Chuan, Ken, Bel, "Tok", Deron, Jacob, etc etc~

Somehow, they'd managed to keep me laughing the entire night, even those whom I just met for the first time.

I'm really glad I still have these friends :D

Please don't treat me like a child.

I may have been lost for a while; I may stumble here and there in my path towards full-blown adulthood, but I'm already on my way.

Please do not stand in my path by treating me like the child I am not anymore.


I don't want your condescending tones,
Nor do I need your needless reprimands.

Will my respect be ever reciprocated?
Will I ever gain your trust?

In the tenebrous sky, moon's hanging low.
I can hear the trees' sempiternal murmurs--
Their moans mixing with my whimpers.

The cold, ruthless wind rumpled my raven tress.
Swirling maelstrom in my eyes,
Lassitude evident.

Have you noticed that about me,
Or do you feel nothing but schadenfreude,
for the onus I've became?

The broken old soul in me buzzes
With discontentment;
For I am now but a lambent shadow of myself.

Still, an ingenue lies
Deep inside me.
Relentlessly looking for that anodyne to
Sooth my resentful aberrant mind.

My joys evanescent,
I long for a day where
I can spread my unfledged wings, and
Dance under the moonlight,

Effulgent.



(Andrew Wyeth's Christina's World.)

The poem's "fresh out of the oven" for 5 minutes; I have yet to name it. I'm an amateur, hence the lousy paragraphing and the weird mixture of styles.

Honest comments will be very appreciated.

Good bye.

Good bye, Nguyen Toung Van.

I'm relieved that the Singapore government stood her ground, but the death of a human being doesn't elates or sits well with me.

May you find peace in Heaven, or, have a better life in your next reincarnation.


No more be grieved at which thou hast done:
Roses have thorns, and silver fountains mud;
Clouds and eclipes stain both moon and sun'
And loathsome lives in sweetest bud.
All men make faults, and even I in this,
Authorizing thy trespass compare,
Myself corrupting, salving thy amiss,
Excusing thy sins more than thy sins are:
For to thy sensual fault I bring sense
(Thy adverse party is thy advocate)
And 'gainst myself a lawful plea commence;
Such civil war is in my love and hate
That I an accessary needs must be
To that sweet thief which sourly robs from me.

- William Shakespeare

ARGH!!!!

Is it wrong to say my sis-in-law is fucking dumb and irritating? Can I?

Heck,

MY SIS-IN-LAW IS A BLOODY DUMB FUCK!

All because my maid of 4 years decided to get a HP and a life, aka chatting with her friends in SG over the phone, she got all worried and went to remove the phone plug from my room, and FUCKING CHANGED MY HOME NUMBER OF 6 YEARS!

The number was nice too, 6456, and ends with the last 4 numbers of my door.

Fuck. And she didn't tell us until she changed it, too.

She said, "We change number lah, so whoever she was talking to, won't have the new number anymore. Let's not tell the maid we changed numbers too."

WTF? HOW DUMB CAN SHE GET?

She better be the one who's calling all the companies and whatsnot, to notify our change of home number. If she asks me to do it, I swear to God, I'll bash her face in. I've had just about enough of her stupid actions.

Argh, she's driving me towards more nicotine addiction.